this is the worst day of my life!
On monday I was feeling very down and just could not mask it. I told my son that mummy had a boo-boo and felt sick. That was all he needed, he got it and he wasn't too concerned with me. I know you feel you need to be strong for them but it is okay for them to know you just aren't feeling well. I know what its like to want to be supermom all the time but sometimes it really is important to take a few moments for yourself 
Started bleeding the doctor sent me to the ER to make sure I lose the baby all the way
Not sure if you've heard this one but it was recommended to me and I really think it's what did it. I used to always O during bd several times before dh and apparently it is actually best if you don't. So I made sure not to during bd and then after 
was there and we were done I had a few manual O's When you have an orgasm it is said that you have muscular contractions (if you've ever noticed the slight pulsing feeling) that pull the up into your cervix. Also bd in deep penetrating positions
So embarrassing I feel like a little kid. But hey if it can help anyone else conceive great!!
+hugs+ xxxx
I am not as distraught as last night but I havent "lost" it yet so I think it will start up again when that happens I just need the closure though. My husband and I aren't going to be sleeping in the same house tonight because of it. When i sat in the ER for 6 hours I was all by myself because my husband had to work and I understood that I was sad but we need the money to pay for the ER trip so he gets there just in time for the doctor to look us both in the eyes and say "I am so sorry for your loss" and he rubbed my arm as I broke down then when we got home he said "would you be mad if i went to my softball game" and I said "do whatever you want" then as he started to get ready I broke down and started crying again and begging for him to stay so he called his captain and he said he doesnt think they have someone to fill his spot but i explained that this is the last game and they have no chance of playoffs and people dont go all the time and i needed him here and then i started talking to my daughter next thing I know he is out the door and leaving still in shock of what he did and very hurt I really needed him last night I cried myself to sleep so he is staying the night and his parents house
to you and please let us know if you need anything.
and for those who arnt religous! I'm hoping ur all ok!
