3 failed IUIs. How do you cope?

[Maverick007]

Strawberry, yes for me they want me on it from July 3 to July 17. There's always the possibility that depending on first scan, they'll tell me to stay on it a little longer, but I'm hoping that doesn't happen.

GL to you with this last IUI...it would be amazing if this was the one that worked and you didn't need to go through IVF.

 

[Bma11]

This is going to sound crazy but my DH got an espresso machine for his bday and I'm drinking espresso to cut back. lol! I know right... but I normally make an entire french press that's like so strong it's like sludge. So having 1 espresso is definitely less caffeine bc I can feel I want more when I finish it. But I'll go a couple hours and then I'm like - bah go have another. So I haven't really been cutting back all that much yet. I kinda suck.

Hey question to the ladies who did IVF... Did any of you do a endometrial biopsy? My clinic likes to do them before IVF but I don't have to if I don't want it. I hear it's very painful so I'm scared.

Did you ever have a Hysterscopy ? They normally do them then as well. That was never offered to me and of I didn't have endometriosis and was offered that I would definitely do it. Another thing I've heard of is endometrium scratching, they do this during laparoscopy /Hysterscopy as well but you can do it at the office one day as well.

 

[PinkPeony]

No I haven't done a hysterscopy or a lap nor have they mentioned that to me. I'm not sure but I think it's not even as involved as that. It only costs something like $25. Apparently there's a study that showed it increased the chance of implantation during IVF.

 

[Bma11]

Gosh pink. I wrote this whole story to you and it didnt post! Ugh! It's because at work the wifi is weak so it switches back and forth and messes me up!

Anyways I just wanted to let you know that my RE recommends doing a Hysterscopy before IVF to check the uterus for polyps and other stuff. I remember having mine done at my initial work up and I had a few polyps which apparently take up a lot of space in the uterus and can hinder implantation . My RE so adamant about the Hysterscopy that I had mine June 2012 and if I was going to do ivf June 2013 or later I would have been made to get another one. Obviously we both know from being on bnb that every RE is different but I just love to tell ppl my experience just to know.. Just to have the info

And you are right the biopsy is nothing like a Hysterscopy but I was wondering if you had , had one and in that case they probably would have already done it as well!

 

[Chris_25]

Hi ladies, hope your all doing well. Haven't really been on too much, but I am feeling very down and depressed. I am beyond frustrated wih TTC

 

[Maverick007]

Chris- I know there are times it just gets too hard. Sending positive thoughts your way and prayers.

 

[Chris_25]

Chris- I know there are times it just gets too hard. Sending positive thoughts your way and prayers.

Than you! I just don't know how to have hope anymore. DH tells me I shouldn't feel this way because it will happen" the magic freakin words! I can't find fun in anything I do in almost 2 years my life has been on hold. I am miserable.

 

[StayHopeful]

Jealous of your hsgs and saline sonos, ladies. Mine hurt like crazy!

Chris, so sorry that you're down. This can be an unbelievably hard process to go through but this is a wonderfully supportive board full of great women.

I had my ET this morning. We'd originally been thinking we'd put 2 back in, but when the doctor walked in she told us she was recommending 1. Her words were "if you want one baby, you should put one back in." We had at least 9 top quality blasts. So we followed her advice and put one in. I'm a little nervous about that because I know that the chances of at least one sticking would be better if there were two in there. But on the other hand, I don't know if DH and I could financially handle twins. So I'm just hoping and praying we made the right decision. The lab will call me tomorrow to let me know how many blasts they ended up freezing. We had something like 25 that were possible candidates. The doctor went over all of that pretty quickly this morning and we were more focused on the blast we were transferring.

 

[SashimiMimi]

Chris: I'm so sorry to hear you're down. I couldn't stand when people would say "it'll happen" or "just relax and have fun!" What got me through those dark says was to stop looking at what I didn't have and be grateful for what I do... My husband, my family, etc. it's not easy being in limbo but just when you hit rock bottom often it a actually does happen. Hang in there!

Stay: good luck!! Now the TWW begins. Both Sunshine and I had one put back and for both of us it worked! I'm sending lots of positive energy your way. I admit at the time I had hoped for twins but now that I have a LO there is no way I'd be able up handle it.

 

[PinkPeony]

Thanks BMA - That's really good to know. I think if this IVF doesn't work I'll be asking for a lap for sure. BTW - that's so awesome you're expecting twins!!

Wow! Stay that sounds so promising! Sending you so many good vibez~~~~~~~

Chris - so sorry you feel down. I was in that place after my 4th IUI too. That's when I felt the absolute lowest. It's normal - it's so tough going through IUI's month after month... all the monitoring and build-up and getting hopes up and then just being in the same place again after is just so frustrating and defeating. You're really strong for going through that in the first place. Just focus on the little things that you are happy about. Bit by bit things will start to look better.

 

[Anne24]

Anne, I know how frustrating it is to have to repeat tests. I hope it shows that everything is working fine.

I'm doing okay, just battling the constant mood swings from BCPs. I also decided today was the day I'm weaning off coffee...drank black tea and will eventually try to get to green tea or nothing at all. Just want to avoid the bad headaches. I have my injection and IVF classes tomorrow and first bw/us on Thursday.

Hope you are all doing well this morning...

Yes, it is indeed so frustrating I have heard that green tea enhances fertility. So you can always go for it Good luck.

 

[Anne24]

Yeah that sucks Anne. I had to redo my saline sono when I switched to the IVF clinic. Not my favourite thing to do that's for sure. The second time around was really easy for me though. They used a smaller catheter this time and I think that really helped.

Mav- I'm not looking forward to the BC. I'm starting it tomorrow. I used to get horrible side effects on it. I keep making attempts at cutting back on the coffee too. It's so tough! I think I would have had more energy for making all these lifestyle changes a year ago. Maybe if we go through it together it'll be easier.

Hi Pink, The last time i did hsg it was nasty. But I guess after 3iuis and a year of constant prodding and pricking I'll be okay this time around.

 

[Orchid6]

Chris soo sorry that you are feeling down*hugs* i know this is weird but sometimes i envision drop kicking infertilitys face, a karate chop there and an elbow here (my next weeks hysterscopy). Every test you do or treatment plan you undertake weakens infertility, anyways the thought makes me laugh and it gets me stronger for the next fight ( or umm the next cycle) trust me the hope is still there, i know you are strong!

 

[Anne24]

Strawberry Good luck with this last iui. I really hope it works and you don't have to go through ivf. I did go through endometrium biopsy during lap and was diagnosed with a uterine infection. I also went through one before lap, that was without anaesthesia and it wasn't painful at all. They will just take a swab of your endometrium, just a little bit more invasive than pap but it will be over in 5 minutes.

Stay Wow thats awesome. So you are officially now in the 2ww. Good luck hun. i hope this is it for you.

Chris I'm so sorry hun you are feeling so down.HUGS. lttc can be frustrating to say the least especially when you are going through such invasive processes like iui month after month. These days when I feel like crying, I just tell myself that God is busy making the most beautiful baby for me, that is why he is taking so much time. Even if its for 5 mins it does make me feel better.

I am sorry for so many posts but I didn't want to miss anyone and I dont know how to use multi-quote

 

[Strawberry13]

Stay- how awesome! You had such great results I think you're gonna get some very good news soon!

Chris- so sorry you're feeling so crappy. I have one really low moment a week lately where I allow myself to have a pity party and just cry it out. I think you have to allow that. But otherwise all we can do is go to our appointments, take our drugs, and pray. We're in good hands with the doctors so hopefully in time we will all get preggo.

Thanks everyone on the insight on the biopsy and hysteroscopy, good to know for the future!

Orchid I like your image of us beating up infertility every month

 

[Maverick007]

Stay that is so awesome!!! I'm sooooo hoping we have as many to freeze as you ended up having. That is my one "back up" wish, that if this doesn't work, we at least have a few to freeze. Now you just sit back, take it easy and wait. Easier said than done right?

We had our injection class this morning where we got our personal calendars and all that. Information overload, that's for sure. Good thing DH can do more than one thing at a time because I was so busy trying to open vials that she'd already gotten two steps ahead of me in the demonstration so most of the time I'm like, what do I do now? It was pretty amusing but a little scary. We will just be reading and RE-reading instructions I can tell. She also kind of warned everyone to remember the 40% chance of it not working and not to get your hopes up so super high that you have a long fall if it doesn't work...I was thinking, believe me, we are all thinking of that more than we would like to.

 

[Strawberry13]

Aww try not to think too much about it and just remember that you're doing everything you can to make it happen this month- and remember most people have frozen embryos at the end too so that's something to put your mind at ease, a little anyway

 

[StayHopeful]

It can definitely be overwhelming, Maverick! The nice thing is that most of the injections work just about the same way, so you get used to it pretty quickly. The only one that was different for me was the progesterone shot, that one's intermuscular.

It's definitely hard not to focus on the negative, too. I'm driving myself crazy with what-ifs, especially since I'm just laying around right now. I'm trying so hard to stay positive, but it's a fine line between staying positive and getting your hopes up too much. TTC for us has been so many let-downs that I'm afraid to get too positive, but I also am a firm believer in the power of positive thinking. The whole thing is enough to drive you nuts!!!

 

[Nicedips]

Hi ladies, been away for a while and back to my first clomid,ovidrel,progesterone sups cycle. The transition from non-medicated to medicated IUI is overwhelming. My break was really worth it, fully recharged now

Stay - good luck on your TWW
Strawberry - good luck with your IUI. Hope this is it
Maverick - good luck with your prep for IVF

I couldn't catch up with all the posts, how's everyone doing? Good luck!!!!

 

[Chris_25]

Jealous of your hsgs and saline sonos, ladies. Mine hurt like crazy!

Chris, so sorry that you're down. This can be an unbelievably hard process to go through but this is a wonderfully supportive board full of great women.

I had my ET this morning. We'd originally been thinking we'd put 2 back in, but when the doctor walked in she told us she was recommending 1. Her words were "if you want one baby, you should put one back in." We had at least 9 top quality blasts. So we followed her advice and put one in. I'm a little nervous about that because I know that the chances of at least one sticking would be better if there were two in there. But on the other hand, I don't know if DH and I could financially handle twins. So I'm just hoping and praying we made the right decision. The lab will call me tomorrow to let me know how many blasts they ended up freezing. We had something like 25 that were possible candidates. The doctor went over all of that pretty quickly this morning and we were more focused on the blast we were transferring.

Thank you and good luck to you with the ivf process! I'm sure you most definately made the right decision if you don't want multiples! It just takes one.