TTC #1- Looking for buddies!

[AmberR]

Dream- So sorry you got a BFN! Hang in there! I know how you feel as I was there too... thought it would be easy and ended up taking 11 months. I can definitely understand you wanting to take a break. I sure do hope you get your BFP soon!!

Tb- thats a great line! Congratulations!!

 

[SunnyBe]

Oh Dream So sorry you feel out. TTC sucks and can be extremely stressful. Give yourself some time though. I always feel that way just before the end of my cycle when I know I'm out (usually the day of my temp drop). I feel sad, angry, disappointed and 10 other things at the same time. Usually a day or two later I kinda remember why it is we're putting ourselves through all of this, to have a sweet little baby.

I imagine the difficulties that we'll probably have to face while being pregnant, the constant stress worrying if the baby is okay and developing properly, the delivery that'll likely be the most painful experience of your life, and all that comes after (being a first time mom, sleepless nights etc.). So I see it as a way to prepare myself for all those hard times to come. They'll suck and be emotionally draining, they'll probably leave me questioning if it was all worth it, but I think that's what's being a mom is all about.

I hope you'll feel better in a couple of days hun! I know you know this as well but 4 cycles is really not that long. Chances are you and your hubby are both perfectly fine and you'll conceive within the 6-months mark and almost certainly before the 12-month mark. And if not, look at what happened with Tb. I immediately feel more optimistic about my chances just seeing that BFP. It goes to show that if there is a problem, there's probably a solution as well. Hang in there

 

[Dream143r]

Thanks Sunny - I really appreciate your encouraging words.

 

[steph1607]

Dream I am so sorry you are feeling like this. I never imagined TTC would be so hard. I imagined perfectly regular cycles, romantic bedroom sessions, a beautiful positive pregnancy a couple of months later, telling hubby about it during a lovely day out in the countryside. But in reality, for some of us it really sucks. I didn't for one second think that over a year later I'd be waiting for IVF treatment.

If you feel that taking a break is the right thing for you guys, then by all means go for it, and do it for as long as you need to get your gear back in the right place. Like you and Sunny said, PMS isn't going to be helping things anyway and you might feel more positive in a few days.

I've browsed so many threads on here, and it genuinely seems that most of the time, one way or another, everyone ends up getting their families. Some of us just have more of a journey than others. And everyone handles this process differently, for some 4 months might feel like no time at all, and for others it feels like a lifetime.

I completely understand what you mean about your clock ticking. 32 is far from old, but in the female fertility world, our stupid clocks are always ticking. If it puts your mind at ease, is it worth a trip to see your doctor?

I really do hope you feel better soon. Never apologise for being a Debbie Downer. We are all here for each other. I am so grateful to all of you for always cheering me up when I feel crappy. This really is a great thread. (TB don't leave us)

Love to you all

 

[tbfromlv]

Dream- I'm sorry about BFN. They are always hard to see and I don't think any of us really take it well. Hopefully in a few days you will feel better about it, but take whatever time you need. Just remember that they say something like 75-80% of couples will get pregnant in the first 12 months of trying. Like Steph said, we all probably went in to TTC with thoughts of excitement and we would get pg right away. It's hard and emotionally draining sometimes. But we are here for you! I hope you hang in there!!

And I'm not going anywhere!

 

[SunnyBe]

FYI, TB I told my chart to start following yours again

 

[tbfromlv]

Sunny- your chart listened the first time! I hope it listens again!!

 

[CTgirl]

Oh Dream, I'm so sorry. It's so hard when our expectations don't become reality in the timeframe we want them too. I stupidly thought I'd be one of those who fell pregnant the month after coming off BC! That didn't happen clearly!

Take all the time you need. Sometimes time is what's needed to gain a fresh perspective, and to get a bit stronger for the next try. It's easy for us to say "It takes six months to a year", but when you expected to fall pregnant earlier, it's tough to change that mindset.

Sending lots of love to you, and please pop in from time to time to keep us posted on how you're doing. We're here for you!

 

[tbfromlv]

Ok ladies, my worst symptom thus far is insomnia! I can fall asleep just fine, but I wake up and it is all over! I've been fighting some fatigue as it is but this has been awful. I start back to work (I'm a teacher on summer break!) next week and I really hope this goes away!

Amber- did you experience any of that? Also, I can't wait to hear about your appt today!

 

[steph1607]

When I saw your comment I was about to ask "what are you doing up at this hour?"!

That's a strange summer break... when did the break start? In the UK the summer break is from 20 something of July until around the 5th of September..

 

[steph1607]

Also, do you think it could be because your mind is just working overtime and is so full of thoughts?

 

[tbfromlv]

We got out around May 18 and kids come back August 16. I wish it was Mid June-Mid September!
I guess it could be. I just usually get great sleep that I blame on my routine of waking early for exercise. I dont wake up thinking about much, its just I wake up and I am AWAKE but fatigued This is the third night in a row.

 

[SunnyBe]

Insomnia sucks Tb! I have a bit of that during the TWW as well, and I can only imagine how much worse it gets once my mind starts working overtime during early pregnancy. I hope it'll soon pass

Any other symptoms yet? How did your test look this morning?

 

[tbfromlv]

I don't get it often but this seems to be the worse I've ever had it. I even had a bout with sleep paralysis this morning because of it (basically with lack of sleep your mind will wake up but your body is in dream mode and there's a chemical your brain releases to make you essentially paralyzed while you're dreaming so you don't act out your dreams). It's kind of scary! Lol but I'll be fine I'm sure. My only other symptoms are bad headaches and my BBs are way more sore than usual. My FRER looks just slightly darker than yesterday and my IC was noticeably darker. I'm out of FRERs and I'm not sure I want to buy anymore lol I have about 12 ICs left.

And yay for crosshairs sunny!

 

[Dream143r]

My raging hormones yesterday confirmed with this morning's temp.

I already feel a little bit better.

I think I'm going to focus on my health and hopefully some weight loss this cycle to get my spirits up. I always feel amazing when I'm eating clean and working out, but I'm an emotional eater and often fall off the wagon. I could stand to lose about 30-40lbs.

TB - we wonna see that progression on the ICs! Show us the pics.

 

[steph1607]

Oh Dream, I'm so glad to hear that you are already feeling better.

FYI, girls, we can be friends again when the Athletics World Champs ends, but until then, game on.

 

[tbfromlv]

The ICs don't upload well for some reason. But here is a comparison of yesterdays and today's FRER. Not a big difference but it's getting darker!

 

[tbfromlv]

Steph- I just saw your post

 

[steph1607]

It's definitely getting darker TB 😁

Haha, I'm a huge athletics fan. Luckily enough, I've had great sport to watch non-stop all summer: Wimbledon, Tour de France, swimming world champs, women's euro, athletics, women's rugby World Cup! So spoilt!

 

[SunnyBe]

Tb, clearly getting darker How do you feel? Did you tell anyone yet?

Amber, how did your appointment go?

Dream, so happy you're feeling a bit better! Hope the next cycle will be the one

Steph, LOL