All this time I had been having girl feelings but on the day of the scan, I dreamt that I was at the scan and it showed boy bits, so I woke up and told DH its a boy (he didnt believe me). In my family were used to girls and it feels a bit weird to have my own little penis and pair of balls floating around inside me but were thrilled! More importantly, everything seems to be going well. Baby has a NOSE! He was moving around, crossing his legs, uncrossing them, stretching them straight up, putting one hand behind his head etc
Suddenly it has started feeling real! We havent told people the sex yet, just my sister and my friend whos here on holiday from France because they were too impatient to wait. We went to a big baby store with them, stood in front of 2 rooms set up as boy / girl nurseries and I told DH to choose which room hell go into. My friend was totally hysterical and started jumping up and down before DH even moved, saying oh its a GIRL, its a GIRL, congrats etc, lol, even though shed predicted a boy for me. She was as hysterical and happy when DH went into the boy nursery 
So, long story short, it looks like we'll be looking into adoption and hoping it still happens on our own naturally. We plan to move to Colorado in the next 1-2 years and feel it would be best to wait until after our move to begin the process. But we're going to give ourselves some time to process this and quite honestly, grieve the loss of having our biological child. I'm at peace with this decision and am definitely on board with adoption, but it's still a grieving process for us both. And in a couple of weeks, or months, or whenever we feel ready, we're going to start looking into and discussing our options and what route we want to take as far as adoption goes, and probably attend some seminars and informational meetings, etc. We'll just continue to NTNP from here on out, as the stress of actively trying and tracking is just too much for us month after month with only a 1% chance of it ever happening on our own. So that's where we stand!
Sorry, I feel like I keep hijacking the thread with my different announcements. Since this is our last bits of doctors, etc, I should be able to stop hijacking now!
That sounds like a lot of information to process, and a lot of feelings you'll both need to work through... both of which take time. How is your OH handing things?? I think it's great that you both are on the same page and so supportive of each other right now. And you are absolutely NOT hijacking anything! I think part of the whole point of seeking out these forums is to find people to talk to about things you can't, or choose not to, talk about with people in your "real" life. Being here for you right now is what we're for!
maybe he'll be a mini DH! Any Names yet??
And of course I'll be sticking around! I love you ladies far too much to disappear now. And I'm way too invested in these baby bumps and future baby bumps you've got going on to walk away! 
As you ladies have said, DH and I are very much on the same page on this and I am so thankful for that. Our talk about it all was really great, and we 100% feel the same way about it all. Now hopefully we'll be on the same page when it comes to the actual adoption process and the routes we want to take. DH is handling it pretty well, I must say. Much better than last time (or so it seems, he does tend to process things internally so who knows). I think last time it was just kind of a shock, whereas this time we were pretty much expecting it. I've just tried to tell him as much as possible how much I love him and how happy I am to be on this journey of life with him. 
Was DH super excited?! We're used to girls in my family too, in fact my nephew was the first boy born into my mom's side of the family in 4 generations. We were all shocked when she was told it was a boy, and kept thinking we didn't know how to handle a boy in the family! And now she has 2 of them! 
The ClearBlue website is actually really helpful, if you want to check it out:
Theres an expression in French which is literally translated as breaking someones balls into English, meaning the person doing the breaking is being a real pain. DH usually says I cant use this expression because I dont have balls to be broken, so now Im making a point of using it when he annoys me!
We're all set for our closing, now we just have to wait for it to get here! We need to buy a couch and a VACUUM CLEANER, so I think we might do that this weekend with all the Memorial Day sales going on. We might even pull a double whammy and drive an hour over to New Hampshire and buy them there since there isn't any sales tax. I love a bargain!
I think my fertile window was pretty early in the month (like, sometime around the 5th maybe?) So maybe any day now actually. I got some lower back aches over the weekend that I would normally consider a harbinger of 
, and I've got some achiness now as well. I think I'll wait until Friday and then pop open my tracking app to see when it says I should expect my period if it hasn't come before then. I have to say, the TWW is so much better when you don't really know you're in it! I recognize, however, that this is probably not the most effective method to becoming pregnant. I'll probably add some sort of tracking back in next month.
I love that now you really can say it at least a little bit more accurately! I love that you speak so many languages!!! I find it funny that you speak Creole at home, and that's the one that your DH finds pointless. Too funny! What does he want to speak at home/what is his primary language? And thank you on the supplements, but you hit the nail on the head...this whole NTNP approach that we're taking doesn't include any of that stuff and I'm actually really happy about it! It's SO much more relaxing to not stress over it every month. How is your mom doing?
