30-Somethings TTC#1

[floofymad]

Hey all,

No rise in temps today. Still remaining slightly above cover line but thinking AF will be here soon. Endo pains are awful today.
Sitting here thinking I need to have some codeine, but then thinking 'can't have that if I could be pregnant', and then'don't be stupid you're obviously not pregnant'

Hate this malarky. x

 

[maxxiandniko]

Hey all,

No rise in temps today. Still remaining slightly above cover line but thinking AF will be here soon. Endo pains are awful today.
Sitting here thinking I need to have some codeine, but then thinking 'can't have that if I could be pregnant', and then'don't be stupid you're obviously not pregnant'

Hate this malarky. x

I hope you are. We are due for another bfp around here.

 

[floofymad]

Thank you Maxi. Sorry you're not eating well... x x

 

[Conina]

Floofy I had a similar thought when clearing out the cat litter the other day - "if/when it happens, I won't be doing THIS any more!!"

One more reason to hope for a

 

[floofymad]

lol Conina!

Well am out. AF came today. Feeling pretty useless. Only good thing is that this seems to be the first AF since March which is actually red. Maybe that's the reiki doing the trick?...

Still, don't like being woken at 5am to horrible endo pains and then not being able to go back to sleep.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend. DH is going away Sun till Wed. I'm going to miss him. x

 

[Conina]

Floofy

I hated it when OH was away last month but it makes seeing him again all the better

 

[CJSG1977]

Sorry the got you Floofy but with any luck the Reiki has worked wonders for you!

 

[floofymad]

Do you think it is the Reiki CJ?.... I sit ok to have Reiki and Acupuncture together?...... not at the same time of course! Just meant do both therapies x

 

[CJSG1977]

Floofy there is no reason why you cant enjoy both therapies while not in the first trimester. They are both wonderful therapies. Reiki I truly believe is very powerful therapy. I honestly believe it will have had a good impact on your cycle as it is meant to create a natural equilibrium in the body.

AFM I had a bit of spotting... 11DPO, which has turned in to full af!! God Dammit! Sorry for the language. I never even had a chance with a luteal phase of blimmin 11 days. Mega down. And Fertility appointment tomorrow is likely a no go. Rowing with the husband like mad and I have told him I am not going. Stupid I know. But just so peeved right now.

 

[floofymad]

Aw sorry you're having a hard time CJSG... Have you tried anything to increase your luteal phase? Some people recommend Maca and Vit B I think.
Is there any way you can make up before your fertility appt?.. We were rowing constantly last week and didn't speak for ages, but on reflection, a lot of people have said it's probably the fertility stuff putting pressure on us....
I hope everything works out soon for you

 

[Jaimie2Eyes]

Hi All! Just wanted to pop in and say howdy! I've been keeping off the TTC sites since AF showed after my first IUI. Gearing up for my second one...hang in there ladies!

 

[CJSG1977]

Thank you hun! We are fine. I woke an said that I was putting it down to me being hormonal, part bitch and him part asshole He was ok with that. My appointment on the other hand was not. I cant help but think I was pregnant and my spotting was implantation... today the bitch I saw forced me to have a smear. And I have been that bad I nearly phoned NHS Direct. If you want read my journal for the full story. I dont want to bore you here...

My luteal phase is not usually a problem. And my FS slated me basically for 'trying' too much. Vit B is in the pregnacare I am taking. Whats maca? I keep hearing that. I might also try soy to make sure I ov.

The cow I saw has tested me for EVERYTHING! Prolactinoma! Diabetes! FULLLLLL Bloodwork, Clotting diseases...again, thyroid....again, full hormones check, electrolytes, urine, blood pressure, weight! And an ultrasound for PCOS, Endo and whatever else. Oh and of course the SMEAR test where I was butchered! Sorry for my rant.

I hope you and your oh are doing ok. It isnt fair that our relationships have to suffer when we are trying to have a baby out of love, and desire to have a family.

 

[maxxiandniko]

Hi everyone! Nothing going on with me. Still on the bcp and prenatals but feeling better.

CJ - What's the next step? Are they considering ivf?

Squirrel - how have you been?

Jaimie - good luck with the IUI! How many do they plan to do?

 

[Jaimie2Eyes]

Aw CJ - I'm so sorry you had such a hard time with your appointment. I hardly think recurrent mc's are due to trying too hard!!! A friend of a friend had several mc's and they did some genetic testing and found out that their genes were the issue. They just had to keep trying until the combination was alright.

Hi Maxxi! Three clomid IUI cycles is the max that you should do in a row, so that is what we'll probably do. Right now I'm waivering between trying not to care and worrying that we'll do all three and they won't work. Glad you are feeling better - the clomid made me feel very motion sick / borderline nauseaus and that is not fun.

 

[floofymad]

Oh CJ - poor you! Really sorry you had to go through that. I'll read your journo in a bit. God - ttc is hard enough without stupid arrogant incompetent professionals telling us it's our fault, what is happening to us.
Maca is a natural peruvian root, that helps balance hormones and increases sex drive etc. It also increases energy levels and people swear by it. My OH would only swear that it makes his finger nails and toenails grow rapidly! lol

Jaimie - F x for your next go at IUI hun x

How's everyone else?

 

[Conina]

I'm out this month - got me. She crept up on me and jumped out when I wasn't even vaguely expecting her!!

Seriously the three cycles I've had since coming off the BCP have been - 27 days, 35 days and 29 days. What the hell???? How am I supposed to plan with that? Or do I just wear DH out...

Anyone any ideas???

 

[floofymad]

Hi Conina,
Not sure, but think sometimes it can take a while for your cycles to settle down after.
Unfortunately, looks like you might have to wear him out! lol x

 

[CJSG1977]

Hey thanks girls!!

Maxii, I have had just about every blood test going for every hormone possible, diabetes, prolactin, blood clotting diseases (lupis), electrolytes...list goes on. I had a smear, urine samples and I am having an ultrasound to check for pcos and endo etc. After they all come back we will look at my ovary function if the tests come back clear...and maybe try clomid. God knows how long I'll wait. Ultrasound wait is 6-8 weeks...then I have to wait to have a follow up appointment with the witch that is my fertility specialist. I know mine and my husbands chromosomes are fine cause they were checked before and I dont have any blood clotting diseases but they are testing me again.... she didnt seem bothered about helping to behonest and made me feel like I was wasting her time. It was soul destroying. I've been so down. I just cant see myself ever having my baby.

Haha Conina, you are going to have to wear him out girl!! GL!

 

[Jaimie2Eyes]

Conina - sorry if you've already tried this but temping and opk's can help you pinpoint ov. It took me a while after coming off bc to get super dependable cycles - at first mine varied like yours. But now they are 28 days quite consistently.

 

[SquirrelGirl]

CJ, apologies if you've already said earlier.... but can you go to a different doctor??? I don't know much about the medical system over there, but are there some different options?

I'm doing all right. Just chillin'. I kinda feel like I'm out of things to say. Nothing is new for me in the least regarding TTC. Really quite tired of the exact same thing happening every month, you know? I start off calm, then I get down knowing I'm out before I even O, then I get hopeful, then down, then stupidly hopeful that the spotting is just IB, then crushed with AF arrives. The stupidly hopeful that AF will stop because my body suddenly realizes I AM pregnant afterall and AF jumped the gun. And then I mentally move on and feel calm about it again. MEH!!!

Just waiting for January and my appointment with my OB/GYN to start the infertility discussion. Hopefully she gets on testing ASAP. Or refers me. I don't care which, but I won't stand for any waiting.

So anyway, I've been lurking a lot more than I've been posting. But I am checking in on you all and wishing it turns around for every single one of us!