Just gotta vent!!!
Ive been a B+B stalker for 6 months!! Finally I get to vent (phew)
Firstly I am 36yrs young almost 37yrs, I feel that my age is a factor in fertility but everything seems to be normal as in blood testing and ov/reg cycles etc... so my partner and I keep on ttc only for every month to bring endless disappointment and frustration.
I am now on cycle 6 of really trying ie monitoring ov and bd on fertile days etc... but nothing seems to be working.
I have tried to relax and remain hopeful but with passing time I feel time is against us and that it may never happen.. this is too much to bear and as we both work stressful shifts with unsocialable hours, its difficult to maintain optimistic when your environment is far from relaxing.
Believe me I know that there are a lot of others out there who have been ttc for a hell of a lot longer and who, like me stalk the message boards looking for reassurance during the dreaded tww.
At present I am 5dpo and have no symptoms whatsoever so I feel Im out this month. It wont stop me imagining every pain and twitch or cramp/nausea as I know we all do it, clinging to that little bit of hope until POAS religiously whilst all the time kicking yourself that you are once more in the position of enduring the torture of the BFN!! Why do we do it??? Because for every one of us there are thousands out there who have been through it and got thier BFP, we wait until its our month because we WILL know the struggle to get there and all the pain we have suffered is worth every day of the twws when we see those magic lines and we can share our BFPs with the world too and im holding out for that feeling when its my turn, I hope all of you fantastic ladies get your turn in 2010, you are inspirational to so many without even knowing it..............
Baby dust to all xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Mojo
TTC 36yrs OH 38yrs Cycle 7 (April 2010)
Ive been a B+B stalker for 6 months!! Finally I get to vent (phew)
Firstly I am 36yrs young almost 37yrs, I feel that my age is a factor in fertility but everything seems to be normal as in blood testing and ov/reg cycles etc... so my partner and I keep on ttc only for every month to bring endless disappointment and frustration.
I am now on cycle 6 of really trying ie monitoring ov and bd on fertile days etc... but nothing seems to be working.
I have tried to relax and remain hopeful but with passing time I feel time is against us and that it may never happen.. this is too much to bear and as we both work stressful shifts with unsocialable hours, its difficult to maintain optimistic when your environment is far from relaxing.
Believe me I know that there are a lot of others out there who have been ttc for a hell of a lot longer and who, like me stalk the message boards looking for reassurance during the dreaded tww.
At present I am 5dpo and have no symptoms whatsoever so I feel Im out this month. It wont stop me imagining every pain and twitch or cramp/nausea as I know we all do it, clinging to that little bit of hope until POAS religiously whilst all the time kicking yourself that you are once more in the position of enduring the torture of the BFN!! Why do we do it??? Because for every one of us there are thousands out there who have been through it and got thier BFP, we wait until its our month because we WILL know the struggle to get there and all the pain we have suffered is worth every day of the twws when we see those magic lines and we can share our BFPs with the world too and im holding out for that feeling when its my turn, I hope all of you fantastic ladies get your turn in 2010, you are inspirational to so many without even knowing it..............
Baby dust to all xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Mojo
TTC 36yrs OH 38yrs Cycle 7 (April 2010)
