TTC #1, Looking for iui Buddies for February!

[WishnandHopn]

Ah MrsB really sorry the witch finally showed up. Hope CD1 isn't too miserable for you.

 

[mrsbertrand]

Ah MrsB really sorry the witch finally showed up. Hope CD1 isn't too miserable for you.

Thank you Wish, It's been a pretty decent day How are you?

 

[emilydee87]

I go in for an ultrasound today. Hopefully it will show a good follicle and we can truly move on to TTC again. Wish me luck!

 

[mrsbertrand]

Good luck Em!

 

[emilydee87]

Mrs B are you in the TWW? Did you do another IUI?

Where is everyone else in their cycles?

I still cant believe Ovidrel gives you the same chemical as a positive pregnancy test. I mean COME ON! You couldn't find another way to make me ovulate?? I'm currently 12.5 days post trigger (11 DPO). I got a negative yesterday and today its a BIT darker. My husband says he cant see anything. I'm a pro at finding lines lol Anyway its killing me!

 

[mrsbertrand]

Mrs B are you in the TWW? Did you do another IUI?

Where is everyone else in their cycles?

I still cant believe Ovidrel gives you the same chemical as a positive pregnancy test. I mean COME ON! You couldn't find another way to make me ovulate?? I'm currently 12.5 days post trigger (11 DPO). I got a negative yesterday and today its a BIT darker. My husband says he cant see anything. I'm a pro at finding lines lol Anyway its killing me!

Hello darling! No IUI yet, last month my cycle was 44 days. My body likes to mess with me lol. So we'll see if I get it next Tuesday.

Inhated taking ovidrel, but I also didn't test it out. I would rather not see a false positive lol.

 

[arcticfox]

How are you!!! ?? It's been awhile and totally MIA for months.

 

[BelleNuit]

How is everyone doing? I'm on CD 1 of my last IUI cycle after taking a break in July. As far as I know everything is staying the same (2.5mg femara), but I'm going to ask when i go in for my baseline ultrasound on Tuesday if my dose should be increased or kept the same. Can't hurt to ask.

 

[mrsbertrand]

Baby dust to you belle! Definitely doesn't hurt to ask

Hello Arctic! How are you?? I am still on a break, my cycle was super light flow and dark this time around, though it did show up on time!

 

[emilydee87]

Hey Arctic! Hey Belle! Good luck to you both!

Belle, are you doing acupuncture for this last IUI? I think it really made the difference for me. I have a desk job, and I think blood flow isnt what it should be down there. Also, Im very stressed out over this whole thing.

Arctic, I've never done IVF. If you go in today, when do you find out if it worked?

I'm going in for my IUI this afternoon. This is #5, we had a successful one at #3 ended in miscarriage. Ive decided that emotionally I'm going to stop thinking every month is THE month. It makes for a very high stakes situation where the odds are not in our favor. After the miscarriage, I've told myself it might take until Christmas or something to get another positive. Kind of takes the pressure off and makes Aunt Flow not so cruel... just a theory we'll see how that goes

Update on last month, the Ovidrel shot lasted 14 days in my system

 

[BelleNuit]

Ya I did acupuncture on my second IUI, I think it helped. So I'll give it a go this cycle too.

I'm sorry that ovidrel shot lasted longer than expected. That must have really played with your head. My cycle lasted 29 days last cycle it has NEVER gone that long before. You can imagine all the thoughts going through my head!

 

[emilydee87]

I've decided that for me, infertility is worse than a miscarriage. No I take that back. I'm just still in infertility and the miscarriage has passed - the scab isn't ripped off every month. Infertility is a strange grief. To mourn something that doesnt exist, thats a hard thing to explain and a hard thing to process. To have to hope every month is a cruel joke. This pain feels like it will never end. I'm looking into depression symptoms and treatments. I just read an article that said infertility stress is comparable to cancer patients. Seems about right. I hope everyone is handling this better than me at the moment.

 

[emilydee87]

Belle your IUI was cancelled??

 

[BelleNuit]

Hey Emily, that is something that I have thought about a lot. I do feel like I'm grieving my children, who may never exist, and it's something people just don't understand.

Yes my IUI was cancelled because of a large cyst. I think it's screwing with my hormones because I think I'm having an anovulatory cycle on top of it all (been spotting for 5 days now and it's CD 17). I dunno. We didn't try at all this month, so either way I'm just waiting for AF.

 

[WishnandHopn]

Emily, what you said really rings true for me. I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I've have some really dark, hopeless times during my own journey of loss and infertility. Having fertility treatments fail is just salt in the wound. I've found that as time has passed, I've grieved my miscarriage, and a year later I'm mostly ok. I'll never be completely "over it" because I think a small part of my heart will always be broken over the loss of my first pregnancy. The difference with infertility is that it's like a grief that gets deeper and feels more painful and hopeless as time goes one, rather than fading with time. Kind of like what Belle said, it's like grief for losing something you never really had in the first place. You're not alone in feeling like this. I wish none of us had to go through this. What's the next step for you? Will you do another IUI?

Belle, I'm sorry for the cyst and the strange cycle. I hope AF comes for you soon so you can move on!

 

[mrsbertrand]

Ladies, I can relate immensely. Em you described it perfectly.

For us it's been almost 4 years, and we've kind of let go of trying and switched our focus to other things (each other, my new business) and I am much happier for it. That doesn't mean t doesn't hit me like a punch in the gut sometimes while at family gatherings. But it does get better, with time. xo

 

[Sweetkat]

I have to say that even though I have a DD (and my conception stuggles weren't with my first) my attempts to have a second and the three miscarriages and one chemical i have suffered were the worse experience of my life. Everything revolved round TTC for 9 months (and I did get pregnant 3 times only to miscarry). The last one was awful as it was after 10 weeks and I really thought everything would be ok.

I then was too scared to try for 6 months, then had a chemical, then didn't try for a few months. The thought of another miscarriage was too much.

We had a zillion tests and saw countless doctors. Apart from the fact my OH has very high DNA fragmentation no other reason was found other than bad luck.

My lessons are
- doctors don't know everything
- it can't get any worse so you just have to keep going

Big hugs xxx

 

[BelleNuit]

I think both situations (infertility and recurrent miscarriages) are awful in their own way. Miscarriages cause a lot of acute pain while infertility is that slow ache that just gets worse and worse until suddenly you realize its something serious and it comes to a head.