TTC and endometriosis :(

[YearningHeart]

Cool - Well after the BFN I was so down that I thought I cant go through another IVF. I just found it hard and I think that is partially because of my busy life. Anyhow after my BFN I heard of a family member who got a BFP and that pushed me now start IVF.

I got a call today from the embryologist who said that apparently the 3 embryos that were in the lab and of excellent quality ended up having bacteria growth due to which they had to discard it. Apparently the bacteria would be from the semen. Now DH has to go for check ups. So I am not sure where we stand right now. I do want to start IVF again, the doctor said it will be good few weeks before I can even start. x

 

[Goldfish]

Yearning - I'd suggest waiting at least 1 or 2 cycles before trying IVF again (unless your doctor advises otherwise; both doctors I saw advised waiting 3 months after my BFN!). I think it's to let your body recover because the IVF drugs are quite harsh on your body, plus the emotional aspects are pretty tough. Anyway good luck whatever you decide!

AFM I had my downreg scan today and lining is thin, so started my stim injections tonight!

 

[YearningHeart]

Gold - Your absolutely right because today the doctor did tell me that I have to wait at least 2/3 months for medicine to wear off and body to get back normal etc. And then after that when the process starts Im looking at few more weeks. So it is nearly like 6 months thats what the doctor said. Its true it can be very emotionally draining. Im just going to have to wait for 2nd go of IVF. I highly doubt I would conceive naturally though I will take the most effort to. x

 

[pbl_ge]

Yearning, I thought sperm got washed so they wouldn't have bacteria?! That is SERIOUSLY donkey balls! So sorry. You didn't need bad news. And I can't believe it really takes six months before you can try again.

How is everyone else doing?

Still lots and lots of waiting here. I'm on BCP through Oct 11, and Lupron won't start until Oct. 7. Boring, boring, boring.

to all.

 

[YearningHeart]

PBL - yep when I heard I was like because I really not expecting that. DH is going to go tomorrrow to give the some samples. I am waiting for my follow up appointment which I will recieve the letter in 6 weeks time then the appointment itself will obviously be few weeks after. Argh! So long. Anyhow I guess I dont have much of a choice other than to simply wait patiently!

Dont worry about the BCP, it will pass just keep yourself busy. Do you work? I found when I was working and doing thing I didnt have much time to think about fertility, so sometimes it felt time was going fast.

 

[Coolstar]

Heart : The embryo got bacteria growth....what a bummer . I am so sorry. I cant imagine what you might be going through. Lots of hug's. If I am not wrong you said 14 eggs were collected so I guess still more eggs are left. So the next round I think you don't have to go through egg retrieval phase again. Hope your DH results come back good because we all are dealing with enough bad news and we don't want any more add on's.

 

[Coolstar]

Pbl : Enjoy and relax till you are on BCP. Coz once the actual IVF process starts it will be a stressor.

 

[Coolstar]

Gold : FXed for you .

 

[YearningHeart]

Cool - On my egg collection day, they took 17 eggs. From the 17, 14 were fertilized. Some of which were excellent embryos however because of the bacteria they discarded it. They discarded ALL of it. SO no frozen eggs. So on my next IVF I have to go back to step 1 with the BCP then injections etc. Thats why it feels more annoying.

xx

 

[Coolstar]

Aaaawww sorry Heart. I did not know that they discarded all the embryo's . I can understand your frustration. Last time you responded well with meds so chances are you will respond well next cycle also.

Heart I just read in another post that you are ttc from last 6 yrs, I just cant imagine you pain. I mean I was complaining about my ttc but I guess I have no right to complain in front of you. Just wanted to you. You really inspire me to go on.

 

[YearningHeart]

Cool - Heyyyyy of course you can complain. Just because I have been TTC for more years than you doesnt mean you cant share your feelings. Dont worry about it!

Its painful for everyone TTC. Yeah its nearly 6 years for me. Its been so long that now I cant even imagine being pregnant, I cant imagine being a mummy,if you know what I mean. I think I will have a heart attack when I have a BFP (Ok not really!) It will be just too good to be true. I dont know when my turn will come. Anyhow I get so happy when I hear of a BFP from a person who is TTC. xxxxx

 

[Coolstar]

Cool - Heyyyyy of course you can complain. Just because I have been TTC for more years than you doesnt mean you cant share your feelings. Dont worry about it!

Its painful for everyone TTC. Yeah its nearly 6 years for me. Its been so long that now I cant even imagine being pregnant, I cant imagine being a mummy,if you know what I mean. I think I will have a heart attack when I have a BFP (Ok not really!) It will be just too good to be true. I dont know when my turn will come. Anyhow I get so happy when I hear of a BFP from a person who is TTC. xxxxx

Heart lots of , I exactly know when you said you cant imagine being a mummy. When I started TTC I thought I will conceive very soon. I do imagine sometime how I would feel when I get a BFP (if I ever get), it would simply be unimaginable. Sometime I feel its not fair for some to get BFP in a single cycle and here we are trying so hard and some ladies who try more then a decade. Its so hard, I always used to say "Patience is not my virtue " but I guess God wants to teach me that I should have patience.
You just relax till you next IVF, and till then BD during your ov who knows we might get a BFP just trying naturally. People say miracles do happen ,I am not sure but I just pray it happens in our life just for once.

 

[YearningHeart]

Cool - Awwwwww I know. I have always heard people saying Patience is a virtue. I know I with patience comes success. Having TTC for so many years I do have hope I will have a baby sometime and if I dont then I guess its not in my fate. Im just focusing on other things in life, Im back to work back to my usual life routine so I think that is helping me. I really do hope we all do get a BFP and if its naturally then that is a dream! xxxxx

 

[Coolstar]

It's good thing that you are back in your normal life . By the time you are in IVF#2 cycle I guess I would also be in my IVF#1. I also want to start with my IVF#1 as soon as I can.

 

[Goldfish]

I really hope we all get our BFPs, whether naturally or via assisted fertility!! I look at everyone else who has kids and think that most of them didn't have any issues conceiving, but I also know that there are many of us who are hiding our infertility pain and will be sooo grateful when we do finally have our babies!

Cool - I sincerely hope that your first IVF is a success!

 

[YearningHeart]

Gold -

I read your perfect message at the perfect time. I felt so rubbish for the past few days. Soon as I get to work after my embryo transfer rest I hear of pregnancy, 2 collages gave births! Cant you believe it! After my embryo transfer I got back to hearing baby talk. I tried to shut my ears from listening pretending I am getting on with work. It was horrible going back to lifes routine and hearing all BFP and births. A friend of mine who has been TTC for few years got her BFP, I was happy for her.

I feel a happiness when LTTTC people see a BFP because I know they have been through pain and deserve this. Not to say people who arnt TTC dont deserve it - but you know what I mean.

Reading your message goldfish reminds me that I am not odd and there are people who are going through this horrible life of infertility and everyones here to support. It puts little peace in me.

xxx

 

[YearningHeart]

Cool - I cant wait for you to start your IVF. I hope you get a BFP with success in the first round. Wishing you the best! xx

 

[Coolstar]

Gold : How is your IVF#2 going on ?
Pbl : How are you ?
Heart : Lol I too shut my ears and sometime my eyes too when I hear about someone getting pg or see pics in FB (in fact I hide most of the baby pics in FB account). But then I sometime wonder maybe some of them were trying to get pg for long time who knows.
Even I feel happy when I see LTTC ladies getting BFP in bnb and real life. I mean I can relate to the pain and tears they endure.

 

[Goldfish]

Yearning - that's what this forum is for, so we can bond with others who know what we're going through! I'm also finding it hard hearing about people's pregnancies, but try to take hope that it could be you too (soon, hopefully). Today I found out an old friend had her third baby, I felt very jealous actually! But recently also found out another friend is expecting #2 naturally after she had previous miscarriages and IVF, I was genuinely happy for her.

Cool - after 6 days of stims I had 6 follicles at my scan; it's not a lot but it's ok since I have very low AMH, and it's a lot better than what I had at IVF#1! So I'm feeling hopeful at the moment!

 

[Coolstar]

Just need 1 egg to fertilize, implant and have a baby so FXed for you Gold !!