Vent/Sad

[peachaeo]

A long time friend randomly asked me out to lunch today...I have a sinking feeling he is going to tell me his wife is pregnant. I hate that this is my first thought , I hate that I have to plan to compose myself ahead of time, and I hate that this is now my life

 

[uwa_amanda]

A long time friend randomly asked me out to lunch today...I have a sinking feeling he is going to tell me his wife is pregnant. I hate that this is my first thought , I hate that I have to plan to compose myself ahead of time, and I hate that this is now my life

to you hun!

 

[Galaxy Girl]

I know that feeling!!
I get that horrible sinking feeling everytime someone close to me announces their pregnancy.
Its becoming hard to smile and congratulate them when Im becoming so desperate and I feel so guilty for feeling so jealous.

Our time will come though! Stay positive

 

[miana]

Know exactly how you feel! I have a few friends around me that are TTC too so it can feel like a competition at times lol. I just dread them telling me they are pregnant before me .
I had a friend last year that was trying to get pregnant while I was too. We used to make a game out if it, asking if each other was pregnant each month, or how far they had to go till they could take a hpt? But the day came where she had to tell me she was and she was terrified lol. She used to ball her eyes out whenever someone else was pregnant, so was scared I'd have the same reaction. I was upset (not visibly) but soooo happy for her.

It's hard to deal with but you just have to be happy for them, you don't want any bad karma around! lol

I have times when I am completely fine with it and other times when I just get so upset about the whole thing. It comes and goes.

 

[YearningHeart]

Awww stay strong. I know its hard. xx

 

[wannabemummyb]

It sux and i completely understand! I avoided a friends call for two weeks because she text and said "we must catch up"..... Turns out she wanted to check how i was coping with lttc but it still happens with other friends! The sinking feeling is the worst.

I hope the lunch goes/went well xx

 

[KittyKan]

Gets difficult to be pleased for them, as you wonder when will it be MY turn. I'm usually such a positive person & happy for people in their endeavours. Now when it's comes to pregnancy... Not so much. It's our turn now, please let it be xx

 

[KittyKan]

Oh and I hope the lunch went ok hun

 

[wannabemummyb]

Gets difficult to be pleased for them, as you wonder when will it be MY turn. I'm usually such a positive person & happy for people in their endeavours. Now when it's comes to pregnancy... Not so much. It's our turn now, please let it be xx

I soooo know that feeling kittykan. Fingers crossed for you

 

[KittyKan]

And you too wannabemummyb, I truly hope so for all of us - I know we all deserve it x

 

[LoveCakes]

Yup I've been there, any time someone isn't drinking my heart sinks a bit. Hubby has started to hate weddings because we know they'll end up in an announcement a few months later.

From experience have a response ready so your brain goes that instead of what you're really thinking.

 

[peachaeo]

Haha thanks LoveCakes...censorship is always a good thing ;-)

Thank you for the support ladies...it's so nice to know I'm not the only one out there. I've actually done a good job of keeping my emotions in check and generally being genuinely happy for other people (I just threw my best friend her baby shower...she got pg on her first try of course lol). I just got that sinking feeling when he called, and really what bothers me is that it just reminds me that something within me is broken, and reminds me that I've got a long road ahead. oh well, onto the next cycle xoxo