TTC and endometriosis :(

[YearningHeart]

Cool - Awwww you ladies helped and support me too! so much! Your right not everyone understands struggle of infertility and some may not have empathy. With me hearing BFP news, sometimes I do feel I am over the phase of emotions and coming home crying and miserable whole day. I do feel I have become much stronger than before but then again I do have my moments. I hope you do have a baby and all the tears and heartache have a happy ending

Gold - your comment 'just relax and it'll happen' made me laugh because its so true. Why do people always say that? I get so mad inside when family or friends say that, I know they are just being nice and probably have nothing to really say.

- I dont really have a close friend who will understand my IVF journey, some of my friends are not even married so babies are no big deal to them and others I just dont trust. I do find it so helpful on this forum, everyone is here to help and and everyone understands. xx

 

[YearningHeart]

Cool - What is ER?

 

[Goldfish]

Yearning ER = egg retrieval (also sometimes referred to as EC)
Cool i found egg retrieval fine. The worst bit was the cannula going in for the anaesthetic and that only lasted seconds. I actually like that feeling just before you fall asleep! then you wake up and don't remember a thing! afterwards you bleed a little bit and it's a little sore, but not too bad.

 

[YearningHeart]

Cool - When I had EC it was alright to be honest, it was a little pinch when the cannula was put in and then I fell asleep within seconds literally. Everything was done when I woke up so at least I didnt have to go though the stress. When I woke up I did feel very nausea, it was a horrible feeling, I think that could of been because they gave me medication on empty stomach. My nausea increased and it felt my stomach was turning so I quickly eat some food and had 3 or 4 lemon slices which really worked.
This time I think I will take food and a lemon slice just in case, that happened to me but not everyone is the same.

Gold - Did you have a sick feeling after waking from the EC?

 

[Coolstar]

I am happy that i will be unconscious during retrial. Thanks Heart for the tips, even i will carry some food and lemon slice in case i feel nauseated too.
Thanks Heart and Gold, i am glad that i am able to share my stressful IVF journey with you both. Most of my bnb friends are pregnant, and i see once ladies conceive they don't log into bnb much Tomorrow i am going for blood test ( estradiol and serum ).

 

[YearningHeart]

Cool - Yeah after people get pregnant they do move on, dont worry it wont be too long before we get busy with babies and have no time for B&B forum.
I forgot to mention the hospital did give me bread but that didnt seem enough so I had to go for a meal which then made me feel much better. Im glad they do put ladies to sleep during egg collection - Can you imagine how stressful it would be as well as painful.

Good luck with your blood test, let us know how it goes. xx

 

[Goldfish]

Yearning no, luckily I didn't feel sick when I woke up from egg collection. Before I had the general anaesthetic I told them that I got bad nausea/vomiting when I woke up from my laparoscopy (which I had for my endo before we even started TTC), so I wonder if they gave me some anti-nausea stuff as well? Yep, very glad I was asleep as I'd hate to feel anything during the procedure!

Cool Good luck tomorrow!

 

[YearningHeart]

Gold - Oh ok thats good, I should tell the nurses this time and maybe they may give nausea pills. I do not want to go through that nausea feeling again, its horrible. x

 

[Coolstar]

Did my blood test, now waiting for Friday. My DH is out of the country and he called me up sometime back and we were discussing what will be our next step if this ivf cycle fails We are paying everything out of pocket and i don't think i can go for another ivf round this year. At most if i have enough embryos i can go for one FET cycle, that's it.

 

[Coolstar]

Ladies my simulation got postponed till Tuesday since I am suffering from flu and on antibiotics now. Also my amh came back low my doc told me to think about donor

 

[Goldfish]

Cool I can't believe they only tested your AMH now?! I know how you feel, I only found out my low AMH just before my first IVF, it was so low that the piece of paper with my results said "negligible fertility potential". My only advice is to go ahead with the IVF using your own eggs anyway - just because your AMH is low doesnt mean you can't have a baby. Yes, your chances are lower than someone who has a normal/high AMH, but you won't really know how your body responds until you try it and you might respond better than expected to the meds. I have read about plenty of women on various forums who've had few eggs and still got a BFP.

 

[Coolstar]

Cool I can't believe they only tested your AMH now?! I know how you feel, I only found out my low AMH just before my first IVF, it was so low that the piece of paper with my results said "negligible fertility potential". My only advice is to go ahead with the IVF using your own eggs anyway - just because your AMH is low doesnt mean you can't have a baby. Yes, your chances are lower than someone who has a normal/high AMH, but you won't really know how your body responds until you try it and you might respond better than expected to the meds. I have read about plenty of women on various forums who've had few eggs and still got a BFP.

Thanks Gold, I have decided to go ahead with my ivf. Until I try I will never know what holds for me. My doctor told me to think about donor , I came home and cried and cried my heart out. I hate what endo has done to us . I would be starting my stims from Tuesday, my best bet would be that whatever egg I produce is of good quality and that one sticks. I have left everything to God now. It will be what he wish I can only try.

 

[YearningHeart]

Cool - Awwww Im so sorry to hear about the amh! but I am glad you have decided to go ahead with the IVF. It is always worth the try, I really hope this is the lucky one for you. I know its a killer when things just doesnt seem to be moving but stay strong and who knows this may be the last cry of pain. (I give sympathy to myself by saying things like that)
xxxxx

 

[YearningHeart]

Gold - Hows things with you? Hope you doing well.

I am still on my Metformin pills, at the end of this week I will start BCP for a week for my periods to come and then move on to Microgynon pills. Cant wait for this pill phase to be over.

 

[Goldfish]

Cool that's the spirit! Let's keep telling ourselves that it only takes one egg! I had one doctor tell me that I could consider donor egg as well, so then I switched to another clinic that is more used to dealing with older women/those with low egg reserve.

Yearning I hear ya, I'm sick of the pills too. I've got a few more days of microgynon then I have a pill scan to check that my lining is thin and no obvious issues before I start the injections!

Just had dinner with friends we hadn't seen for a while - they casually mentioned that they were 3 months pregnant. I felt soo jealous, it was really hard pretending to be happy all through dinner.

 

[Coolstar]

Gold, it is such a bummer at this stage to hear other ladies fall pregnant
Heart , this phase will be over soon. I know its so boring but try to relax coz stims are really stressor.
I have started with my first day of Gonal-F stims. I have an appointment on Friday ie 3 days after stims. Any idea what will happen on my Friday appointment ? Can they see my follicles so soon or will they just do a blood test and decide my next dose ?

 

[YearningHeart]

Gold - I know it is painful and hard to bear the news of pregnancy. I am always hearing it weather it be friends, family or colleagues. You would think I should be used to it by now, but its still painful. Look on the bright side you are doing IVF now and it might not be long before you announce your pregnancy stay strong. x


Cool - I cant believe I am nearly coming to a month of having Metformin pills (Ok I know its still 11 days to go haha) Yeah your right, I am relaxing the only thing is I am working hard on loosing some weight before the injection phase. I have PCOS and its so hard to lose weight.
First day of Gonal-F? Thats great!

Your Friday appointment will most likely be a scan. That is how it was during my time, after every 2/3 days I had to go in for a scan. My first scan they could not really much so I had to continue the injections, my follicles were growing slow and the dosage went up after good few days. They said its better the follicles grow slowly then to rush it too much. That is how it was with me, but not necessarily for all.

 

[Coolstar]

Thanks Heart , if it is a scan then I don't have much hope of passing with flying colours. But I hope they will increase the dose after that. With so low amh I don't think 150 gonal f is enough ( I can become half ivf doctor now ) .
I know it's hard to lose weight when you have PCOS. I did put on some weight last year, if the ivf does not work I am planning to join gym and reduce weight. I have seen ladies with PCOS have lots of eggs during ivf. I guess that's the plus side. Keeping the fingers crossed for you.

 

[YearningHeart]

Yeah the amount of research I have done I feel I could be an IVF doctor too!
Sometimes I am so motivated to lose weight and at times it just seems to hard that I give up for little while and then regret it. I have roughly 6 weeks before the injection phase so I want to lose as much as I can.

They might put up the dosage for you, a lot of ladies they do that, I dont know why my time they took time but yeah its a quick scan really. Let us know how it goes though. x

 

[Goldfish]

Cool I'm not sure what to expect after 3 days of stims, I've only ever had my first stim scan after around 6-7 days of stims. By that time they expect to see a few follicles over 10 mm and they usually do a blood test to measure oestradiol. My clinic then does scans/blood tests every 2-3 days after that to check progress. I'm surprised you're on 150 Gonal-F too, I would've thought they'd start on a higher dose since you have low AMH but maybe they want to see you respond first and then increase the dose? Hopefully some positive news for you on Friday!

Yearning Yeah it certainly gets harder to hear other people's pregnancy news the longer you TTC, especially when it's their second or more. Have you ever tried myfitnesspal or similar app to help monitor your weight? I used it last year when I was trying to put on weight and found it helpful to keep track of things.