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LiSa2010
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All,
I was just lurking in the PAL section and am now feeling so sad about my recent loss and wanted to share my feelings.
So many women (in the PAL section) worrying about their pregnancies when it should be a happy and exciting time in our lives. I know when I become pregnant again, I will be just like them. I already am like them. Having a miscarriage changes how you think about pregnancy, at least it did for me. What should be the happiest and most exciting time of my life becomes stressful and fear and paranoia kicks in. Once you've had a miscarriage, all you think about when you're pregnant is doing the right things and making sure you do everything in your power to make it through the next 8 months without worrying and being stressed, but you don't, not until we're holding our baby does it seem real and in the end, we know it'll all have been worth it.
Im still waiting for baby #2. It's been so long since Ive been pregnant. I've had 3 m/cs. My first two m/cs were around 6-7 weeks and felt my baby leave me, saying good-bye. My last pregnancy was a chemical and although I didn't feel my baby leave my body, the 3 1/2 weeks of spotting made him real in my heart. Each time I found out I was pregnant, a fear hit me right in the gut, a fear that never left, a fear that will stay forever...... It turns to sadness, a sadness that will forever stay with me....... and this is my reason for getting stressed and paranoid when I find out Im pregnant. Maybe one day this fear and sadness will go away forever, for now, it's here, BUT IT DOES NOT OVERCOME ME FOR I AM STRONG AND I WILL ONE DAY GIVE BIRTH TO BABY #2 AND I WILL HOLD HIM/HER AND IT WILL HAVE ALL BEEN WORTH IT. For all the ladies in the PAL section and this section and all of BNB, I pray that everything goes well in your pregnancies and TTC journey and I will keep you all in my prayers. I give you many many cyber hugs, and well wishes and pray you bring your beautiful babies into the world happy and healthy...
I believe in you all as I believe in myself..... with a little faith, prayer, and trust, I know WE WILL ALL HOLD OUR BABIES.....
I was just lurking in the PAL section and am now feeling so sad about my recent loss and wanted to share my feelings.
So many women (in the PAL section) worrying about their pregnancies when it should be a happy and exciting time in our lives. I know when I become pregnant again, I will be just like them. I already am like them. Having a miscarriage changes how you think about pregnancy, at least it did for me. What should be the happiest and most exciting time of my life becomes stressful and fear and paranoia kicks in. Once you've had a miscarriage, all you think about when you're pregnant is doing the right things and making sure you do everything in your power to make it through the next 8 months without worrying and being stressed, but you don't, not until we're holding our baby does it seem real and in the end, we know it'll all have been worth it.
Im still waiting for baby #2. It's been so long since Ive been pregnant. I've had 3 m/cs. My first two m/cs were around 6-7 weeks and felt my baby leave me, saying good-bye. My last pregnancy was a chemical and although I didn't feel my baby leave my body, the 3 1/2 weeks of spotting made him real in my heart. Each time I found out I was pregnant, a fear hit me right in the gut, a fear that never left, a fear that will stay forever...... It turns to sadness, a sadness that will forever stay with me....... and this is my reason for getting stressed and paranoid when I find out Im pregnant. Maybe one day this fear and sadness will go away forever, for now, it's here, BUT IT DOES NOT OVERCOME ME FOR I AM STRONG AND I WILL ONE DAY GIVE BIRTH TO BABY #2 AND I WILL HOLD HIM/HER AND IT WILL HAVE ALL BEEN WORTH IT. For all the ladies in the PAL section and this section and all of BNB, I pray that everything goes well in your pregnancies and TTC journey and I will keep you all in my prayers. I give you many many cyber hugs, and well wishes and pray you bring your beautiful babies into the world happy and healthy...
I believe in you all as I believe in myself..... with a little faith, prayer, and trust, I know WE WILL ALL HOLD OUR BABIES.....