Well i am sorry i didn't write much yesterday, but i couldn't say much else from being so upset.
I went to the hospital, I sat and waited for ages, then i saw a nurse who took details and blood pressure, Then i saw another nurse who went through it again.
Then i went in for my scan. She couldn't find anything it was completly gone, then she did an internal scan and still couldn't find anything.
We went out to wait again to see the nurse again. Who said can you do a wee in this pot, well no i had just been to empty for the internal scan.
All i wanted to do was to get out and go home, I was surrounded by pregnant women that just made me feel worse.
Well i forced some wee out, she said she can't see me again until i wee in the pot. So i had too or i would have walked out and gone home. I just wanted to cry. i said to my mum don't say a word or i would have cried and i didn't want that.
Well we went in she said sorry you have had a miscarage. The wee was for a preg test and it was negative.
She said the bleeding won't get any heavier and there should be no more clots, I only had small ones but that must have been baby.
Well i was convinced i had a miscarage, then i was trying to stay positive. My worst fears were confirmed.
Sorry if i am not making sence but i can't stop crying.
Well thats what happened and why it was so hard for me to deal with, I didn't talk to anyone for 2 hours after i found out, and after that i only muttered to them, I just couldn't i would have ended up crying.
So my baby is gone, i miscaried, i just want to curl up and cry
Luv Cheryl xxx
I went to the hospital, I sat and waited for ages, then i saw a nurse who took details and blood pressure, Then i saw another nurse who went through it again.
Then i went in for my scan. She couldn't find anything it was completly gone, then she did an internal scan and still couldn't find anything.
We went out to wait again to see the nurse again. Who said can you do a wee in this pot, well no i had just been to empty for the internal scan.
All i wanted to do was to get out and go home, I was surrounded by pregnant women that just made me feel worse.
Well i forced some wee out, she said she can't see me again until i wee in the pot. So i had too or i would have walked out and gone home. I just wanted to cry. i said to my mum don't say a word or i would have cried and i didn't want that.
Well we went in she said sorry you have had a miscarage. The wee was for a preg test and it was negative.
She said the bleeding won't get any heavier and there should be no more clots, I only had small ones but that must have been baby.
Well i was convinced i had a miscarage, then i was trying to stay positive. My worst fears were confirmed.
Sorry if i am not making sence but i can't stop crying.
Well thats what happened and why it was so hard for me to deal with, I didn't talk to anyone for 2 hours after i found out, and after that i only muttered to them, I just couldn't i would have ended up crying.
So my baby is gone, i miscaried, i just want to curl up and cry
Luv Cheryl xxx
