oh gurrrrrrrrl I feel for ya! I call it "the hormone dump". It's the time after birth, after the placenta detaches, where hormones are just PUMPED through you. I hold things together pretty well whrn pregnant; I have occasions of getting irrationally upset but i can easily identify it as being silly. The post baby hormone dump is an entirely different animal. It's a flood of emotions made ever more complicated by sleep deprivation and the demands of a newborn. I've experienced it every pregnancy. My first was the worst...though with 2&3 my rage was directed at no one in particular, well maybe hubby as i envied his freedom to sleep and continue to go to work...with 1 i was taking it out on baby. Of course never physically but i would get so frustrated when he woke up frequently at night, or didn't want to sleep. I would threw bottles at the wall when he was inconsolably crying and refusing the milk. At one point i was so frustrated i punched a (small) hole in the wall. I shed a lot of tears. I swore off any more kids! I remember a couple of occasions, rocking a crying baby, where hubby came in and I sternly declared, through streaming tears, "we are NOT doing this again."
funny in retrospect and two more kids later lol, but it was brutal at the time! It took me about 3 years to come around to the idea of a second and a few more months to start trying (and a few more to conceive; hence a 5 year age gap between 1&2). Things were infinitely easier the second time around.
I can't really remember when there was a shift in things and they became easier. The first few weeks are definitely the hardest. Once baby starts to establish something of a routine, it gets easier. I do know that one of my good friends and I used to have texting conversations in the middle of the night bitching about how easy it is to be a father while we had babies attached to us and they slept peacefully beside us lol. That was around week 10-14 or so.
I guess for me it's hardest in the beginning, but the episodes of being really defeated space out as the weeks go on.
All that said...if you're really just feeling emotionally crushed don't rule out ppd and don't hesitate to ask your ob for some outlets to help with it. I also suggest looking up any local baby group meet ups so you can commiserate with other new moms.
Hopefully at least something i've said is helpful! Just remember you are in the worst of it now. It will get better
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I hate pads so much unless I have a really heavy bleed. no matter how many times I change during the day they still suck. I'm not even bleeding that much either, it's less than a light period. 
