Moon - I checked your chart and noticed that your temps from the beginning of this cycle are missing. Sorry if you already pointed out why - i suspect that might be part of why you aren't seeing a clearer pattern this month?
Yeah, I know, at the beginning of the month, I decided I was going to chillax about it and not temp for my entire cycle, but just wait until I was near ovulation time to do temps, and then once temp rise was confirmed, just temp until next cycle.
Coz my cycle is so long (37-40 days), temping everyday leaves me open to major obsession about everything.
Moondance hope you get your temp rise soon. Sorry you are having a hard time at home - maybe it will get sorted out - can you chat to your father and do you want to stay with him or not?
I don't WANT to stay here because of his girlfriend, but right now I'm unemployed. I get a government benefit of $499 every 2 weeks. Food shopping, Animal Food, Cell Phone Bill, Internet Bill.... after paying that and chipping into the home electric and phone, I don't have any money.
It's not enough to pay rent. Last time I rented ALONE, I couldn't afford to live and ended up starving for days at a time, or living off boxes of frosting mix to keep my sugar intake up.
I have done sharing, but since I don't deal so well with people, I can't just room with anyone, it has to be someone who is a friend... and I don't actually HAVE any friends.
I'd live with DP if I could, but I can't. There are things preventing that from happening. But dad doesn't want me in his house anymore, so he's buying a stupid caravan to put out in the yard for me to live in that.
Mind you I'm only 2 weeks off my birthday and I have to find out that my dad can't stand me and wants me out of his house not from him, but his girlfriend who I can't stand. Dad doesn't even remember that my birthday is coming up.
He said to my sister that he's kicking me out into a caravan coz he's sick of my being messy, but yet he can be just as bad.
I think its more to do with that

of a girlfriend of his. He tells her things he doesn't like, so then she gets in his ear and goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on about it, until he does whatever she says just to shut her up. And she's been whinging about me since the day I shoved her stupid face into the floor, which I did for good reason. She picked up my dog, a small Pomeranian who has spine and leg problems, picked her up and threw her 4 feet in the air and then walked away! So I shoved her into the floor and screamed in her face.
Sorry people, uh, I'm doing that thing I said a few days ago I didn't want to do, I'm whining and carrying on like a total twat... I'm sorry for being a downer. It's just I've been crying all afternoon.
DP has been a bit abrupt with me today, apparently coz he's busy, I don't know... but I've barely gotten to speak to him all day, and then all of this on top of it is just making me miserable.
Moondance Im so sorry for you look at it this way a caravan might be ok, your own space away from your dads girlfriend and no chance of her coming in drunk and taking her temper out on your pets, you can leave the the place as messy as you like and who cares eh! tell him it better be a nice one
look on it as a stepping stone on to something better, I know your good at computers any chance you can work doing that get get a bit of extra money may be look in to working for yourself may be!!
Dont feel bad for letting all your feelings out here I know I do not mind and hope we can help make you feel better.

hey will the fact your not in the family home entitle you to more money from center link. Hmmm why DP short I mean when you feel bad its your partner you turn to for comfort. glad you have us hun
I am in school at the moment for computers... around here, nobody hires for computer things until you have that piece of paper that says "YES, I know how to do all of this crap", they won't really hire on the basis of what I SAY I can do.
Looks like I will have to buy one of those wireless modem things, with the antenna, so I can keep online in the caravan, as there is no way that I'll be able to have a phone line going in that far from the house.
And I need my internet, otherwise I'll go completely mental.
hey tryfor, you asked the other day about my dads girlfriend and I said she hadn't been near me since I shoved her on her face?
Well she was here this morning, trying to tell me that my dad is looking for a caravan for me to live in, so I don't have to live in his house anymore, then asking why I can't live with DP, I told her the reasons, she didn't care.
She's in a spazzy mood again. This could get dangerous by the end of the day if she gets any worse.
Still no temp rise.
GAH, I'm so jealous of people who have normal proper cycles that don't decide to be all spazzy tarded. I want my temp rise dammit!
Oh No Moon!!! The damned girlfriend! A caravan huh? Where are you supposed to go to the bathroom and shower and cook? Is there a talk you can have with your DP since you both are trying to have a baby together for you to move in with him? I mean you would have to soon anyway to raise a baby together right? Gosh Moon, hunnie, I hope everything turns out alright for you

Jobs are difficult to find for the past few years...I applied almost everywhere for over a year!!! Good Luck sweetie! And don't apologize for ranting. See, we all do it. We are not only here to talk about fun ttc things but we are here as a BnB family for support and love.
I don't really understand why, but DP appears to not be ready for that move yet, which sometimes makes me wonder whats going on.
Yesterday he was kind of abrupt with me... I had texted him in the morning telling him what dds girlfriend said about why don't I move in with him, and he seemed to think that me telling him she said it was me pushing him.
He came online 3 times during the day, and barely spoke to me any of those times, twice it was just a "Oh, I'm on my way out, sorry, bye" and another it was "going to bed now, bye, HUGS"...
When I am NOT pushing to move in with him, I just like to share with him things that are going on with me, so that if I'm sad, he understands why or whatever.
and your poor DH, having to have teeth pulled. That hurts, I know, I was there a couple weeks ago having a tooth pulled. It still hurts sometimes...
Moondance:

I don't know if this is the place to say it, but have you ever thought about writing? Your stories are always so colorful.
Well I do somewhat consider myself a writer, its just always a question of, "where does one get a book published and how do they go about it?" From what I hear, most publishing places won't even accept a manuscript unless it comes from an agent.
Julia, first of all, yes, PLEASE stay here! I'll miss you too much if you go. I think we need you.

Secondly, you're very sweet. Thank you for the well wishes.
I second that emotion! We need you here Julia, you're awesome! Plus, you got your BFP, so it kinda gives us some hope!
Yes, how are those masterbating birds of yours, Soph??!!

That still makes me chuckle!
Totally! AND I STILL WANNA SEE VIDEO! ROFL!
and so far as I can tell, I still don't have a temp rise...
Confused too, coz my boobs normally feel fat and fullish AFTER ovulation, but they were feeling that way a good four or five days before I was even due to ovulate, but I just kind of ignored it.
Have been uber weepy today, not sure what thats all about... its either the knowledge that my life sucks, OR AF is coming soon. I don't know.
Also keep having AF like cramping.
But enough about me!!!!
I HAVE been reading everyones posts, but right now, my brain is so dysfunctional as it has been for a few weeks now, wherein, by the time I finish reading 2 pages, I don't remember anything I read them in. I'm so sorry!
But HI EVERYONE!!!
*tacklehugs all my buds on the BnB forum**