2WW madness

[mamaxs4]

First of all by not being able to temp I don't know when I O'd but I think it was late from all the stress I'm under. I've been having some mild cramping for the past 2 days....and I'm 3 to 5 DPO. My cervix has been high with an abundance of CF....it's hard to describe, but it's not fertile. About three days before AF is my cervix comes down low. I'm more looking for AF signs than PG signs, I really don't feel we caught the egg this month. But, I had a dream about implantation bleeding and last night a very strange dream. There was this baby that my husband and I were holding...it wasn't ours but in this dream the baby goes from impossibly tiny and skeletal to a smiling cuddly baby about 3 months old. This baby girl preferred my husband to me....but it was crazy how fast it grew! I don't know if it means anything or just my preoccupation and hope for another baby. Even though I just don't believe we even caught the egg.