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Discussion in 'Miscarriage Support' started by JASMAK, Oct 15, 2008.

  1. JASMAK

    JASMAK Mom of three

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    I don't know if very many people here know my story, so I will recap. I have been blessed with two children, which are my absolute life. I think struggling to get pregnant/stay pregnant has really made me look at both of them each and everyday and realize just how grateful I am, and how special they are (they both were difficult to conceive as I have low prgesterone). However, I have been struggling to conceive baby #3 for almost two years. I have lost three now, in a row. This last one was conceived with Clomid, and I was taking Prometrium to try and prevent a m/c. I prayed hard everyday, and switched to an all-organic diabetic diet. I feel that I am doing absolutely everything that I can do. But, I m/c despite all this. Of course, I am devestated that I lost the baby, espesially since I got it all in my head that this one was a keeper because of the fancy drugs. But, now, I am getting this horrible thought in my head. It is a thought that creeps up, and makes my heart hurt so bad, that I push it back down and away. What if I can't have my baby? What if I have to say good-bye to my dream forever? I see the DR again next Tuesday, but, what if....:cry:
     
  2. littlestar

    littlestar Proud Mum to a Little Boy

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    I don't know what i can say to make it all better so i send you a BIG :hug: and some :dust:

    Extra :hug:
     
  3. tillymum

    tillymum New mom

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    I hate the 'what if' thought it's never too far from the surface with me either. I hope your tests turn out ok and little Jasmak will be with you soon xxx
     
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    tillymum New mom

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  5. chrissie33

    chrissie33 Mummy to two monkeys

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    I know what you mean honey, I have the same and do my best to push it from my head.... wine always seems to let it loose though so I now avoid that too....... ;) fingers crossed for us all xxx
     
  6. moomoo

    moomoo Mumma to 2 & 1 in heaven!

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    :hugs:You will get your :bfp: and it will be a sticky bean. Then when you have your baby and it will be more perfect than you could ever know. It will happen :hugs:
     
  7. 1st_baby

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    I hope all goes well for you hun xxx
     
  8. JJF

    JJF Finished at 3

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    I've been feelilng the same way lately, been feeling like maybe its not God's plan for me to have a 3rd. I know that will be devastating for me when I finally do decide to stop trying and just enjoy life with my two little ones. We are all strong women and after the horrible few weeks and then the awful months that it will still hit us occasionally and then after that, I guess it will fade but like you, my last MC was my 3rd, been nearly 4 months and I'm still VERY devastated by it :( I'm thinking we both need to stay positive unless the time comes to approach it all differently and then cross that bridge when it gets here. I'm really pulling for us both!
     
  9. sarah_george

    sarah_george ♥Proud Mummy!♥

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    I also had 2 healthy children and struggled to concieve no 3, i went to the doctors after my 2nd miscarriage and all he said was to wait a little longer next time, when i suggested could he not test for infections or Problems in mine or my partners fertility he said that it was highly unlikely (as i have had children before) to be anything at all and to just try again with a longer gap in between, so far i made it to nearly 14 weeks and i have no idea why this baby has stuck and the other 2 before it didnt, one of those crazy things that would drive me mad if I thought about it too much! I have a friend with 3 teenage children and i only found out recently that she had to suffer a total of 9 miscarriages on her journey to get her 3 healthy children, its harsh and you dont always get answers as to why it happens, it can be soooo frustrating but dont give up, you will get there in the end xxx
     
  10. JASMAK

    JASMAK Mom of three

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    I am glad that you are now pregnant. That is great! I have low progesterone and unexplained infertility. I take Clomid to even get pregnant. I wish mine was the space between. It has been almost 4 years since I last had a full-term pregnancy, and between my first and second m/c it was 4mths, and the second and third, 10mths. 23mths in total TTC (it took me awhile to get pregnant with for my first m/c). I feel like time is fast passing, as I am well into my 30's now. I see my specialist tomorrow for more answers.
     
  11. Boudica

    Boudica Well-Known Member

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    Thinking of you. Hope the meeting goes well with the specialist :hug:
     
  12. moomoo

    moomoo Mumma to 2 & 1 in heaven!

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    Let us know how you get on, thinking of you xx:hug:
     
  13. sarah_george

    sarah_george ♥Proud Mummy!♥

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    Sorry i didnt realise, i'm just turning 31 and i know what you mean about age, i was panicing more this time about it as my last child was born 4 years ago like you and the one before 10 years ago! hopefully i will have given somebody reading this some hope and I wish you all the best at the specialists let us all know how you go, Good luck xxx
     

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