TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[puma1986]

well, spotting is red now. Still pretty light, but I'm thinking its just a matter of time for AF to show. May arrive late tomorrow evening or Thursday morning. Thank you everyone for being there for me during these yoyo moments! They are so stressful to deal with!

At least I already have a game plan for next cycle. Maybe we'll have a better shot at it next cycle, as DH will have been off of weed for 6 weeks by the time Ov rolls around again. The crappy thing about next cycle is if we do get pregnant, I'd be due right around the same time as my brothers wedding. and if we don't get pregnant, we may miss our window for the cycle after as DH will be away on a multi day hike.

I'm loving your positivity this cycle, Belle. You're totally right! I'm right there with you!!! Our odds of conceiving go up every cycle!!

Also, you were dead on! My little bunny hop of a dip 3 days ago turned out to be my O date! Lol

 

[puma1986]

Hi everyone is it ok for me join? As you can see I'm already a mummy but I'm trying for one more!! I'm on my 1st round of Clomid (day 15) and haven't ovulated as yet. I had an ultrasound Monday and it showed a dominant 19mm follie on my right ovary. Wish it would pop already!! So exciting to see bfps on here although I've just kind of read the recent posts . Love and baby dust to all

Hey hopeful! Of course! Welcome to our thread Four children! You must be wonderwoman!! My 8 year old son is enough to take up all my time lol!! My sister has four children as well! How awesome to have such a large family Did you have trouble conceiving them?

 

[BelleNuit]

Your little bunny hop of a dip is very cute puma. Fingers crossed for you!

I'm definitely feeling out. A partial temp drop today with cramping. On to cycle 10. FML, I'd just love to have one baby

 

[BelleNuit]

I'm going to go back to the doc. I don't have a family doc so I have to go to the walk-in clinic. I'm hoping they will refer me to a gyno who may have a bit of experience in fertility. I still think it's entirely possible I have low progesterone.

 

[Bella12]

Hey Belle. Did your AF arrive?

Low progesterone? I just looked it up. That could definitely impact fertility and it sounds like just a simple blood test will help you determine if that's the issue. If there has to be a problem, that might be an easy one to fix.

 

[BelleNuit]

Bella, AF is not officially here, but spotting is getting heavier. It will arrive tomorrow, right on time!

If I had to pick a fertility issue, low progesterone would be it lol.

 

[BabyC4Me]

Belle!!!!

So sorry to hear about your spotting and soon to be AF! But I'm super glad that you are staying positive and moving on to the next cycle with a plan and some alternative supplements to aide in the process. Your TTC journey is complicated but it's almost over '. I can feel it.


Yesterday I bought a cute little journal to write notes and entries to my baby. It was so fun and encouraging writing to him / her / them lol

Ultrasound is scheduled a week from now ! I'm very nervous but confident that the baby is doing what it need to do. And that's GROW !

have a great Thursday ladies !

 

[BelleNuit]

I'm not positive. I'm pissed the $&#! off. I'm on my 10th cycle? My 10th cycle. 85℅ of women would be pregnant by now. My chances aren't increasing each cycle, they decrease each cycle. If anything I'm well on my way to being diagnosed with un-effing-explainable infertility.

I'm going to the doctor because I've had enough of this sh!t show and I don't need to be positive about it.





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BabyC your messages to your baby sound super duper sweet. What a wonderful keepsake to cherish. Can't wait to hear about your ultrasound

 

[BabyC4Me]

I'm not positive. I'm pissed the $&#! off. I'm on my 10th cycle? My 10th cycle. 85℅ of women would be pregnant by now. My chances aren't increasing each cycle, they decrease each cycle. If anything I'm well on my way to being diagnosed with un-effing-explainable infertility.

I'm going to the doctor because I've had enough of this sh!t show and I don't need to be positive about it.





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BabyC your messages to your baby sound super duper sweet. What a wonderful keepsake to cherish. Can't wait to hear about your ultrasound

It's okay to be effing pissed off. That's a natural feeling. We all have been there. I'm in your corner and will be supporting you gals every step of the way ! We are in this together.

Please don't beat yourself up about this.

Stay strong ! Your baby needs you !

 

[BelleNuit]

Thanks BabyC. I had a rough night with little sleep. Had severe cramping all night which kept me up. Puked all over myself this morning. Ugh I just feel like complete crap

And despite all that AF still isn't here in full force. It's either a little heavier spotting or light flow. But it's red, so not good either way.

 

[puma1986]

Awe my Dear Belle! I would definitely talk to a Doctor! Please also keep in mind that fertility in men has DECREASED 50 PERCENT. Since the 1950s. You can look this up. Its terrifying. I personally believe it's due to massive amounts of DDT that were in the air during that time. Also, I don't remember, but has DH been checked for sperm morphology and motility? Its possible that, especially due to marijuana use, his swimmers need a bit of time to recover. You are strong and wonderful. You are not alone and we are not leaving your side. We are in this with you 100% and will be there for all the days you cry out of anger and the day you cry from happiness when your baby implants.

WE ARE WITH YOU DOLL!! You're welcome to rant, get angry and vent and we will shout at the universe with you!

I've never met you, but I love you to pieces. We can do this together!

 

[puma1986]

I couldn't find the scholarly article I had found on decreased fertility that I used for my sustainability class, but even TIME published an article thAt pesticides and chemical in the air that We breath can decrease fertility by 29 percent for both parties.

https://healthland.time.com/2012/11/15/pollutants-linked-to-lower-fertility-in-both-men-and-women/

 

[BelleNuit]

Thank you puma. There is no way I would be able to go through this without you guys!!! I've taken to screaming in the car at the top of my lungs on my drives home from work lol. It seems to help get some of my anger out.

DH has agreed to go to the doc with me today, so I'm just waiting till he finishes up some work first. That article is terrifying puma! I had read something like that before! In all likelihood it may take awhile for DH's swimmers to recover. But it doesn't feel very good in the meantime.

 

[BelleNuit]

Went to the doc with DH in tow. Got a req for CD 3 & 21 blood tests, and an SA for DH.

But the doc already put in a referral to the this private fertility clinic that just opened where I live. She put in the referral before asking us. I'm not sure how I feel about that as I would still like to try for a year before getting intensive fertility treatment. But on the other hand, the wait for the public clinic in town is up to 18 months, so I'm betting there will be a bunch of referrals to the new private clinic which might create a bit of a back log. So it might be a few months wait regardless. If we are still trying by the time our one year wait rolls around, I might be happy to have a referral well in place already.

Not sure what we would do if our names came up on the list before the one year mark though. I exaggerated to the doc and told her we had been trying for a year already.

I really just wanted to have some testing done for some peace of mind.... I don't think I'm ready for everything else that comes with it!

 

[GoldenRatio]

Belle, didnt u already do a hormone test and you said everything was fine?

 

[BelleNuit]

I had blood testing done before which came out normal (it was on CD 2 though because it wasn't specified what day I should go in), but never the CD 21 testing, and they want an ultrasound done as well

 

[BelleNuit]

According to this site

https://www.countdowntopregnancy.com/tools/age_fertility_calculator.php

Only 14/100 people won't be pregnant after trying for 9 cycles. 3 of those will get pregnant their 10th cycle and then the numbers drop way down from there.

 

[GoldenRatio]

CD2 can show all the hormones, maybe not progesterone. I dont think progesterone is ur problem since ur chart shows a good temp shift after ovulation. They probably wanna do ultrasound to see if you have pcos.

My Obgyn thinks i dont have pcos. We had our first appointment and she said just having elevated LH is not enough to diagnose someone with pcos. She said i would have called it unexplained infertility. Because clomid worked, she thinks i just wasnt ovulating proper eggs.

Good luck, its really annoying how every doctor thinks something else and there is never an easy way. Private fertility clinics love doing IUI and IVF because thats how they make money so try to avoid them. Obgyn can prescribe clomid and other fertility drugs too.

 

[BelleNuit]

I think she was just trying to be extra thorough as she had personally struggled with infertility and ended up pursuing surrogacy.

Ultimately we don't have to go to that clinic. I'm definitely not ready for IUI or IVF but would consider meds at this point

 

[BelleNuit]

The problem may also be with DH. We could put the argument to rest once and for all about whether or not weed messed up his SA.