Ethereal
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Is the word I would use to describe how I'm feeling about this pregnancy. I have tried so hard to be happy, to look forward to another baby and think of the positives but I'm just so sad. I'm not looking forward to it at all, and the negatives are highly outweighing the positives.
This will be baby number two, to father number two, and I think that's a big part of the issue, every little thing about the pregnancy and the outcome is upsetting me, and all I'm doing is worrying, crying and faking a smile, and I just need to get it off my chest.
Things I'm worrying about:
Not being able to go back to college like I wanted after summer
Not being able to be a good mum to DD when I'm heavily pregnant
Her life changing majorly
DD only sees her dad occasionally as we live hundreds of miles away, so she doesn't have her dad or his family, but baby will, and I resent that. She will be pushed out, no matter how much OH tries to say otherwise I just KNOW she will be treated differently.
Me having a different surname to two of my own children
My DD having a separate surname from here brother or sister
Our financial situation
Having to move, probably away from DDs nursery which she is starting in January
Baby waking DD through the night
The possibility of another 3rd degree tear
Labour in general
The possibility of post natal depression (which judging by how I'm feeling at the moment will be high)
My severe lack of a social life
Being stuck in the house with two kids
My body image
The possibility of this wrecking our relationship and me having to be a single mum all over again.
(we haven't been together for very long)
That's the majority of why I am not looking forward to having a second child.
I'm sorry if this post upsets anyone or anything but I needed to vent.
I had just gotten into a comfortable place in my life, I had a college course planned out, was starting to enjoy life and me and OH were having fun in the honeymoon period of the relationship and now this. I just don't know how we'll cope.
This will be baby number two, to father number two, and I think that's a big part of the issue, every little thing about the pregnancy and the outcome is upsetting me, and all I'm doing is worrying, crying and faking a smile, and I just need to get it off my chest.
Things I'm worrying about:
Not being able to go back to college like I wanted after summer
Not being able to be a good mum to DD when I'm heavily pregnant
Her life changing majorly
DD only sees her dad occasionally as we live hundreds of miles away, so she doesn't have her dad or his family, but baby will, and I resent that. She will be pushed out, no matter how much OH tries to say otherwise I just KNOW she will be treated differently.
Me having a different surname to two of my own children
My DD having a separate surname from here brother or sister
Our financial situation
Having to move, probably away from DDs nursery which she is starting in January
Baby waking DD through the night
The possibility of another 3rd degree tear
Labour in general
The possibility of post natal depression (which judging by how I'm feeling at the moment will be high)
My severe lack of a social life
Being stuck in the house with two kids
My body image
The possibility of this wrecking our relationship and me having to be a single mum all over again.
(we haven't been together for very long)
That's the majority of why I am not looking forward to having a second child.
I'm sorry if this post upsets anyone or anything but I needed to vent.
I had just gotten into a comfortable place in my life, I had a college course planned out, was starting to enjoy life and me and OH were having fun in the honeymoon period of the relationship and now this. I just don't know how we'll cope.