Don't give up just yet.
I have been testing since 4dpo lol, not intentionally, but I though I O'd a few days earlier than FF. Now I'm 13dpo...Now that it's just after midnight - and AF never showed yesterday Yay
I have JUST started seeing extremely faint lines on my hpts.
I've been at this just shy of a year, and sure I def get down every month and think it will never work and F it!
but it passes. You just have to focus on how much sweeter it will be when you are holding a baby, and all this seems so very worth it.
I had a cp last month, and DEF wanted to be done, but at nearly 42, I don't have time for tantrums and sitting on the sidelines until my ego feels ready again hehe.
Just take it one day at a time, one cycle at a time, and give all you can at that moment, on that day. Take it easy on yourself.
I def have no way of knowing if this will be another cp/loss, but for today...I saw the teensiest bit of pink, and I smiled and totally forgot how long I've been trying.
It's hard...but nothing about being a mom is easy in the end