TTC and endometriosis :(

[pbl_ge]

Hi Ladies!

Nothin' much going on with me. The birth control pill phase is very boring.

Cool and Yearning, I'm exactly where you are. I have hidden more than half of my facebook friends because they post too much about their babies or their bumps (or their spouse's bumps). No idea what's going on with them. Don't wanna know, either. The women who get pregnant easily and never miscarry fill me with rage. And that rage has no outlet, so no one wants that.

But, like you, I'm always happy for LTTTC ladies. These women have EARNED it! Those other biatches, not so much.

Yearning, how are you doing? Do you know when you'll start up again?

Cool, how about you?

Gold, I know your good news!

to all....

 

[Coolstar]

Pbl : I can relate how boring it would be during BCP phase. But I guess just few more days. Excited for you. Lupron shots are for what ?

 

[8longyears]

This is an older post, but figured i would update since my last post in july. I have not yet conceived and i have had multiple test ran for blood clotting issues, and many more but everything came back normal.. i was sort of hoping for somthing to come back a little off, that way i would at least have answers and possibly a cure or way to fix all of this ;( we do not have the money for IVF so i dont for-see that happening anytime soon. i have started back on the bee propolis and keeping my fingers crossed... good luck to anyone reading!!

 

[Coolstar]

8longyears, lots of hugs to you. Yes I have also read that bee propolis is good . In fact even I was taking bee propolis. I have not conceived yet we are moving ahead with ivf.

 

[YearningHeart]

8 long years - I really hope something comes up for you, Its so sad to hear of ladies TTC for so long

Cool - Hey how are you?? Hows things with you? I was away from B&B for few months due to fail IVF but I have just started 2nd round of IVF however thats after 2 months of pills

Pbl - You still here? How are you?

 

[Coolstar]

Heart, nice to see your post. I am happy that you are going ahead with Ivf#2 . Wish you all the best. I am in my suppression phase. So I guess around 12 more days and I will start the simulation phase. I am nervous, anxious and scared. I just pray that everything works out. It's really sad that we have to try so hard and so long . Why did the doctor gave you 2 months of suppression ? Usually it's around 1 month.
I guess pebble is on a break. Hope she is doing good.

 

[YearningHeart]

Cool - Thats great!! Not long for you then eh! I know the nervousness just comes in but try not to stress yourself, trust me the simulation phase goes pretty fast. Im excited for you. I hope we get some good news from ya.

I have to take Metformin tablets for a month then Microgynon tablets for another month so 2 months!!!
In my 1st IVF I took only 1 month of pills which was the microgynon ones. Im hoping it goes fast at the same time when I look at the stages I have to go through I think Sooooo long.

Yeah your right, we do have to try so hard and do much, how easy natural easy eh! I wish all this can pass very fast. x

 

[Goldfish]

8kongyears so sorry to hear this, best of luck to you!!!
Yearning and cool great to hear from you girls! I'm sorry you guys are both having to do IVF (or IVF again). My LTTC journey has not been going well at all. we are going to do IVF again very soon - just waiting for my bleed to show up and then 1 round of microgynon before doing a pill scan and starting the I injections again. BTW, pbl has been on a break for a while - unfortunately she had a miscarriage after an IVF BFP

 

[Coolstar]

Heart, don't worry time will fly . I had just started my suppression and already i am half way done. Last week i was spotting and i was so scared that my cycle would be cancelled. Called up my doc and she told me nothing to worry if it is just spotting. Luckily the spotting stopped. I have anxiety attack specially at night. Also i get night sweats.... i don't know whether its the meds or the tension .

Gold , i am happy that you are moving ahead with ivf. I just pray that it works out this cycle for you. Infertility is so tough and i am fearing how i will cope if the ivf fails. But i want the ivf to get over soon whatever the results maybe so that i can move ahead with my life. So sorry to hear about pbl . I guess your stimulation phase will start from next month. Wish you all the best.

 

[Goldfish]

Cool AF arrived today (withdrawal bleed from stopping the pill after my cancelled ivf), so will ring the clinic tomorrow to confirm next cycle. if all goes as expected then prob start downreg in about 3 weeks or so. Glad your spotting stopped, not long before your stims start then. What protocol/stim dose are you on?

 

[Coolstar]

Gold, I am happy that your AF arrived. Can't you start the downreg as soon as AF stops or do you need to take 3 weeks break? Mine is a long protocol. Instead of taking birth control pill I was given an injection (i guess depo shot, don't remember it well)on 14th Feb. Maybe because I have endo I don't know. Next week I have to do some blood test and then start with the 2nd phase of ivf ie simulation phase . About spotting that happened to me I read that it's called break through bleeding and you can experience it when you are in your bcp phase.

 

[Goldfish]

Cool I'm on long protocol as well. My dr thinks it's better to 'quieten' the endo down first by using the pill then downreg first before stims. So I'll go on the pill for another 2-3 weeks starting tomorrow (which will be CD3), then have pill scan to check that my lining is thin etc. I'm also having an endometrial scratch before starting downreg/stims (I asked for it because I've had 2 failed implantations and it's supposed to increase chances of embryo implanting).

So next week starts your exciting phase - stims are more exciting because it feels like you're doing something active, ie growing follicles!

 

[Coolstar]

Gold, i don't know about endometrial scratch but if it's suppose to help with implantation then go girl go !! My doctor told me that my ivf success is around 30% because of my endo and i am willing to do anything to increase the chances. I am excited and nervous both at the same time for next week. Nervous thinking i might not grow any follicles Just praying for all of us !!

 

[YearningHeart]

Gold - Heyyyy how are you? Your going to take microgynon for a month right? So when do you start this? I think me and you will be at similar time with IVF. I am assuming I start my microgynon pills after 3 weeks for a month.
I totally agree with you, the stims does feel more like something is happening and more real that this it is IVF. xx

Cool - Awwww dont stress, sometimes its tension that causes the panic attack and sweats. Your so right, the struggle of IVF is so hard that you just think I want this phase to pass quick so I can move on with my life. Thats how I felt during my first IVF. I used to think oh weather it works out or not I just want it to pass. Its so hard mentally. We are all here for you so dont worry, stay strong.

No update for me - Its been a week since I have been taking Metformin pills and time has passed pretty quick, mind you I did forget to take the pills like 3 days

 

[YearningHeart]

Can I ask you ladies for advice?

During your IVF did you discuss your IVF stories and updates to anyone like family or friends? As in, in person not on the forum?

During my first IVF I didnt speak to anyone other than my husband and sometimes it did feel lonely but it wasnt too bad but I dont know why for this round of IVF I want to share my journey with someone.

 

[Coolstar]

Heart, I was thinking about you. Thank you so much........I don't know what I would have done without you ladies. Small words of encouragement means a lot at this stage. I know what you mean when you say lonely. I wanted to share my ivf journey with my close friend but my dh is totally against it. So I have not shared it with anyone except my dh(obviously he knows ) , my mom and dad. I talk with my mom, it's your personal choice and I do believe if you can talk with someone besides your dh it makes you feel good.But then be sure that person has empathy for your problem coz not everyone can relate with infertility. And pls don't forget your meds, buy a pill box if you need.

 

[Goldfish]

Cool aw, I know it's hard to stay positive but try to think of it as having a 30% chance that this will work the first time.
Yearning I took microgynon for 3 weeks after my last ivf round, then stopped it for a few days, got my withdrawal bleed and now I'll go on it for another 2 weeks (my clinic says minimum 12 days, maximum 42 days). As for telling people, I told 2 friends plus my boss when I did ivf#1 and ivf#2, then only my boss after that because of needing time off. I would love to tell more people but the pressure is too much - our parents already sort of know we are having TTC issues but we don't really talk about it. Ironically one of my best friends had ivf but I can't tell her because she can't keep her mouth shut and thinks ivf is really straightforward - hers worked first time, she responded really well and got lots of eggs, plus some frosties, and she doesn't seem to understand that not everyone can make lots of eggs.

doing ivf is a really lonely time, I have avoided people and this forum has been great as people can really relate. If you do tell someone, make sure it's not someone who will say stupid things like 'just relax and it'll happen'!

 

[Coolstar]

Thanks Gold, just to make myself happy I am thinking that 30% success rate is at least better then 5% to 10% success rate I am having in a natural cycle.
Heart, I totally agree with Gold that make sure that the person whom you share with does not say stupid things like " it will happen when it's suppose to happen"
My best friend told me that they have started ttc from last cycle. I always used to think that when she will start ttc she will get pg before me maybe just trying for 3 to 4 months and I would still be trying. I thought I will feel J but I was surprised I was happy for her. I have accepted the fact that I may never have a baby although I do feel bad for myself . But at least I am beyond my initial jealousy stage.

 

[Goldfish]

Cool I often find myself feeling both happiness and jealousy when people are pregnant. It's not too bad when it's their first but I struggle a bit when it's their second/third/fourth! I hope you can be pregnant at the same time as your friend so you can share the experience together.

 

[Coolstar]

Gold i understand when you say second/third/fourth. Yes sometime life is not fair
I called up my clinic and i have an appointment on Friday. Before that i need to do serum and estradiol blood test. So now just few more days ..... Wanted to ask you ladies how is ER ? Is it painful ???