Where do i belong?!

[aflight84]

Hey Girls,
Not really sure where i belong anymore as most of you know I lost the twins last week one was ectopic the other miscarriage it's a week tomorrow and i'm dreading waking up in the morning. I don't know how i'm going to feel each morning is different.
I wanted a baby so bad and as soon as i got the littlest glimps it was over i don't know how i'm going to try again i was verging on wanting to give up before!
It's 2 years in April and with every month that passes i loose more hope.
What should I do? What will keep me going?

Anna x

 

[claire99991]

Hey babe im so sorry this has happend to you life is so cruel!! as time goes on i think you will regain your strength to carry on with your journey, Give yourself time hun i think u will know when the time is right to start again, i know i have only been trying coming up to my 10th cycle now and i feel guilty for whinging as i know lots of people including you have been trying so much longer but i do know how this emotional rollercoaster can get you down its awful, i have no been told by my doc that this journey for me is likely to continue for sumtime its going to be tough to get me a sticky bean and i ask myself if i have the strength to see it thru, the answer is i dont know at the min i will carry on. You have so many ppl on there that care about you they will help you with the strength you need to carry on. XXXXXX

(take time to grieve for your babies, lots of hugs for you xx)

 

[Tory123]

Hi Hun

I have not got the answers for you as can't imagine what you are going through. All I know from what I have read that in a number of different groups everyone thinks alot of you and you can be where ever feel you can get the most support.

 

[HAYS]

Hey lovely, im so very sorry for what you have been through. Life just isnt fair sometimes hun, but I promise you, you will be blessed with a baby. Hard to see that at the moment, but with the support of everyone around you, you will feel better
xxx

 

[aflight84]

Hey Girls,
Thanks for your messages.
It is so strange the way i'm feeling right now, when i came out of hospital and saw all the messages on here i'd never felt so lonely yet so loved in all my life.
x x x

 

[maz]

Hi hun

I am soooo sorry for your losses. I too lost a baby very early on, but obviously our circumstances are very different, so on the one hand I know something of how you feel, but on the other, I have no idea of what you're going through, or what the future holds for you.

What I do know, is that it does get easier as the days go by, and you will know when the time is right to start trying again. As for where you belong, you belong with the people that love you - your family, your DH - and your friends on bnb will be here when you need them too.

I hope you start to heal soon - take the time you need, and don't rush it. You will never forget your little babies, but you will start to come to terms with them not being here.

Good luck and for you and your DH...

 

[x_Rainbow_x]

hunni you belong here with us, youl never be lost with us in here..
At the moment the time will drag and youl feel so bad, but in time it does start to ease. with the love of your hubby and the friendship of great people.
It took me ages 2 get over it but with time and help i got there

we love u anna
xxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Bexy]

Hi Anna,

I can only repeat all the lovely messages above and say that you belong wherever you want to be!!!

Life is v.v.cruel and the people that are most deserving get overlooked with the intervention of horrible fate!

Its like others said, you need to take time to heal and get stronger at your own pace - then you will know what route to take

Take care of yourself and you are in my thoughts luvvy

xxx

 

[Puddleduck]

Hey Anna,

Just wanted to repeat what the other girls have said really. Time is a great healer but you will never forget your little ones. Take time out to grieve and take it one day at a time. TTC can be very lonely, I know I have days where I do feel so alone and nothing anyone can say can make me feel any better. It does however give you the strength to carry on knowing you have such a big support group here on B&B.


Sending you big take care xxx

 

[Rumpskin]

I know exactly how you feel lovely. I do promise that time does help you in moving forward with your life.

I conceived in November 2007 and miscarriaged in January 2008. I then went on to conceive in August 2008 and again miscarriaged in November 2008. It took me 3 months with both to come to terms with my losses and to get myself back on track and think, this is not going stop me getting my dream. It is the most heartbreaking thing to go through and you never ever forget what could have been.

You will regain the strength and hopefully, fulfill your dream too xxxx

 

[MommySierra]

Hi there,
All the words that have been said are beautiful and made me tear...TTC IS very lonely and I have found on here comfort that I have not been able to find anywhere else...Everyone is understanding and non judgmental
I lost a little angel, 5 years ago, it was really early on and even then it was hard, but time passed and 3 1/2 years later I stop trying to figure out why it happened and decided that I would try again.
No one can really understand the pain one goes through...the sluggish numbing feeling of whats going on around you...that feeling like your standing inside a glass jar screaming your lungs out and no one even hears you because you think they wouldn't understand...It will pass, I know it seems hard to think it will but it does pass and you will be back on your feet soon...Know they are protecting you and watching out for you
There is a plan for you, a great plan and you will have a baby in your arms soon
((HUGGSSS))

 

[MrsF]

Hi Hun,
I'm so sorry for your loss x x x give yourself time sweetheart and allow yourself to be x x x my thoughts are with you x x x

 

[BigFoot1980]

Hello,
I am really sorry about what happened. I cannot even begin to understand what your going through. Will remember you in my prayers.

 

[Emerald-Sarah]

Anna - I too can only reiterate what all the other girls have said to you.
Take your time and Grieve for your babies .. Its a cliche but time really is a great healer.
Its been four years in May since we lost our little one and the pain has almost gone but my love for my little bean hasn't.
Take strengh from the ones that love you and dont give up hope.

Sending you

Sarah xxx

 

[WW1]

Hi. I just wanted to say my thoughts are with you xx

 

[miel]

thinking of you sweetie

 

[hopeful4baby]

Please don't worry. there's more of us than you think and if it feels like you don't belong anywhere else, you do belong with us! I know how devastating and crushing this is. From the moment you find out, it's our "real baby". It's a promise which has been cruelly taken away from you. And we are forever left wondering what it would have been like. At the moment it feels like nothing will ever be ok again, that the pain will never go away.
But just like all the other girls said. Take it step by step, moment by moment, day by day. The pain will ease and it will all look brighter again and you regain the strenght to try again.