KamIAm
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Hi Girls....
I'm gonna make this short and sweet....
I can't shake these thoughts or feelings .... I have been battling with them for a while now and need help with them... I wanna TTC but I am terrified!!!!
My OH is leaving it up to me if and when we try...I REALLY REALLY wanna try NOW but everytime I think to myself, "this is it! this is the month kelly"... I immediately rush back to March 25, the day I lost Emma... and then I tell myself "No way!!!" Never again will I try.... That hurt TOO much.... Why would I put myself in risk for that to happen again??? But then I have this uncontrollable pull..... I wanna TTC!
Is this just a normal feeling, that everyone has and then will just pass?? I keep telling myself that I don't really, that this is just a part of grieving the loss of Emma, the sudden end of my pregnancy.... I don't know....
If I would be given 100% chance of having a successful pregnancy, I'd done already jumped in,..... But I"m scared.....
THanks girls for listening/reading my crazy ramblings....
And here I said this was gonna be short and sweet,.... Ha, never from me
I'm gonna make this short and sweet....
I can't shake these thoughts or feelings .... I have been battling with them for a while now and need help with them... I wanna TTC but I am terrified!!!!
My OH is leaving it up to me if and when we try...I REALLY REALLY wanna try NOW but everytime I think to myself, "this is it! this is the month kelly"... I immediately rush back to March 25, the day I lost Emma... and then I tell myself "No way!!!" Never again will I try.... That hurt TOO much.... Why would I put myself in risk for that to happen again??? But then I have this uncontrollable pull..... I wanna TTC!
Is this just a normal feeling, that everyone has and then will just pass?? I keep telling myself that I don't really, that this is just a part of grieving the loss of Emma, the sudden end of my pregnancy.... I don't know....
If I would be given 100% chance of having a successful pregnancy, I'd done already jumped in,..... But I"m scared.....
THanks girls for listening/reading my crazy ramblings....
And here I said this was gonna be short and sweet,.... Ha, never from me