TTC#2 and SO EXCITED! join me

[MamaMac123]

Hi everyone,

Sorry I've been MIA for the past week. A lot of stuff going on in my world. I nanny 2 little girls and last week was one of their birthdays so work was very busy getting ready for her party. Mostly though I as just feeling so down a out ttc that taking a break from the ttc world felt really good. I felt like all my posts were full of the negative. I kept up with posts for a few days and then just stopped coming on all together the last few days. Think it was a good thing for me though to let go for a few days and get my head on straight. So I put on my to do list this morning to catch up on here and was surprised to find I didn't have 20 pages of posts to catch up on! Banana's right, it's been a quiet weekend. Hope everyone is well...

Babyplz - congrats on the quick ! Very exciting!

Runnergrl - sorry about the D&C hun hope everything gets back on track for you to get your rainbow baby now!

Hann - LOVED seeing your scan!!! So exciting! Hope you get feeling better and fx for a good next scan!

Isaac - your positive attitude is so inspiring good luck this cycle!

Marieb - so glad your little bean is doing well!!! Cheers to the bump!

Banana - I'm sorry you're having such a rough day. Men just don't get it sometimes. Honestly sometimes the idea of doing the ttc thing without them makes sense! Lol jk Hang in there babe!

So AFM...I decided to come rejoin you guys today and thus started checking my cervix etc again...(I've been temping but that pretty much it. Haven't peed on a stick for awhile. So I check things this morning and I'm high soft and open and I had some Ewcm. Didn't think much of it as its happened a lot before. OPK is always negative. But I did have a slight temp dip today so I figured what the heck, I only had one IC OPK left so I figured may as well use it...this is what I got:

https://i60.photobucket.com/albums/h4/ladyamanda123/b11cb756be4920063d02632b17a641a9.jpg

Girls, I burst into tears and I'm freaking out!!!!!!! Tell me this is positive???? This is the darkest I've ever seen it! This is compared to my previous darkest test:

https://i60.photobucket.com/albums/h4/ladyamanda123/5ba390e6a17880126c9c8b1454f311ee.jpg

It's sooo much darker than ever before but still slightly lighter than control line, although the edge of it on the left side is as dark....isn't it positive so long as part of the line is dark enough??? I need opinions because I don't trust myself or my eyes at this point!!!

This was at about 2 pm. At 7 pm and I took another test (dollar store brand this time) and again, so much darker but not quite as dark as control accept maybe just on the edge of the line:

https://i60.photobucket.com/albums/h4/ladyamanda123/FC7B29A6-9D76-42B9-8688-48287FEC0E49-1970-000002D22A2DF1EB.jpg

What do you guys think??

DH and I dtd last night thank goodness and again this evening, this time using Preseed and will def bd again tomorrow. Hoping maybe tomorrow the line will be even darker but maybe the surge was more in am today and is now fading out? Hoping it's leading up to it. I'm super excited!!!!!

 

[runnergrl]

Hi everyone,

Sorry I've been MIA for the past week. A lot of stuff going on in my world. I nanny 2 little girls and last week was one of their birthdays so work was very busy getting ready for her party. Mostly though I as just feeling so down a out ttc that taking a break from the ttc world felt really good. I felt like all my posts were full of the negative. I kept up with posts for a few days and then just stopped coming on all together the last few days. Think it was a good thing for me though to let go for a few days and get my head on straight. So I put on my to do list this morning to catch up on here and was surprised to find I didn't have 20 pages of posts to catch up on! Banana's right, it's been a quiet weekend. Hope everyone is well...

Babyplz - congrats on the quick ! Very exciting!

Runnergrl - sorry about the D&C hun hope everything gets back on track for you to get your rainbow baby now!

Hann - LOVED seeing your scan!!! So exciting! Hope you get feeling better and fx for a good next scan!

Isaac - your positive attitude is so inspiring good luck this cycle!

Marieb - so glad your little bean is doing well!!! Cheers to the bump!

Banana - I'm sorry you're having such a rough day. Men just don't get it sometimes. Honestly sometimes the idea of doing the ttc thing without them makes sense! Lol jk Hang in there babe!

So AFM...I decided to come rejoin you guys today and thus started checking my cervix etc again...(I've been temping but that pretty much it. Haven't peed on a stick for awhile. So I check things this morning and I'm high soft and open and I had some Ewcm. Didn't think much of it as its happened a lot before. OPK is always negative. But I did have a slight temp dip today so I figured what the heck, I only had one IC OPK left so I figured may as well use it...this is what I got:

https://i60.photobucket.com/albums/h4/ladyamanda123/b11cb756be4920063d02632b17a641a9.jpg

Girls, I burst into tears and I'm freaking out!!!!!!! Tell me this is positive???? This is the darkest I've ever seen it! This is compared to my previous darkest test:

https://i60.photobucket.com/albums/h4/ladyamanda123/5ba390e6a17880126c9c8b1454f311ee.jpg

It's sooo much darker than ever before but still slightly lighter than control line, although the edge of it on the left side is as dark....isn't it positive so long as part of the line is dark enough??? I need opinions because I don't trust myself or my eyes at this point!!!

This was at about 2 pm. At 7 pm and I took another test (dollar store brand this time) and again, so much darker but not quite as dark as control accept maybe just on the edge of the line:

https://i60.photobucket.com/albums/h4/ladyamanda123/FC7B29A6-9D76-42B9-8688-48287FEC0E49-1970-000002D22A2DF1EB.jpg

What do you guys think??

DH and I dtd last night thank goodness and again this evening, this time using Preseed and will def bd again tomorrow. Hoping maybe tomorrow the line will be even darker but maybe the surge was more in am today and is now fading out? Hoping it's leading up to it. I'm super excited!!!!!

Awww, you are so sweet! and so cute getting so excited! thats how I get when I see my smiley face on OPK.. I cant give you a for sure opinion on them, because I only trust the smiley face.. there is no mistaking that.. Its a blank circle or its time to go with a smile.. but they look great to me!! Im so glad you tested and BD'd the night before bc maybe you caught the tail end of your surge. TBH, your second one looks darker, so IF you did in fact O, I think your was perfectly timed! Good luck sweetie!

 

[marieb]

I'd say that's juuuuuussstttt about positive. I'd bet on it being a BFP in the next few hours. So excited for you!!!

 

[elt1013]

Sorry I haven't been posting much lately, been working alot of mandatory overtime and I am exhausted!! I have been reading but just haven't had time to reply. I have the next 2 days off so I am ready to relax!

banana- Sorry this month was kinda a waste in the ttc department for you. It would be nice for you to come back with a bfp on the next one to make up for this one!

Happy- fx for a BFP for you. I don't know how you have the self control to not test...I have none when it comes to poas!

Mama- those opks look awesome! I am so excited for you. I know they are supposed to be darker than the control line, but my positives never got any darker than that. Actually mine look exactly like yours before O. Some of us just dont get blazing positives. I never got smiley faces with the smiley ones either! Makes it a bit harder to predict O, but after awhile, you just learn what your positive looks like. Good luck! I know you will get all the bd in you need to make it happen!

AFM- I thought my wonky cycles were over with the last one, but I guess not considering I am now almost CD12 and AF does not seem to want to leave me. She has gone 3 times in the last few days and reappeared before the day was over each time. I was hoping for AF before she came and now the witch wont leave. I guess this is why they say to be careful what you wish for!

 

[MamaMac123]

Yay! Thanks girls!

I'm hoping maybe tomorrow it'll be total for sure positive or back to being very faint or nothing. Not going to test again tonight as may be too late really and as we bd anyway no point wasting a test will test tomorrow and see what happens in am with my temp Im happy!!!

One more question though...hoping maybe Isaac may know something about this...I'm scheduled for my colonoscopy in 2 days. If I'm ov today or tomorrow will the drugs affect my odds of conceiving?? They told me I can't do the test if I'm pregnant because of the meds but if I'm just a day or so past ov will I be okay as nothing's implanted yet or could it damage the egg and either stop implantation or hurt the potential baby?? I'm worried now u should cancel but hate to not do the test if im fine to. Anyone have any idea??

 

[runnergrl]

Sorry I haven't been posting much lately, been working alot of mandatory overtime and I am exhausted!! I have been reading but just haven't had time to reply. I have the next 2 days off so I am ready to relax!

banana- Sorry this month was kinda a waste in the ttc department for you. It would be nice for you to come back with a bfp on the next one to make up for this one!

Happy- fx for a BFP for you. I don't know how you have the self control to not test...I have none when it comes to poas!

Mama- those opks look awesome! I am so excited for you. I know they are supposed to be darker than the control line, but my positives never got any darker than that. Actually mine look exactly like yours before O. Some of us just dont get blazing positives. I never got smiley faces with the smiley ones either! Makes it a bit harder to predict O, but after awhile, you just learn what your positive looks like. Good luck! I know you will get all the bd in you need to make it happen!

AFM- I thought my wonky cycles were over with the last one, but I guess not considering I am now almost CD12 and AF does not seem to want to leave me. She has gone 3 times in the last few days and reappeared before the day was over each time. I was hoping for AF before she came and now the witch wont leave. I guess this is why they say to be careful what you wish for!

Sorry Hun. Long AF doesn't sound like fun. I just got done bleeding for almost 6 weeks so I'm with ya-so sick of blood! Although I am waiting for AF now-so when I start bleeding again, ironically, I will be happy. How crazy is that?

We need a BFP in here!!

 

[Hann12]

I'm so excited mama!! Seeing your post I'd say you possibly just missed the surge and its on its way down so you BD at the right time phew! I have such a good excited feeling for you! If I was you I would go to the colposcopy and explain the situation and see if they say to still proceed, they should be best placed to tell you. FX you can get it done and still have your bfp! You must be super happy!

Elt - as annoying as it is I reckon the bleeding is because of last cycle, if you did have a cyst of something perhaps it's coming out still. I'm sure you'll still ov and get back to normal

Runnergrl and happycpl - FX for 2ww! Really hope there's a bfp in there!

Banana - sorry you didn't get to BD at that right time, I had that for the first 3 months of trying, we only managed it once in what I thought was the right time as it was hard to pin DH down. Really hope you did catch it though or have a short 2ww to start again

Afm - still waiting for my 12 week scan letter to tell me when it will be! Very frustrated as I'm almost 11 weeks and still don't know!

 

[IsaacRalph]

Thank goodness we have some contact girlies have been checking in but nobody on here, I think tour right banana ttc is just tiring us all out & sometimes its nice to just switch off from it I've alresdy deleted all other threads because it was taking over! So sorry you have had problems with your dh banana he sounds like he in the school of it will happen when it happens kinda thing! Maybe you could sit down with him when you've both made up & explain that there is only a few days in which you can conceive per month! Sorry your out this month!

Mama- I'd say that's a pretty close to positive opk, i'm so happy for you! get that bding in. Re- colonoscopy I would say you should have it considering the risk you have as I think it was your dad who had bowel cancer? If your only few days post ov there shouldn't be a risk to blasto as its totally separate from you & I think they just use sedation maybe midazolam! Think It should be ok! I've got few test lined up in my tww this time but I gonna still have them! Good luck mama x

Elt- what's with all the bleeding? Maybe the cyst altered your lining abit & this is the consequence. Hopefully you'll settle soon

Happycpl- good luck for this tww, excited to see if you get your bfp! Your dh is getting his retest soon isn't he?

Runnergrl- you'll soon be out of limbo hang in there! Anymore blood tests lined up?

Han- can't beleive your still waiting for app for your 12 week scan, bit slack! Hoping your feeling well

Afm- AF free, hurrah! Having some acupuncture today quite excited, new shop opened down the road from me & thought I'd give it a bash. I read good things on it to promote blood flow to pelvic areas. Nothing to lose hey?

 

[Hann12]

IssacRalph - I had acupuncture with conceiving my DD! Completely forgot about it until you mentioned it but I did! I came off the pill and wasn't getting very regular cycles so I went to an accupuncturist and 4 sessions later (that same cycle) I got my BFP! I think its amazing what they can do! However I did go to one to help me go into labour on my DD and it didn't work ha ha but I still believe!

 

[MamaMac123]

Morning girls!

Thanks Hann and Issac, I'm going to call my doctor this morning and see what they say re the colonoscopy. I'd really rather just get it done especially as DH and I both have work booked off for it and if I'm finally ovulating and could possibly have a bfp soon it wouldn't be cool to have to wait till next year to test with my fam history (remembered correctly Isaac, my dad died from colon cancer very young). However I looked up online last night and one lady said she was in her TWW and doc wouldn't do it. She was just a few days from testing though so could be different. If I just ov yesterday then I'm hoping it won't be a problem. Fx! I just know if I cancel I'll end up with a ! Murphy's law!!!

Hann - hope you get your scan apt soon! That's nuts!

Isaac - GL with the acupuncture! I've heard a lot of good things about it, and as you said, can't hurt!

Elt - fx your bleeding stops soon. Would think its prob to do with the cyst but maybe call your doc office to be sure?

Runnergrl - how are you feeling? Things okay post D&C? Fx for you!

 

[runnergrl]

Yeah-I feel ok it's just the waiting that's killing me. I try up keep myself occupied with other thing and if I'm honest, TTC IS ALL I THINK ABOUT. It's kind of annoying really. And I am going to be so upset if my husband is out of town when I am O'ing! He's due to travel a lot for work here in the near future. We shall see!

 

[MamaMac123]

Yeah-I feel ok it's just the waiting that's killing me. I try up keep myself occupied with other thing and if I'm honest, TTC IS ALL I THINK ABOUT. It's kind of annoying really. And I am going to be so upset if my husband is out of town when I am O'ing! He's due to travel a lot for work here in the near future. We shall see!

Oh hopefully not! That would not be fun. Btw, love your pic there with your son. Sooo cute!

 

[MamaMac123]

Okay....I've tried typing this 3 times and it keeps vanishing!!!

I'm in need of a rant...apologies in advance:

No doctor can give me an answer to this colonoscopy question. The doc performing it is in surgery all day and his office is no help. My obgyn office tells me to call the hospital, the hospital tells me to call the doc performing the procedure and their office tells me to call my family doc (the one who barely speaks English and tells me to just make sure to bd once a week when I'm ttc, not ovulating and not menstrating...yeah, okay, I'll call her :eyeroll



Finally on the phone with a hospital nurse I explain how everyone is telling me to call someone else and it's a big run around joke. She finally stops to consider what I've actually asked and advises that it shouldn't be a problem and that any risk would be minimal. But of course it's just her opinion.

I've been googling it and found one Q&A that matched my situation and an anesthesiologist replied and said it would be fine....okay, 2 opinions so far...

Basically to get a definite I have to wait till I'm in the hospital tomorrow and ask the doc directly. So annoying! I don't want to drink the gross stuff and go through the misery of clearing my bowels and take a day off work to be told not to have the procedure! Errrrrrrr really annoyed!!

Basically I'm putting this one into the Big Guy Upstairs. He knows what I (and apparently the entire medical profession) don't and He knows haw badly DH and I want this baby. I have to believe that He'll have his hand in this and that He'll protect our little egg if it's to become our little baby.

In better news, took another OPK about an hour ago and it's definitely negative:
https://i60.photobucket.com/albums/h4/ladyamanda123/57237A89-1142-461D-85A6-95C3F6021EFE-2464-0000033D8F2A6480.jpg

Also had a decent temp shift up this morning so hopefully my temps stay up there! Looks like I did ov yesterday (as Hann suggested I probably caught the tail end of the surge with my 2 tests yesterday. Maybe my full positive would have been the day before or maybe as with Elt I just won't get full positives) But feeling very confident that I really ovulated yesterday and that our bd was well timed so fx I'm in the TWW!!!

 

[HappyCpl]

Elt - I hope you're bleeding stops soon. I had a similar situation last year and I bled for 2 weeks. It was horrible.

Isaac - DH does go this week for more testing. I hope it's good news.

Mama - Congrats!!! I got so excited when I saw your pic. That is so close to a +. I have a good feeling for you this month!!

Runner - I understand what you mean when you said that TTC is all you think about. I can relate. I also have to agree that it annoys me too. Even while trying to take a break, I still find myself thinking about it. How can I not after watching my body so closely this last year.

I can't believe it's been almost a year since we started trying. I got my period on Christmas Day last year and we started right after that. Gah. I really hope that it happens soon. There aren't any reproductive medicine physicians who accept my insurance in our city so we will have to pay all further fertility treatments (that my OB/GYN doesn't do) comPletely out of pocket or we can travel 2 hours to be nearest one who does. I've done some research and if IVF is necessary, they have a very high success rate. Look at me looking so far ahead. I'm just so down about all of this. Why does it have to be so hard? Sort to be "Debbie Downer" today...

 

[MamaMac123]

Elt - I hope you're bleeding stops soon. I had a similar situation last year and I bled for 2 weeks. It was horrible.

Isaac - DH does go this week for more testing. I hope it's good news.

Mama - Congrats!!! I got so excited when I saw your pic. That is so close to a +. I have a good feeling for you this month!!

Runner - I understand what you mean when you said that TTC is all you think about. I can relate. I also have to agree that it annoys me too. Even while trying to take a break, I still find myself thinking about it. How can I not after watching my body so closely this last year.

I can't believe it's been almost a year since we started trying. I got my period on Christmas Day last year and we started right after that. Gah. I really hope that it happens soon. There aren't any reproductive medicine physicians who accept my insurance in our city so we will have to pay all further fertility treatments (that my OB/GYN doesn't do) comPletely out of pocket or we can travel 2 hours to be nearest one who does. I've done some research and if IVF is necessary, they have a very high success rate. Look at me looking so far ahead. I'm just so down about all of this. Why does it have to be so hard? Sort to be "Debbie Downer" today...

 

[runnergrl]

mama- yep-looks like your was timed perfectly! I, personally, would wait on the colonoscopy. I wouldnt want to take the risk, but I am not a doctor and that is just my personal opinion

Happy: you arent debbie downer, you are just frustrated, and that is so understandable. I am usually the one bringing everyone down in this thread, I keep telling myself I would rather still be TTC, than to have lost Ella at 12 weeks, but I really cant imagine TTC still as we started trying again for #2 in June.. that would have only been 5 months! Im sorry its taken you almost a year.. Maybe we will get Thanksgiving or Christmas BFP's together! That would be wonderful! I would be honored to be your bump buddy

 

[HappyCpl]

mama- yep-looks like your was timed perfectly! I, personally, would wait on the colonoscopy. I wouldnt want to take the risk, but I am not a doctor and that is just my personal opinion

Happy: you arent debbie downer, you are just frustrated, and that is so understandable. I am usually the one bringing everyone down in this thread, I keep telling myself I would rather still be TTC, than to have lost Ella at 12 weeks, but I really cant imagine TTC still as we started trying again for #2 in June.. that would have only been 5 months! Im sorry its taken you almost a year.. Maybe we will get Thanksgiving or Christmas BFP's together! That would be wonderful! I would be honored to be your bump buddy

Awe I teared up when I read this. Thank you so much. I would also be honored to be bump buddies.

I cannot imagine what you have been through. Please do not feel like you're bringing us down. You're not. We are all here for you. Good or bad.

I have a special place in my heart for all of you ladies.

 

[elt1013]

Hello ladies!

runnergrl- yeah, it is crazy to hope and pray for AF, but hopefully when yours comes it will here and gone in no time and then you can go on to making that perfect rainbow baby!

Isaac- How did the acupuncture go? I have heard good things about it and it does sound pretty interesting!

Mama- Yay!!! I am so excited for you this cycle actually having a fair shot at a BFP! Even if you don't get one, atleast you know you more than likely ovulated with the soy and it may be something that can get you ovulating more often. I think it will only be a matter of time for you if you can get those eggs coming regularly! for you!!

Happy- UGH, two weeks seems like forever for AF! I had some spotting yesterday and it has stopped for today so far, so hopefully she is gone for good (or atleast the next 9 months)! I def think all the bleeding had something to do with the whole cyst thing for me. And you can rant to us anytime...that is what we are here for girl!!

Hope I didn't forget anyone in my excitement...Ok, so I have not had a positive (well, positive for me) opk in like 3 months I think. I was using ICs though and that could be why. I didn't have a second line at all on those(all stark white, even doing them 3 times a day). I was at walmart today and noticed they now have the 88 cent ovulation predictors as well as the preg tests, so I thought I would get a few to try. When I got home I poas and this is what I got!!

I know it is not positive but it means that o should be right around the corner and since I haven't seen a line on an opk for months, I am pretty excited. We bd last night and I guess we better try for the next few days aswell! I will probably poas several times the next couple days just to see that second line!!! hehe

 

[elt1013]

Oh, how could I forget you...Hann, please let us know when your scan date is when you find out and post those pics asap!! Hopefully you will be getting that letter soon.

 

[HappyCpl]

Elt - That is a wonderful sight to see for sure!!! Good luck to you.