Hoping4aBoy
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A cultural fixation on female thinness is not an obsession about female beauty but an obsession about female obedience.
― Naomi Wolf
So lets just lay it out on the preverbal table shall we? I have found (in the space between emotional distress, self-destructive behavior, intellectual pit falling, and fear) at least 15 pounds . Which being that I was a fat child who overcame bad genetics and a horribly unhealthy lifestyle to lose a great deal of weight to now see the fat childs once avoided future now looking back at me in the mirror . Good god I cant believe what I am seeing.
I blame several things, not enough self-determination, not enough self-love, and too much emotional upheaval. Outside of the quest for baby, my husband and I have both had changes in career (which turned out for the best but when you are muddling through it ..), I have gone through some family drama, and the normal life setbacks and challenges. Add some infertility and the financial strain that can cause and well, my ass is much bigger than it used to be.
My Husband falls under two different personalities. The nice guy: this one loves me unconditionally. He loves my curves and doesnt gym talk at me. Nor does he question my eating habits. The a#@hole: Watches what I order, gym talks to me, suggests better habits.
*Gym talk- You go to the gym today? You should go before work, you will get use to getting up early. You need to left more weights.
When we first met I was a little less than what I currently weigh, which is 148lbs. I lost down to 123 ish during the time between proposal and wedding. After the wedding in 09 I steadily gained a little bit. I got to about 135 and leveled off because I think that is about my natural weight. (Im 53 and ½ and I have a small build.)
When I am determined and focused, I can achieve anything. When I am heartsick and emotional, I tend to eat my feelings. Which is what I have been doing for about 3 years now, add some over indulgence in wine and presto I jiggle.
I am starting an actual DIET today. Not a life style change, a diet. Life style change can come later. I am going to attempt to replicate what I did before the wedding.
I was just wondering if anyone else is in this situation???
― Naomi Wolf
So lets just lay it out on the preverbal table shall we? I have found (in the space between emotional distress, self-destructive behavior, intellectual pit falling, and fear) at least 15 pounds . Which being that I was a fat child who overcame bad genetics and a horribly unhealthy lifestyle to lose a great deal of weight to now see the fat childs once avoided future now looking back at me in the mirror . Good god I cant believe what I am seeing.
I blame several things, not enough self-determination, not enough self-love, and too much emotional upheaval. Outside of the quest for baby, my husband and I have both had changes in career (which turned out for the best but when you are muddling through it ..), I have gone through some family drama, and the normal life setbacks and challenges. Add some infertility and the financial strain that can cause and well, my ass is much bigger than it used to be.
My Husband falls under two different personalities. The nice guy: this one loves me unconditionally. He loves my curves and doesnt gym talk at me. Nor does he question my eating habits. The a#@hole: Watches what I order, gym talks to me, suggests better habits.
*Gym talk- You go to the gym today? You should go before work, you will get use to getting up early. You need to left more weights.
When we first met I was a little less than what I currently weigh, which is 148lbs. I lost down to 123 ish during the time between proposal and wedding. After the wedding in 09 I steadily gained a little bit. I got to about 135 and leveled off because I think that is about my natural weight. (Im 53 and ½ and I have a small build.)
When I am determined and focused, I can achieve anything. When I am heartsick and emotional, I tend to eat my feelings. Which is what I have been doing for about 3 years now, add some over indulgence in wine and presto I jiggle.
I am starting an actual DIET today. Not a life style change, a diet. Life style change can come later. I am going to attempt to replicate what I did before the wedding.
I was just wondering if anyone else is in this situation???