srm0421
Mom & PG
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Ok so I have been having a really hard time this pregnancy with not feeling guilty, I posted in my journal but my very kind very positive friends say I should just disassociate the two pregnancies and let go of some of my grief. It has been so hard dealing with my guilt. If I am happy about this pg I feel guilty for "betraying" Gage, if I am not happy about being pg I feel guilty for betraying this baby. Around and around it goes. I am also deathly afraid to hope and find out I will lose this child too. I have been crying more and more missing Gage and asking why. I thought I would feel better with time but I am facing a wave of pain lately and don't know how to feel or how to not feel. I find out the sex this friday but I am scared to know that too. I just can't wait. Sorry for rambling just stressed out.