*hugs*
You must be feeling like a complete wreck right now... you are worrying about having missed your egg because two of your methods of checking for OV are crapping out on you right now. You don't know what is going on with your super short cycles which is adding to the stress because it is all so unpredictable and opk and temping aren't exactly helping right now. And then circumstance meant that you didn't bd and you're worrying that you might have missed your chance this month...
*more hugs*
I really think that your temp jump is due to sleep pattern and being a little sick. I've been fighting off a cold too and my temp did a massive jump a couple of days ago. It's just our bodies fighting off infection. I think that if you ov'd this early you would be experiencing other symptoms too?
I don't believe that you opk'd too late, if you really did have a +ve opk at 12pm, then your body will release an egg anywhere from 12 to 48 hours after the LH peak. So having sex and soft cupping just incase was a great move
Also, the temp increase happens 1-3 days AFTER you OV, so to have the temp jump before the +ve opk doesn't make any sense. How dark was the line on the opk at 12pm?
I know how difficult it is to just surrender to your body, because we (humans, but especially ttc females!) want to be in control of everything... or at least feel like we are in control, otherwise it all becomes too scary... but your body really knows what it is doing. You are preparing your body to conceive and grow another human being inside of it!! That is HUGE and everything needs to be in optimum condition for things to work out perfectly.
When you are feeling super stressed, is there anything you can do to help distract and relax yourself? A nice warm bubble bath? A Little mediation? A brisk jog? Obviously these won't be appropriate during working hours, but you need to remember to get some YOU time too, time to relax and remember all the amazing things that are already in your life that have brought you to this point of being ready to try for a baby.
We get too easily caught up in the process and the outcome, we get wrapped up in our fears of ttc becoming a life long struggle to conceive with no definite positive outcome. It is such an emotional rollercoaster ride that we forget that we cannot live in the future, we can only live in the present and we should be able to make it into a fun and magical time.
Sure, it's easy for me to say this... I'm in waiting mode! And I know a lot of what I say is easy to say and harder to do AND I know that it also depends on your beliefs and outlook on life, but HANG IN THERE!! Your baby is on it's way.... try to remember that when it gets tough
As for me... I'm just plodding along. I took a preg test yesterday (8dpo) but it was -ve. I'm not getting too wound up in contemplating the what ifs just yet. I am thinking about when I might take another test but I'm not sure. We didn't bd enough during my fertile window, so I'm not over the moon hopeful, but trying to keep everything in perspective. What is a few more months when a baby is forever right?
I guess it helps that we are out of town for the weekend. Just spent this afternoon napping and will go out for a little snack and nice walk this evening. I am dreaming and day dreaming about babies more than ever and reading about birthing options and natural pain management and contemplating the HUGE cost of a home birth here... the OH is asking lots of parenting and cycle based questions and I feel like this tww is getting to him more than it is getting to me!
As I said, I'm ill and have a HORRID sore throat and I'm really full of mucus, am trying to stay positive and getting vitamins and blowing my nose every two minutes to try and prevent it turning into a sinus infection. I hope this silly virus won't affect my chances this month!
I hope you're feeling better my dear! Talk soon xx