Well ladies, thanks for all your thoughts and baby dust. For 8 hours I basked in the warm glow of the BFP, and then unfortunately the worst happened. I would much rather have seen AF a week ago than to be going through what I am now. But, I know now that my ex was the problem not me, I know my fiance is more than capable of doing the job (first try, seriously!) so I will be back again. I think I am gonna take a month or two off to get emotionally healthy before we try again. I hope you all get your BFP's soon and the beans are so sticky you have to pry them out of you when the timer goes off.