2014 May Rainbows

Thanks Ladies. I needed that. Well, I crawled into bed mighty early last night (feel bad since we didn't end up having DD's birthday cake after all but we'll just have it today instead) and had a very odd dream. I dreamed I left my daughter (actually it was my real-life niece, but in my dream she was my daughter) at home during a wedding. I freaked out BIG TIME and even called up Oprah Winfrey once I realized I wasn't holding a child in my arms but a bundle of blankets. Oprah came to my rescue, drove me home (to a much nicer house than my current abode), and there we found my smiling happy, not-scared-at-all neice/daughter waking up from an all-day nap. So I'm hoping it's a good sign and my intuition is telling me it'll be okay. I thought I lost my baby in my dream, only in a different way, but I found her in the end. Ooh gosh, I'm hoping and praying SO hard right now...Feeling a touch better too as the crampy stuff is gone and I only have a backache that's most likely due to a strained muscle. No more brown discharge either so I'm a tad calmer now. Still scared and hope the dr gets me in for an u/s early Monday when I call. And yes, Florida, I can go to the ER (met my deductible already too so it shouldn't cost me anything to go... Always got to look at the bright side, right? :haha:) but I'm not in any acute pain and the bleeding is gone so I'm going to try and hold out til Monday. I went to bed last night thinking about this and I guess I'm a little concerned it could be another blighted ovum but my symptoms are constant now so my hormones have continued to rise and there's no more spotting for the moment so I'm feeling a tad better.
 
Fingers crossed for you!!

I had pink/ brown spotting Wednesday and a few spots of brown Friday. The nurse at my doctors office gave me two requisitions for hcg blood tests. Said if it rises all good. Otherwise we know what's coming. See the doctor Monday for results. Good luck with a scan! I found the nurse very reasurring in telling us that MANY women spot throughout perfectly normal pregnancies. (I know it's different when we've had previous losses, but there's hope) :)
 
Sunny-I know. I've spotted with nearly all of my pregnancies now. (In fact, DS was the ONLY one I haven't spotted with.) I'm just nervous because my blighted ovums (I've had 2 so far) started out this way. Did start thinking about it logically though once I calmed down and realized that while it was worrisome to see brown cm, not ALL of my cm was brown. Also, my hemmarhoids were bleeding yesterday so some of the discharge could have been from those too. (Sorry if that's TMI) There's so many reasons why I could have had that little bit of discharge and now that I can think logically, I'm better able to see that. I'm on progesterone which causes spotting, I have a history of hematomas in my first tri, I have some sort of clotting issue going on due to my mycoplasma, this could have just been left over blood from implantation (I am only 6+5 and ov'd late so I'm going to be measuring behind that when I do get in for an u/s), and on and on and on. It's just so easy to freak out when you have a history of recurrent miscarriage.

And honestly, it wouldn't surprise me if I do end up m/c this baby in the end. I was prepared for the possibility from Day 1 (well Day 29 when my baby was confirmed) because during the two weeks after ov, I was totally convinced I couldn't have gotten pregnant this month that I did some pretty strict cleansing, took some herbal supplements that are known to be harmful to pregnancy, and was under an enormous amount of emotional/mental stress. It just hurts because for the first time since my first pg, I was totally HAPPY and EXCITED about a pregnancy and now this has chased that feeling away...I was really expecting a 'normal' pregnancy for some odd reason and this is just a letdown. Does that make sense?
 
I understand completely. I was excited after my scan but a few days before that my symptoms seemed to lighten but I still saw a healthy baby. im just holding on to hope and prayer that's all you can do. After a loss the toll of wondering if this will work out can be a lot. if you don't mind dairy ill keep you in my prayers and hopefully all of us who are pal will hold a rainbow baby by may hugs and lots of love your way!
 
dairy - I am glad you're feeling better but I'm sorry that that joy and excitement has been taken away. I hope you can get a scan on Monday and that you will see a happy and healthy baby.

I've had spotting in all of my pregnancies so I am just waiting for it to start. I am hoping for a normal pregnancy but I know I can't count on that.

Sunny - good luck with your appointment on Monday. I hope the hcg has doubled beautifully
 
Hiya ladies can I join in please I'm due may 27 I had a mc in Aug im very nervous with this pregnancy :flower:
 
Thanks again ladies. Sometimes I feel like I'm grasping at straws but the more I think about it, the more I'm wondering if what I saw last night wasn't just old implantation blood. (Would it still be coming out 3-4 weeks after?)...And talk about a wake-up call, I just talked to my dad. My brother is being admitted to a children's hospital for a long-term IV antibiotic treatment because his lung infection has gotten worse again. (My bro has a genetic disease that affects the lungs so anything in there is seriously bad.) I know this hospital stay is for the best and it was a probability all along, that it's just happening a week earlier than planned but it's still a shock. Sounds like it's more of a precaution/prevention thing though and the doctor's are hopeful that these heavy duty antibiotics will do the trick (for awhile anyway). Talk about a wake-up call though...Makes my issues seem so minor compared to his. Mine are just with this one part of my life...His affect his WHOLE life and may even lead to an early end.

And thru it all, no matter how icky he feels, my little bro is STILL posting dumb knock-knock jokes and silly one-liners on Facebook...He's positively resilient.

I wish I could be more like him...
 
Baby is good and healthy :D 179bpm

:happydance::happydance: Congrats!!! That's so fantastic that your MiL was able to do that for. It seems you're on your way to your rainbow.

I was looking up some baby gear and items for DS' 'big boy room' online and it just made me all the more desperate to keep this baby. I feel like I probably was setting myself up for heart ache. :cry: The specialist I saw for m/c testing said I had just as good a chance as anyone to have a baby but after 2 losses in a row I'm still really scared. I think I'll start to feel a bit better if I make it to 7 weeks without any spotting. So far nothing.
 
Starry... Fingers crossed for you!! That's what our doctor told us. We've had one late loss (13w) and a chemical and apparently that doesn't affect our chances of carrying to term. But it's still so scary and hard to believe.

Hang in there!!

AFM no spotting since the minimal brown (3spots) Friday. Praying for good news regarding hcg blood tests tomorrow.
 
Darlin... awesome news congrats.

Fingers crossed starry and sunnyleah :)

I've got my scan Wednesday... at least the time is going by faster than I thought!!! :) I'm still very very nauseous so I'm taking that as a good sign.
 
Don't mean to bring anyone down but I'm 99% certain it's over for me. Not really surprised, just sad and hoping this goes easy and quick. Would like to get an ultrasound too see if this is another blighted ovum or not but if things go like my others have, it'll be done by mid-afternoon...*Sigh* Resigned is what I'm feeling mostly right now. I knew this was a probability due to some of meds I was taking when I got pregnant but I was hopeful and excited for the first time in a LONG time so I took that as a good sign. Perhaps it's a sign my next bean will be my sticky rainbow bean...

But good luck and a happy healthy nine months to the rest of you. I might check in from time to time to see how things are going for all of you other ladies.
 
oh dairymomma, I'm soo sorry for your loss... big hugs :hugs::hugs:
 
I am so very sorry dairymomma!!!! Hoping you get your sticky bean very soon!!!! Sending u a huge :hugs:
 
Dairymomma- so sorry. Pal and reoccurring loss is so stressful in so many ways. I'm certain that you will have your rainbow baby soon. Good luck with everything.

:hugs:
 
MORE insurance problems. They still won't give me my insurance until the mw sees me and gives me an edd and says how many fetuses. Wtf? How am I supposed to do that if they won't cover an u/s?
 

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