Ttc number 3 :)

[cnsweeney]

I think internal bc's are the devil ! I had so many issues with the mirena
As for the ewcm question , I don't think I had it after O before but I didn't really pay attention . But now I am having the same issue . Not only did my temperature drop but I also had EWCM tonight that was like tan in color .sorry tmi . But I was like wth ?! I'm so confused . Like lord please don't let me be ovulating now . Cd29 when my cycles are typically only 29 days long to being with ! Vitamin b6 though delayed my O this month by 5 days (or so I think! )so figured AF would be due 5 days later on cd33 (wednesday). It sucks because I've read it could be AF coming (which would give me a 10 day lp -not normal for me ), implantation (I hope) , or a delayed O (please not again!)
Lol .. sorry for rambling , I've just never had more of a confusing cycle than this! I'm also cramping a bit more . Like everything is saying AF but that would be a short lp so idk :/
We will see tmw !
Have fun with your family spunky !

 

[Gypsy99]

CNS I despise BC now and if we do ever get pregnant have opted to get my tubes tied after baby is born. i wish there was more responsibility with males rather than us having to take care of everything.

Sounds like your cycle is being hell confusing! So frustrating for you. I hope things sort themselves out in the next couple of days.

Spunky. i thought I did have EWCM after ovulation, but then FF decided that was O day I think. I was very confused because some things have said that EWCM day is your most fertile day. Whereas some say watery mucus. Shit knows really.

I hope AF stays away for you and have a drink! I think it helps me relax. True alcoholic speaking there lol but really I've had a couple of Coronas today and they went down way to well. I figure I'm out this cycle anyway so trying to keep my sanity as people want to do things this weekend and I want to enjoy myself and not sit back feeling sorry for myself.

AFM- DH is still to interested in playing games rather than giving me attention. He gives me a peck on the lips or a small cuddle every now and then. Repeatedly saying he loves me, but still showing little to no interest in DTD. I've cried a couple of times this weekend. Even tonight he said lets watch a movie and chill out together. Which has now turned into playing games, which I'm sure will last until 10pm and I'll be asleep and gumpy / depressed again about it all. This is definitely the last month I'm I'm concentrating so much on this. I want to get through Xmas without analysing things and feeling like crap all the time when it doesn't work. Feel like I lose something within myself everytime AF arrives

 

[Oculi83]

Cns, you're 9dpo now, right? I tried to invert your image but can't really see anything. But on the original photo I think I can see something. Not 100% sure though. Will you take another one tomorrow? You all have to satisfy my poas addiction now! lol!

So sorry I never really write much and don't reply to everyone! I'm not trying to ignore you. It's just that I really have a hard time controlling my nausea. Everything makes me feel sick! Even looking at my phone for too long. Thus the very short replies..! Never had that with my previous pregnancies.

Went for the scan the other day. The little bean looks like it's right on track. Saw the heartbeat as well. Will go back again in December for the first trimester screening.

 

[cnsweeney]

Oculi - I am 11dpo today . Took another hpt today and it is same as yesterday . Something is there but I'm not trusting it lol . My temp went back above coverline but not high enough for me to feel better hopefully tmw it shoots up . It's weird because it is the same exact temps as cd5 & 6 lol. Still no af though so the dip wasn't that
I hope you feel better ! I know that feeling all too well they say hyperemesis (which is what I had , possibly you too) is more often girls than boys

 

[spunky84]

I'll respond a little later artery my family leaves.

Ewcm yesterday was only those couple of times. Gone after i posted about it. They're was more this morning. Not a lot in volume, but got it to stretch pretty well. Put it in some water to see if there was any chance it was from BD the other night.

Temps this morning 97.58 (old) and 97.69 (new). CP medium, soft, slightly open. A little crampy. Very irritable. I've already snapped at DH a million times this morning already. Though he was trying to push my buttons, and i was under a lot of pressure to get am assignment done.

Also flashing smiley again this morning. Negative IC opk. Caved and tested. Negative. Again.

 

[cnsweeney]

You aren't out till af arrives spunky

I forgot to post a picture of my test from this morning . But here it is .. I edited it so you all could see it better .

 

[spunky84]

cns: I think the tan color sounds promising!!! sounds like IB! Also, I think that looks like a bfp! An early one, but looks like it to me. I really feel like this is it for you

Gypsy: Yeah, that's confused me as well. Everywhere I see ewcm is most fertile, but I've seen other places that says watery is. We BD the other night, so if this is actually O, then hopefully that'll have us covered just in case.

And I'm so sorry about everything that's going on with DH I wish there's something I could say to help. It sounds like a hard situation to be in. When is AF due? I'm praying that this is your month

Oculi: I'm so sorry you're feeling so sick I hope it starts easing up soon. And that's awesome about the heartbeat



AFM, I just feel so out. I tried talking to DH about just flat out ttc instead of putting a strict time limit on it. While I understand the necessity of our time limit, I feel like it's putting too much pressure on this. While I'll be disappointed with AF shows up either way, I feel like it won't be as devastating we have more time ahead.

So far everything in life, everything has worked out. Sure, it's been challenging, but I feel we always find a way. As much as I need to get working, there's no saying that they won't hire me pregnant. I might not get paid time off during my leave, but we can plan for that with our tax return and save in other ways.

Not saying that I'm putting pregnancy/new baby before my family and the kids we have, but like I said, we've always been able to make things work one way or another. I have a lifetime of being able to work (and it's not even a guarantee that I'll get a job that easily -- most likely, but there's always a chance it could take months), but I don't have a lifetime to have kids. It could even take us a year or two to conceive, and if that's the case, I don't want to be putting this off only to find out much further down the road.

I would even be okay we just switched to condoms and gave time for my cycles to regulate and get my hormones back on track and then start trying again once things normal out which could still end up taking a year (or maybe never). I could still chart and get to know my cycles better, irregular or not, so hopefully that'd make ttc a little less stressful down the road.

He's very hesitant about that. At first he said ok, but I've heard that before. It was in the same tone as the other times that he was saying something just because it's what I wanted to hear. That was earlier. Just a bit ago he didn't quite say no, but I could tell that he was hesitant to say it just not to upset me.

So I'm still not even holding my breath for next month as I'm sure he'll have changed his mind by then. Knowing that this is our only chance or if by some chance he agrees to one more (still), I feel like it's just going to make AF that much harder. I feel like I'd be able to take it better (for now) if I knew we weren't so limited.

ETA: I just got a $75 gift card for Amazon. It's taking everything I have not to go on Amazon right now and order a bunch of stuff. I'm thinking more CB advanced opk (does anyone know if the fertility monitor sticks work and/or are accurate in the advanced digital opk?). Fertile CM instead of pre-seed. Not really sure what else, but I want to be prepared for next cycle, but I also don't want to order a ton of stuff, and, by an unlikely chance, get a bfp and then have to return it all. Or if DH did change his mind about next cycle which I think is the most probable of the 3.

Today is anywhere from 10 - 15 dpo. With DD I had a faint bfp at 13dpo and DS very strong positive at 18 dpo (I didn't test before those dpo with either, so bfp with the first test).

 

[cnsweeney]

Just took a frer and bfn note to everyone - never use blue dye tests !
I'm really just ready for af so we can try again , pretty sure I'm out this month

 

[spunky84]

I'm sorry cns Do you have another frer you can test with in the morning with fmu? Maybe with it being later in the day it was too dilute to pick up the hcg? Still keeping fx especially as the tan cm sounds so promising. It may just take a couple of days for it to build up enough to get for your bfp



I know I'm going to be stupid tomorrow and test again. Which I know will be negative so not sure why I'm bothering. I feel like I'm doing to have a big temp drop tomorrow. I have 1 frer left, and I'm trying to save that for Monday (which I'm sure will be negative also).

I'm starting to lose heart and think it's probably for the best. Talked with DH more this evening, and he's starting to seem more reluctant about ttc again Like he couldn't even agree to using condoms and me getting my cycle regular and not go on birth control even though it could take a long time to get it sorted. I think the last couple of months were just a temporary moment of insanity for him

 

[spunky84]

Both thermometers read 97.75 (highest rainy for old therm).

CP high, medium, closed. Creamy cm. Negative IC opk. Negative hpt.

 

[cnsweeney]

Sorry about your negative tests
I think I'm gonna wait to see if AF shows Wednesday . If not I'll take the other one .
My temp today was still above CL but still so low I'm just confused what's going on .

 

[spunky84]

I'm sorry cns I know this is frustrating for you too Hoping AF doesn't show up. Do you have another test waiting or will you have to go get one?



I stupidly caved I used my last FRER on smu (about 4 hours since fmu with nothing to drink as I went back to sleep). Negative, but had my first indent line with them Showed up within the 1st minute, so I stupidly had my hopes up, but realized what it was quickly.

I have 1 First Signal left. I'm going to try and get out and buy 1 more FRER, 1 single test, preferably not a curved if I can find one. Then I'll use both tomorrow morning, fmu only. When those come back negative, I'm not buying anymore. If AF doesn't show by Friday I'll test again. If I'm on a 55 day cycle again, then I should be due to start Wednesday.

 

[cnsweeney]

Yep I see that spunky ! Are you sure it's indent line ?!

 

[cnsweeney]

Oh & I have one more frer. Mine is curved though because that's all I could find but it's gotta be a million times better than blue dye ! Lol

 

[spunky84]

I'm pretty sure it is, unfortunately. It was very shadowy and no color (unless it's so early and faint that it's too hard to tell, but I doubt that). I think indents glow on invert as well.

That takes a ton of willpower to have a test and hold of testing! lol That's why I'm limiting myself to a single test because I obviously don't have the willpower not to lol I'll probably go out late tonight for to test tomorrow, and then go out late Thursday for Friday morning to, hopefully, remove the temptation. I'm slowly running out of IC opks. I'm definitely not ordering any more lol I could spend all day testing lol so I'm hoping to keep myself distracted enough so I don't.

 

[Gypsy99]

Spunky thats really hard to see on my phone. But might not be an indent.

Cns hope your temp rises again. Well done in holding out.

Afm. Damn earthquakes in the early hours of this morning. 7.5magnitude my house shook for at least a minute. So silly because we tried to ignore it and then all I did was sit on the bed waiting for it to stop. Kids slept through weirdos!

Work is shut today and so is kindy. I got angry at DH because I thought he was shaking the bed but it was an aftershock! But we couldn't get back to sleep so bding time lol.

My temp was down this morning 35.9 but that may have been sleep related.

 

[spunky84]

Oh no Gypsy! That sounds really scary! I'm glad you are all ok! Is everything okay with your home? i'm glad you at least got to take advantage and get some BDing in lol I hope your temp goes up some more tomorrow!



AFM, I ended up buying more tests... like more than the 1 for tomorrow: 3 pack FRER ($3 off); CB digital countdown ($2 off - out of the week estimator); and Equate. I thought the equate was a pink dye as they showed the lines in pink compared to the line sin blue on boxes above it.

FRER and Equate when I got home. Indent on FRER again, but not as obvious. Evap or something on Equate (but it ended up being a blue dye, so yeah). I'm planning on a FRER tomorrow regardless (unless it's obvious that I won't need any). I may do either the second Equate or my last First Signal. If by an unlikely chance any are positive, I may do a CB, but I doubt it as I know that those usually have a higher limit before registering.

Otherwise I'm saving 1 FRERR and 1 CB digital for Friday if I don't start by then. I may have DH hide them for me If i only use 1 cheapy tomorrow and I can't hold out until Friday, then I'll have a cheapy for Wednesday

Tomorrow I'll be anywhere from 12dpo - 17dpo if I count CD 37 and CD 42 as possibilities. Though I really think CD 40-42 is most likely. We'll see. I'm not getting my hopes up tomorrow.

 

[cnsweeney]

Hahaha spunky ! -you crack me up! bad girl you buying all those tests . However , I suggest you take the equates outside and run them over , then reverse and do it again .. those are the brand I got those pesky likes on
Gypsy- I am so happy you are all okay ! Where do you live ?? Kids can sleep through anything ! Haha . But like spunky said , I'm glad you got some bd'ing in !
AFM- I think I'm able to hold out now because I'm just tired of literally paying for disappointment lol . The slight chance I do have a bfp waiting for me it will be an amazing surprise in a few days . but until then I am already planning for my next month ttc and sway

 

[Katy78]

I'm sorry about your BFNs girls. Still hoping that changes for you and the next test you pee on turns positive.

Gypsy, at least you got to DTD... My OH is also a gamer but is still more interested in BD than I am... Well, he doesn't have any really interesting games to play at the moment. He's been known to stay up all night to play but he's not that young anymore and he has to take care of the little one in the morning while I'm at work (he's a SAHD).

AFM - AF is over, it lasted 7 days this month, no idea why that long... I took femara again, I hope it works for me this cycle. We started BDing last night, I went to bed early the night before because I really needed it.
I'll start peeing on OPKs tomorrow or on Wednesday.

 

[Gypsy99]

Katy - Oh no a 7 day AF is so not awesome fingers crossed for you this month.

CNS I am in the south island of New Zealand and the epicentre of the quake was very close to us. We are still getting aftershocks I like your optimism. Already preparing and thinking just in case of what to do next cycle. i feel like i've been making these small steps that are making me healthier and healthier. DH was asking when I would start getting tested as to why we can't make a baby. i said to him we need to have sex at the right time first (not take over a week off over the fertile period :-/)

You still have a chance spunky. It must be so so hard not knowing what your cycles are doing in the first place. Have you tried traditional Chinese herbs? Sometimes they can work wonders with cycle length.