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Georgie90
Guest
Well…I know this is 4 days late but…
4th January 2010…The New Year…A Fresh Start for Me. I am determined to have a Happier New Year this Year…I hope that some people will follow me and try to give me some help along the way..because boy I feel like I’m going to need it…
This Journal is going to follow my Money Saving, Weight Loss and Depression…I am really scared I will turn you all against me as I have never told anyone on (apart from Sophie1205) the full truth about me and my life…and I’m scared everyone will hate me!
Anyway…Here Goes…
Some History
Eating Habits
2005 – Was 15 years old when my eating disorder started, was with my first serious boyfriend and I thought that I was in ‘love’ we were together for 16 months when he got with this 13 year old at a party (slept with her) his brother filmed them and sent me the picture to my phone, we carried on seeing each other and he was pressurising me to sleep with him, or he would go elsewhere for sex. (I didn’t) Alongside this my parents were arguing which was worrying me as my Dad is a Gambler and had got debts of £32,000 and me and my sister overheard that we were going to lose our house…They later told us they were getting a divorce in November 2005. Which worried me as my Dad was going to be alone…
2006 – Went to Disneyland PARIS with the School, where my OH came…he was already my best friend and we were in rooms next door to each other, even though I was still with my other boyfriend I forgot all about him while I was away…current OH text me the first night we were there saying I have feeling for you and I think I love you…and it all went from there really…I ‘dumped’ my boyfriend when we got back and that’s where everything got ugly…bear in mind I already wasn’t eating at this point so had lost 2 stone in 3 months…to this day I never forget the things my ex called me…and they are the things I’m most insecure about today.. My Nose, My Toes (they are webbed) and the size of me..at this point I started making myself sick and by the time my end of school prom was on in May 06 I had lost 4 ½ stone..and was being sick 3-4 times a day and eating a yoghurt and an apple at the most..
In May was when my Eating Disorder came to head and my current OH dragged me out of the black whole I was in (only way I can describe it) and made me eat and get healthy and I can honestly say 2007 was my greatest year…I was varying between 9 - 9.7 stone and was happy.
General Life
March 2007 - My Mum and Dad went through a messy divorce and we moved out …the worst day of my life was the day my dad left...and I’m not ready to re-live it yet…
We moved into a smaller house and dad stayed with his parents till he got a flat…he met somebody else and so did my mum and they couldn’t be happier…everything was perfect.
2008 – 2009 have been the worst years of my life, I suffered several losses, which I’m not happy to talk about yet and was diagnosed with Depression, throughout this time I have regular counselling but refuse to go on anti-depressants – I have never been so down as I was at the end of 2009…I felt everything was against me…which I have described in great detail in the GS.
Money
My aim is to save £3000 in 2010.
Where I am Now…
Eating
I am at my heaviest weight of 10 stone 10lbs….My aim is to get to 10 stone and then see where we go from there, ideally I want to get to 9 stone, but I need to take baby steps to make sure I don’t overdo everything..
General Happiness
This morning I woke and feel like I have turned a page…I am tired as was up on the phone to OH until 3.30am and had to go to work at 6..but I’m determined to be Happy this year, I have worked things out with OH (ill start a thread in a min) and I’m determined
Money
I owe £0 and have £170 until January 27th…plan to save £200-£250 a month.
If you managed to get this far then Thank You..and Here Goes!
Up from Here!
Georgie
xxxx
4th January 2010…The New Year…A Fresh Start for Me. I am determined to have a Happier New Year this Year…I hope that some people will follow me and try to give me some help along the way..because boy I feel like I’m going to need it…
This Journal is going to follow my Money Saving, Weight Loss and Depression…I am really scared I will turn you all against me as I have never told anyone on (apart from Sophie1205) the full truth about me and my life…and I’m scared everyone will hate me!
Anyway…Here Goes…
Some History
Eating Habits
2005 – Was 15 years old when my eating disorder started, was with my first serious boyfriend and I thought that I was in ‘love’ we were together for 16 months when he got with this 13 year old at a party (slept with her) his brother filmed them and sent me the picture to my phone, we carried on seeing each other and he was pressurising me to sleep with him, or he would go elsewhere for sex. (I didn’t) Alongside this my parents were arguing which was worrying me as my Dad is a Gambler and had got debts of £32,000 and me and my sister overheard that we were going to lose our house…They later told us they were getting a divorce in November 2005. Which worried me as my Dad was going to be alone…
2006 – Went to Disneyland PARIS with the School, where my OH came…he was already my best friend and we were in rooms next door to each other, even though I was still with my other boyfriend I forgot all about him while I was away…current OH text me the first night we were there saying I have feeling for you and I think I love you…and it all went from there really…I ‘dumped’ my boyfriend when we got back and that’s where everything got ugly…bear in mind I already wasn’t eating at this point so had lost 2 stone in 3 months…to this day I never forget the things my ex called me…and they are the things I’m most insecure about today.. My Nose, My Toes (they are webbed) and the size of me..at this point I started making myself sick and by the time my end of school prom was on in May 06 I had lost 4 ½ stone..and was being sick 3-4 times a day and eating a yoghurt and an apple at the most..
In May was when my Eating Disorder came to head and my current OH dragged me out of the black whole I was in (only way I can describe it) and made me eat and get healthy and I can honestly say 2007 was my greatest year…I was varying between 9 - 9.7 stone and was happy.
General Life
March 2007 - My Mum and Dad went through a messy divorce and we moved out …the worst day of my life was the day my dad left...and I’m not ready to re-live it yet…
We moved into a smaller house and dad stayed with his parents till he got a flat…he met somebody else and so did my mum and they couldn’t be happier…everything was perfect.
2008 – 2009 have been the worst years of my life, I suffered several losses, which I’m not happy to talk about yet and was diagnosed with Depression, throughout this time I have regular counselling but refuse to go on anti-depressants – I have never been so down as I was at the end of 2009…I felt everything was against me…which I have described in great detail in the GS.
Money
My aim is to save £3000 in 2010.
Where I am Now…
Eating
I am at my heaviest weight of 10 stone 10lbs….My aim is to get to 10 stone and then see where we go from there, ideally I want to get to 9 stone, but I need to take baby steps to make sure I don’t overdo everything..
General Happiness
This morning I woke and feel like I have turned a page…I am tired as was up on the phone to OH until 3.30am and had to go to work at 6..but I’m determined to be Happy this year, I have worked things out with OH (ill start a thread in a min) and I’m determined
Money
I owe £0 and have £170 until January 27th…plan to save £200-£250 a month.
If you managed to get this far then Thank You..and Here Goes!
Up from Here!
Georgie
xxxx