I don't have a baby yet, but I can definitely relate to waiting because of schooling. I'm getting my Master's in Social Work and will be done with the on-campus part of it in May 2015. (I have a few online classes after that and will be done-done in August 2015.) Right now, we want to wait until August 2014 to try so the earliest I would have the baby would be May when I'm done with the on-campus part. There is a girl in my program who is pregnant and due in February. The university is giving her special permission to take next semester online because of this. Of course, this has the wheels turning in my head!!
I know August is only a few months away, but I want to be pregnant so badly. I just can't help having this feeling that our family is so incomplete. I know that DH will be a wonderful dad and that if it came down to it, we could make everything work. That's what being a family is all about, right? My nephews are 4 and 11 months and I want them to have a little cousin. Our grandparents are sadly dying off as well, so that gets the wheels turning to "create a new generation" as well. We bought a house a few months ago, too, so that also makes it just seem right to have a baby.
As I'm writing this, I realize that I'm probably sounding whiney because really, August isn't that far off. I guess I kind of have a fear that we will get to that point and DH will want to wait longer. I really hope that doesn't happen. I feel like we've waited long enough! We're 28 and want 3 kids. I know in this day and age, it's nothing to have children when you're in your late 30s or early 40s, but after 35, the risks for problems increase. Also, what if we can't get pregnant right away??
I kind of wish we could just "let go and let God," but I also realize that God gave us judgment and a "head on our shoulders."
It's just a lot to think about. I'm really glad that you shared this. I guess I had a lot to get off of my chest. Bottom line, I get it! Waiting is really, really hard! I know for myself, I just have to keep reminding myself that we're waiting for the best interest of our family and that it WILL pay off in the end! I know that still doesn't make it easy, though!