1st m/c January, 2nd m/c May, still trying for 3rd BFP

[bazzb]

Thx
I wonder if I should temp again of just wait out the next two weeks

 

[xoxo4angel]

Temp!! Just kidding, temp if you want to and it doesn't cause you any stress

 

[bazzb]

Ok let's see what tomorrows is
If I get my cross hairs il stop

 

[A1983]

It's hard isn't it! Ideally id say don't temp as it's stressful in itself in MY opinion and you and your body need stress free times now. Your body is showing you it's doing its job and id personally leave your body to it-it knows what's its doing but needs you to relax Now I can't say I wouldn't be sticking a themometer in my mouth or looking for cm changes ha ha but if I needed advice I know to keep chilled and distracted by enjoying the next two weeks would be my saviour. Afterall you either want af orca bfp...and stress could potentially prolong this cycle which you don't want-you've had enough you poor sausage! (Although I doubt anything will be delayed as ov always leads to af or if pregnant a bfp). Sorry if this sounds like a rant it HONSETLY isnt Im very tired and stressed myself-coughinh non-stop, having to take medications that im crying over as hate the thought of any harm coming to my baby by ME let alone anyone else. And family issues-my mother. Worst supportive woman in this world, she is manipulative, selfish and quite honestly toxic and doing me or the rest of my family no favours. Gosh can you tell im sleep deprived?! Sorry for rant xx

 

[A1983]

Excuse typos x

 

[bazzb]

You can rant anytime hunny xxx
I have mom issues also since hubby admitted his oproblem in jan she pretty much told me me not to try and get pregnant right now. So not sure when id te her if it happened

Anytime you need to rant just go for it, that's what we r here for!

Ok so I did temp and I got my cross hairs so I am officially 3 dpo

 

[A1983]

That's brilliant Bazz so happy for you! What does your oh say about it?

Ohh interfering mothers are my bain atm! To make a long story short she is basically treating this baby as her own-she calls him m&m despite me calling him bubs, and even bought a pack of m&m's to put in my baby box. She is currently not speaking to me because I did not let her come to any of my scans-this is my first baby and each scan is the first time I see him bigger/changing-its something personal for me and my OH. She didn't even contact me on my birthday on Friday. She says im shutting her out and as a little girl ive always said id want her at the birth-well things change as you get older and she doesn't realise that...somehow! I don't know if I want her at the birth yet! Her only contact to me was yesterday to say how something very sad is happening to her...fearing the worst I read on... (text msg) only to discover she was referring to not being able to move on since my loss last year and how the 'horror and visualisation' still haunts her. HER??! I'm learning that my mum has very poor coping skills-my loss last year was made so much more incredibly painful due to her reaction.

We basically were temporarily living with her as had just come back from travelling-on learning about the loss she made the whole thing about her (she believed in God and focused immediately on how there must not be a God to let this happen. She did not talk about how I was feeling and I found myself consoling her about her religion! She even invited 2 church friends round for a debate 3 hours after my news-it was so absurd you could have gotten away with thinking you were dreaming...we rowed, I broke my heart as I needed my mum but she wasn't 'there', I was trapped in her house and had no where to go, so was subjected to this and more. She screamed constantly at my OH for no reason. It was madness. The next day I had to go to hospital to discuss my 'options'...I begged her to support me and she turned around and said 'come on, don't you think you need to move on fron this now'...I was so hurt, my OH was fuming. We basically moved our things into storage and slept on a friends floor knowing I could miscarry at any moment...and all this time I felt I didn't have time to grieve for my baby as I was dealing with 'life'. The day before my operation we moved into our home-all fake smiles to greet our new neighbours. The night before my operation I sobbed-eventhough my pregnancy was a blighted ovum I didn't want to let go of my baby and it's 'home'...My heart broke more than I could imagine after the operation and this baby growing inside me heals my wounds more every passing day x YET my mother can't contact me because she needs to grieve for 'her loss'...it's absolutely crazy. I think that's why I didn't want her to have too much involvement with this pregnancy, ive lost trust plus im protecting my baby from her as I couldn't protect my last baby-I endured so much pain whilst pregnant due to her. We've only been speaking since October time.

Anyway sorry for the long story, couldn't stop typing once I started!

Cough worse than ever grrrrr, chest so sore-off to drs on Tuesday x

 

[mannymoo]

Ahh A1983 - sending you a big hug. Hope things get better for you soon. Sounds to me like your mum is feeling a bit left out at the moment and as a result she is acting really unreasonably. Maybe you two need to have a bit of a chat and explain to her that you need this time to bond with your baby and that you only want you and DH there when baby is born. Its not unreasonable to want that. Maybe you can do something like get a little "I love Granny" one-sie or something to make her feel a bit more apart of it while keeping distance. My mom lives 6 hours away and lucky for me, she has been very understanding of our wants and needs for when baby arrives. But we had to be very honest and say that we only want visitors when DH goes back to work. She is driving me a bit mad with suggested names though! Hope it gets better soon and hope you had a lovely birthday last week. Sorry - I didn't realise other would have wished you on the day!

Bazz - hooray for cross hair! I think you should ditch the thermometer for the next 10 days. My temps always stayed up until after AF arrived so temping after Ov for me was always a bit of a disappointment anyway. But I am thrilled that you are officially in the 2WW and can't wait to hear what happens when testing time comes around!

Angel - hi! Hope you're doing good!

FMS - not much to report. Got a scan tomorrow and unfortunately DH is in Singapore for the week so I have to go alone. But he is back on Thursday for our 4D scan which I'm really excited about.

Hope you ladies have a lovely week. xx

 

[xoxo4angel]

1983 ~ Rant away here doll! I'm sorry you are having a tough time with your mother. And I know everything is made worse by your cough. Fx'd on Tuesday they knock that chest cold out of your system!

Manny ~ Yay for scans this week...boo that your DH has to miss one.

Bazz ~ Yay crosshairs!

Mrs ~

ATM I cannot sleep...woke at 4a to pee and have been up the past 2 hours...I need to put this away and try to get some sleep!

Happy Monday!

 

[bazzb]

83 sorry love just reading your post now. I am do sorry you are having a terrible time with your mom. Rant anytime that's why we r here xx

Manny! Yay for scans especially the 4D one

Angel I'm sorry your not sleeping well! Maybe in nesting mode?

Mrs xxx how r u lady

Afm- temp is up even higher today, each day it keeps climbing do at hubby's request I'm going to stick it in the drawer till af comes. Yay for 4 dpo

 

[bazzb]

Yay for 17 weeks angel!!!!!

 

[A1983]

Thanks ladies Off home in a bit from Paris-can't wait!! :-/

Ahh Bazz im sooo happy for you-im genuinely smiling just for you (can't be any other reason atm ha ha!)

Goodluck with Scan Manny-shame hubby can't be there, just another special moment between mummy and baby ♥ Enjoy x I find my kicks-especially night time ones is such a special moment between me and baby! I often get a big kick if Im sad for a moment-his way of saying 'oi mummy it's ok, im here!' LOVE him... (gosh I owe baby an awful lot of apologies if its a girl ha ha!)

Angel I often wake at 3/4 and struggle to get back to sleep-my advice is if after 15 mins you're still awake go and make a nice drink like milk and go back to bed thinking of nice thoughts I try to make mine not baby related as that keeps me awake with excitement and anticipation!

Xx

 

[bazzb]

Thanks 83!!!

And Paris that's brilliant

 

[mannymoo]

Bazz - AF not going to come - PMA!!! But great that temp keeps going up. If you take your temp every day but dont actually chart it on FF, its not really considered temping. You could just do that!

Angel - I haven't slept properly in months. I think our bodies are trying to adjust us to when LO comes.

LOL 1983 - I keep calling mine a boy too. Poor little thing if it is a girls

Mrs how are you?

 

[bazzb]

Lol nice idea manny!!

 

[bazzb]

I updated my ticker

 

[A1983]

Drs put me on amoxicillin for a chest infection, my temp was 37.7 so need to take regular paracetamol to bring it down as temp bad for baby x

 

[bazzb]

Oh no!!!

I hope it works quickly
Big hugs to u xxxxx

 

[mannymoo]

Oh no 1983. Sounds horrible. Hope you're in bed keeping warm. Sounds like the weather there is terrible at the moment too. Feel better soon!!

Bazz how are you feeling? I know its only 5dpo but any weird things going on there?

Had a scan this morning and all looking good. Baby was measuring a week and a bit behind at last scan but at todays scan was measuring a couple of days ahead so feeling a lot more relaxed. Also had my next steroids shot so wanting to eat like a horse right now! But all good!

 

[bazzb]

Glad scan went great!! Any pics??

No symptoms really at all
My ears did just start burning lol but