Waiting for our BFPs! Please hurry :-D

[Nina83]

I plan on staying put. We just bought the apartment, we said that in about 5 years or so we'd start to keep our eyes open for a first floor garden apartment, but in the same neighborhood. I don't want my kids to feel like I do. I want them to always feel like an individual and know exactly where their home is, even if we do move.

 

[Nina83]

Awesome Mother Nature, way to go. I have ANOTHER yeast infection. Gha.
I am however, trying not to overthink it, because with my first pregnancy I got a YI in the TWW as well, and it could be a symptom.
I usually only get it after AF, so, here's to hoping mother nature is planning a surprise.

 

[HappilyTTC]

Fingers crossed, Nina! Hope this YI has a good cause.

As for me, I'm getting "regular" in the poop department. Haha. I can't believe my body- looking at it makes me so sad. I'm so swollen and it's cut open at the belly and still bleeding. I'm hardly eating and only drinking water and I look like I gained 30 pounds over night. I have deep moments of sadness- I'm not gonna lie. I can stay positive and see the sunny side, but I see the reality, too. I'm coming to terms, but it's slow day by day.

Hope everyone is doing well.

 

[Nina83]

Happily, I'm sorry you're still feeling sore and down.
I think once your body starts to heal it will be different, it's a lot to take in right now, everything all together. It's so early since your surgery still, you're doing great!

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Happily im sorry for all u are going through. The cut bleeding sounds bad. I hope it all heals and u recover as soon as possible. I guess u will have very sad moments, anybody who has been through what u have would feel the same way. It's good u can see positives too and making future plans will help like hols etc..
Thinking of u hun xxx

Nina I hope the yi is a good sign. Your temps defo look good so far! I've got my fx for u hun

Xxx

 

[hilslo]

Happily- how big is your scar. Bleeding a bit should be okay whilst it's healing but if it starts to weep get to your gp!
My op was different I know but was also quite major surgery. I have about a 10cm scar and 10 months later it is flat and going silvery so it will start looking better before you know it. I remember the bloat well. It made me look like I was about 6 months pregnant. Cruelly ironic. You're coping really well - I know you have no choice, the world doesn't stop turning but I still admire you.

I had an appt with my consultant today. She was lovely. She gave me an internal scan to see if I was pregnant but she could see my lining is about to collapse so no bfp for me this cycle. She said it looks like I o'd from my left side (my tubeless side) and that my lining was quite thin so she has given me progesterone suppositories to take from next cycle.
Next cycle here we come!

 

[cathgibbs]

Oohhhh happily massive for you lovely. ......your handling this so well hun...glad you've managed to poop lol hopefully the bloot will go soon xxxxxx

Omg ilslo we are def cycle buddies I had my consultant meeting today too! Xxx

 

[Nina83]

How did it go Cath?

Hilslo, I'm always amazed at how much they can actually see. I'm sorry AF is on it's way ((hugs))

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Hilslo is that definate that your af will come?y friend got told she hadn't even ovulated the cycle she got pregnant lol so they do make mistakes!

Cath what happened at your consultant meeting?

Xxx

 

[cathgibbs]

It went ok thanks ladies. Got to ring xray dept when I get and they will see if they can do my hsg might have to have my tube removed.

Hilslo that's fab your on progesterone!

Nina hows your day hun and hows your yeast infection haha so weird saying that

Mrsb how you doing lovely xxx

 

[Nina83]

LOL! My YI says hi

Did they say why they might have to remove it?! I hope you'll be able to have the HSG soon and hopefully everything will be fine!

MrsB, how far along are you now?

 

[cathgibbs]

Haha hi YI! that tickled me Nina haha!

Because my ectopic may have scarred my tube hun. When I had my Laparoscopy they noticed the little hairs that help shift the egg was damaged. Never mind! Xxx

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Cath I hope u don't need your tube removing. I only have one working tube but no talk of it being removed. I've had a hsg and its very successful at giving people a bfp. I got my last bfp the cycle I had my hsg!

Im about 7.5 weeks I think. Don't have a clue now ive been put back a bit. Going to mw tomorrow so will tell her my worries. I don't want to bother u, I want to be here to support u all

Xxx

 

[HappilyTTC]

Cath: I hope you don't need that tube removed!

Nina: Hi to your YI!

MrsB: I hope your little bean is all settled in for the long haul.

I am enjoying my time at home.

One of my girl friends, who was miffed that I couldn't go to her birthday party the weekend I was camping before the surgery (so in retaliation she didn't go to my farewell to my uterus party), asked me when I am going back to work. I let her know it would be some time in January and she was shocked. She asked why the long vacay?

Um....

I had major surgery and they cut me open.

She was shocked to learn that's what a hysterectomy is!

Really? My husband thinks she knew she messed up by not being supportive so she tried to act like she didn't know it was a big deal. I kinda think he's right.

Anyways, some of my acquaintances are avoiding me and I hear it's because they think this infertility thing is catchy. Really? Really? Come on, it's the 2013s people. This is something that happened to me. Just cause you know me doesn't mean it will happen to you.



Hope you are all doing well.

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Aww Happily. Im sorry some people can't deal with it as well as u would hope. I guess your friend could just be nieve about the procedure, I know im not very bright at understanding things unless they are fully explained.
That's ridiculous that people are avoiding u! Perhaps they can't find the words to say. Surely they can't really think it's catching. U are better off surrounding yourself with the supportive people who love u anyway hun xxx

 

[ladyluck84]

Just catching up ladies

Cath why might u need the tube removed?
Happily big hugs it's natural that you have times when u feel incredibly sad
Nina: two birthdays I would love that!
Mrs broody hope you're well
Hilslo: what does taking progesterone involve is it just a tablet?

 

[cathgibbs]

MRsb what you worried about hun??

Happily I LOVE the fact you did a farewell to your uterus party! Seriously though, your friend. surely she knew a hysterectomy is a major op!? How you feeling now hun? Oh my shitting God are people that pathetic and stupid to think infertility spreads?!!

LL I will need a HSG and possible (more likely than not) tube removal because my ectopic has scarred my tube and the little hairs that are in the tube have been damaged so to not risk another ectopic. also I have pains when im ovulating and when af is here from my ectopic side

How is everyone today?? xxx

 

[Nina83]

Happily, I think some people are just total noobs. Either she's just that or she really is clueless when it comes to sympathy and bedside manners. Either way, not cool.
Infertility does not spread. Ignorant people. Ugh. I need to punch something now.

MrsB, it's so exciting you're getting further and further along. It's always amazing how suddenly weeks take on a different meaning, and "time" during pregnancy!

I've been getting bad cramps these past 2 days. I'm both excited and terrified for whatever turns out next week.
Yesterday I remembered how weak in the knees I felt seeing my very first second line, and I know I will never feel that way again. It makes me sad, because the first thing I know I'll do will freak out instead of feeling faint.
Oh, and could a chart get any more jaggedy? Seriously!

 

[cathgibbs]

Awww Nina I totally know what you mean - for some people who have never suffered a mc its all excitement etc but for people who have had losses its a kinda dreaded feeling isnt it? Your chart is looking amazeballs though hun!!! getting higher and higher!!

Ladies I have a slight confession, last night i found out i got my BFP but i havent said anything as iv been spotting and the lines are very faint and my gut feeling isnt good (it was never good for the previous 3).

How is everyone today?? xxx

 

[Nina83]

Aw Cath! Massive hugs! I love the way you just threw that in "as a matter of fact"!
DON'T you dare give up! I know how hard it is to feel positive about BFP, and the gut feeling will always be horrible, but that's how it's going to be for a long 9 months!
Lines need to start somewhere- as faint as they seem to be!