Hey Girls :wave: I have been avoiding the 1st Tri board like the plague over the past few weeks but I think I am finally ready to take the leap and join you For those of you who don't know me Im Terrie and I've been a member of BNB since, like, foreverrrrrr!!! I have a son called Rhys who is 6 and a daughter called Ffion who is 5 and we had a MMC last June which broke our hearts. Well a whole year later I was two weeks late on my period and I was thinking 'theres nooooo way I'm pregnant. Nope. Not a chance. Didn't even DTD whilst ovulating...' In the end on May 21st I gave in and tested to prove myself right and I got this: https://i163.photobucket.com/albums/t320/tezzy-wezzy/6A10215F-47C8-4DC3-B034-E3191E9696C8-361-00000077B9D77359.jpg Which was a bit of a shock ... So thinking i had bought a dudd cheapy test I bought a CB Digi... and got this: https://i163.photobucket.com/albums/t320/tezzy-wezzy/07C18756-5ED2-4261-955C-5399A8CD676A-361-00000077B384C616.jpg A little harder to ignore right? So I told hubby and he was thrilled!!! We didn't even know how far along I was since my cycles are all over the place but it was somewhere between 4 and 6 weeks. We decided not to tell family until our 12 week scan and they still don't know. But it hasnt all been plain sailing.... June 3rd I started to bleed. I was devastated and thought we were going to have another MC. I went to A&E and got told likely Ectopic pregnancy and they brought me back in the next day for a scan. Expecting the worst I was a wreck... Until the sonographer flipped the screen around to me and said 'oooh we definitely have a little one in there!' And there it was... my baby... just a blob on the screen, heart flickering away measuring 6weeks and 4 days... I couldnt believe it! https://i163.photobucket.com/albums/t320/tezzy-wezzy/92041D0F-7A4C-4E5E-8272-308695F67DB9-149-000000087221C8B5.jpg The bleeding continued though... On and off all week... Then at the weekend it started to get heavier and the cramps got worse... and I thought all hope was lost On Monday i rang my Midwife and she arranged another scan for yesterday. I was so convinced it was over... I was feeling bitter, angry and upset... thinking 'Why me? Why again? What was the point?' I didn't want to go to the hospital, I wanted to hide in bed all day. But i went, and I'm glad I did! I told the sonographer when i walked into the room 'I already know what has happened, just tell me so i can deal with it' She said ok and that she would take a look. Within seconds she said 'erm... I think I might see a heartbeat... but I'm not sure... You're bladder is too full' She then told me to go pee and she would do a trans vaginal scan. I don't think ive ever whipped my knickers off so fast in my life! Again within seconds she told me there was definietly a heartbeat and the baby was fine. I couldnt believe it! She spent some time investigating an 'area of separation' in my womb (which was the cause of all the bleeding) and then, bless her she didnt have to, she spent some time showing me my babies hands and feet and everything, measuring 8 weeks and 2 days She even gave me a picture: https://i163.photobucket.com/albums/t320/tezzy-wezzy/52F8F6E5-512C-42B5-B404-9083AF410A49-763-0000008E3ED07778.jpg This morning I have woken up with no bleeding and lots of pregnancy symptoms So I guess now I can FINALLY admit IM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im looking forward to getting to know all of you through the trimesters Im planning on having a natural birth and to breastfeed and to use cloth nappies and to babywear Thanks for reading! Pop along to my pregnancy journal if you'd like to follow our progress!