Hi ladies! I hope everyone is doing well!
Since I posted here last, I've been sort of a basket case. I sobbed for 45 minutes because I ordered salad for takeout, and when I got home realized they had gotten my order wrong.
I have managed to convince myself in turn that I have a short cervix, preterm labor, and that I'm leaking amniotic fluid. In my more rational moments, I realize NONE of these things are happening. But the internet is really my worst enemy. I google something to see if its normal, but instead of focusing on the 9 different women saying "yup that is normal it happened to me and everything was fine" I fixate on the one person who is like "that happened to me and (insert horror story here)." So uhm. yeah. Total freak out over every little thing, for basically no reason. I think I started peeing myself a little this week
But seriously, google "is it normal to pee myself a little and not notice till later?" and the internet is full of pages of hysterical women telling you to rush to the hospital right away or ELSE!
It is freaking me out! But I do have a routine appointment tomorrow so I guess I can have them double check. Anyway, I do think it's probably just pee... I had no idea that could happen without my realizing it. I guess it's one more thing they never warn you about lol But still, I never thought in my life I'd be thinking "hopefully I just peed myself" !
On the related theme of my being absolutely nuts, I have been stressing out over trying to buy a house. We'd been preapproved, were under contract, everything seemed to be going smoothly, then on Monday our lender called to say they couldn't count my DH's income due to a technicality, and my income wasn't sufficient to secure the loan. We're supposed to close at the end of the month. Our current apartment is so small and awful and they are starting construction right outside that will go on for years and we really need to get out of here, so getting the news there was a issue with the loan sent me into a horrible crying jag. After a full day of crying, I finally listened to friends who said to go find another lender. I'm cautiously optimistic we've been able to get a new loan. But, I can't help but be scared they'll pull the rug out from under us again, so I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I keep reminding myself that as long as baby is healthy, and DH is with me, nothing else really matters. But, I really want out of this apartment before baby comes. Especially cause my mom is coming out for 3 months to help out and if we don't have a spare bedroom to put her in, I think I'll lose my mind
Not to mention the sounds from the construction noise are already ratcheting up - I can't imagine trying to get a baby to sleep with all this noise.
Well, it appears that what was intended to be a short little post has become a very long rant. Thank you for letting me vent!! Am I the only one feeling crazy about everything? Or is this normal? Ladies, I would love to know how you're feeling lately