TTC #1- Looking for buddies!

[Dream143r]

DH and I are fighting over zip lock freezer bags right now. FREEZER bags!

So silly.

tb - hope your conversation goes well at your appointment tomorrow.

 

[steph1607]

Hahaha TB! Please get rid of your stupid snow storm so I can get cracking! Good luck at your appointment

Dream, don't we argue over the most ridiculous things sometimes? Hope you managed to sort it out.

Amber, your ticker is so cute!

The nurse has just phoned me and they want me to go in on Monday afternoon for some dildo cam fun. I asked her what she thinks they might suggest next but she wasn't entirely sure at this point. So the wait continues. Of course, there is a chance that my period might come before Monday and I won't need that appointment, but I am really not holding out much hope.

I echo what TB said though, thank you all for keeping me sane and always being willing to listen to me moan and ramble!

 

[SunnyBe]

Tb, I'm so happy you feel positive about it. What you wrote totally makes sense and I think IVF is the perfect option for you in case it doesn't happen naturally in the next couple of months.

Dream, Fx for a blazing positive today!!

Steph, dildo cam fun What were you on previously to get AF started?

Amber, glad you got your ticker up! It's so fun to see

And AFM... I got a shadow of a line yesterday at 11 DPO on an IC. I've never ever had a line before, but was thinking it could be a faulty batch as the test was so sloowww to develop. Took at least 90 seconds for the control line to pop up. So I let DH pee on one too. Still very slow to develop but no shadows pretending to be a line.

This morning, I can actually see some color. It's very hard to capture it on camera though. Can you girls see anything? I mean, this can't be real right??

 

[Dream143r]

Sunny! I see that line right away. OMG, could it be for real?! I sooooo hope it is. I saw it as soon as I opened the picture.

DH and I never really sorted out our ziplock bag fight. We got a half BD in last night but he couldn't finish. I instantly broke down in tears and had a mini breakdown in bed. He tried to comfort me but with no success. I just feel like the universe doesn't want me to be a mother. Anyways we talked this morning and we will try again this afternoon. My OPK is positive now so last night was a critical missed day but if we are successful later today I think we still have a decent shot.

 

[tbfromlv]

Omg omg omg omg I see it sunny!! This is incredible!! Ahhhhh!! Are you going for a blood test? I’m in shock and excited for you!!

Steph hopefully she comes your way before then! I got the dildo cam today

Dream positive today??

 

[steph1607]

Sunnnnyyyyyyyyyyy, whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!! Keeping everything crossed that this is it for you. I've heard stories before where couples get pregnant naturally shortly after an IVF cycle.

Haha TB, you're in for a great day I'm sure!

Sunny, I've taken Norethisterone previously a few times when I was under a previous doctor (NHS), but again, it didn't really do anything. I had a day of minor spotting on that, but nothing that's of any use to anybody! With the Provera so far I have had nothing.

 

[SunnyBe]

Omg, so you see it?! I don't know what to think, how can we get a positive after all those months and an IVF cycle. I'm too terrified to even do the calculations in my head to determine due dates etc because I can't even imagine this being real. I don't want to get my hopes up. It can still be an evap right?! I'll buy some of those 88 cent Walmart ones and maybe some FRER's as well.

Sorry you're feeling down Dream! You'll absolutely be a mom, I just know it. Go make the best of that +OPK today!

Tb, how was your date with the dildo cam?

Steph, that really sucks! I hope AF will be there before Monday. All this waiting is just the worst.

 

[steph1607]

Sunny it can happen because our bodies are just utterly ridiculous!!! Go and buy some tests and update us ASAP!!!

 

[steph1607]

Also I've just rethought about this and you were doing IVF because of MFI weren't you? And we know that sperm counts etc can improve AND it only takes one good'un anyway!

 

[tbfromlv]

Dream I’m so sorry you were feeling down. I completely understand and I’ve had some of those break downs too.

Sunny- definitely not an evap! Go get those tests!

Afm- my follicles are still a little small.. my largest one is on my left side (I always assume the left side sucks because it’s the one with the cyst) but they want me to come back Sunday for a scan and hopefully tell me I can trigger. Idk though, I don’t usually have much faith in my follicle development lol I asked them about IVF and she was wishy washy.. didn’t really give me a yes or no kind of thing. I also saw a different doctor in the office than I usually do so idk. I just don’t want to waste time and money if it’s just going to end up with IVF. I just need some answers

 

[AmberR]

Oh my gosh sunny I see that line clear as day! Hoping this is it for you!! Can't wait to see your next test!

Dream- sorry you are feeling down. Yay for + OPK today!

Tb- I'm sorry you didn't really get the answers you were wanting at your appointment.

Steph- hope AF makes her arrival so you don't have to get the dildo cam!

 

[SunnyBe]

You girls are way more optimistic than I am lol. I bought 2 Walmart cheapies and a pack of 3 FRERs (holy s*... soooo expensive!!). I've saved up the FMU and tried the Walmart brand. I see *something* but it's just so very faint! See attached. I don't know if it's supposed to be this faint at 12 DPO. Trying not to think about it too much (which is absolutely impossible).

I'll test again tomorrow morning with a FRER.

Steph, you're absolutely right!

Tb, on what CD did you trigger last month? I hope the follies plump up in the next couple of days

 

[Dream143r]

Sunny! You're pregnant! That line is soooooooooo there!

Have you gotten lines before? Sorry I don't remember if you have a chemical or MC history.

I'm praying it sticks, cause its 100% there!

 

[tbfromlv]

Sunny that is definitely ok for 12 dpo. So excited for you!!! I can’t believe you got pregnant the cycle after IVF! That’s amazing.

Last cycle I had to “stack” so cd 10 I hadn’t really responded so they “started over” and put me on more letrozole so officially I triggered cd 18, but in their eyes it was CD 13 because they counted my cd 10 as cd 3 lol so idk

What would you guys do if you were me (if this cycle doesn’t work)? Consult with IVF doctor or do another monitored cycle? I just feel lost

 

[SunnyBe]

Thanks for the support girls. I'm really not feeling it though. I don't like that the lines are that faint and I literally have zero symptoms. Even though having ANY line is completely new to me, it still doesn't feel right. So we'll wait and see.

Tb, that depends... how much does the cycle monitoring cost?

 

[AmberR]

Sunny- my lines were super faint at 12 dpo too, so don't give up hope! I can still see that line clearly! I am so excited for you!

Tb- I think personally I would continue with the monitored cycle for now depending on the cost.

 

[tbfromlv]

Well the monitoring costs $600-800 (sometimes I have to have an additional appointment) plus $100 for the ovidrel shot and depending on my insurance I could have another lab fee of $90ish

 

[AmberR]

Wow I didn't realize it was that expensive tb! I can definitely see why you are wanting to move forward with IVF sooner than later.

 

[tbfromlv]

Yeah actually typing that out, I think I need to stop the monitored cycles after this one. Just doesn’t seem worth it if my chances are so low anyway. I’ll keep trying but maybe contact some clinics and try to get a plan for this summer. If I get pregnant before then, then no harm no foul!

 

[CowgirlBaby]

So still trying to figure out this crazy cycle. Going to go into the walk in clinic on Monday if still no AF. But I had a question i wondered if you lovelies might know the answer to.

Had an AF the 26th of Nov to the 4th of Dec had like a week off and then had another period the 11th of Dec to the 15th of December. Then no period after that. What would cause something like that to happen? Could that be why AF hasn't shown up yet?