Kat541
New Mom 9/5/12
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I had an intake appointment with my provider today. I had previously lied to them and said I didn't know how far along I was so they would do a dating scan.
After you've had a miscarriage, you just worry, ya know?
They had a cancellation for an ultrasound that was for this afternoon, so I was able to get one in today. If the scan shows no baby in the sac again, I will be very upset, but at least I will know before 12 weeks; before I almost die again.
It's such a weird moment right now. I'm excited, but worried. I want deep down to believe I will see a little gummy bear in there, but part of me won't let me get my hopes up. That kinda sucks. I'm bringing DH. I'm pretty sure I'm going to cry if/when I see my baby for the first time. Reality will set in at that moment. I've felt too afraid to get attached to the pregnancy. Seeing a baby will let me feel free accept I'm pregnant with a living, human being.
*deep breaath*
Wow!
After you've had a miscarriage, you just worry, ya know?
They had a cancellation for an ultrasound that was for this afternoon, so I was able to get one in today. If the scan shows no baby in the sac again, I will be very upset, but at least I will know before 12 weeks; before I almost die again.
It's such a weird moment right now. I'm excited, but worried. I want deep down to believe I will see a little gummy bear in there, but part of me won't let me get my hopes up. That kinda sucks. I'm bringing DH. I'm pretty sure I'm going to cry if/when I see my baby for the first time. Reality will set in at that moment. I've felt too afraid to get attached to the pregnancy. Seeing a baby will let me feel free accept I'm pregnant with a living, human being.
*deep breaath*
Wow!