33 yrs young ttc#1...need buddies:)

[Trolley_Dolly]

GL baby!

This wait is killing me panda u had any symptoms?Fingers crossed for our sticky beans xx

 

[panda fan]

my symptom list includes:
sore boobs, darker nipples, lots of blue veins, tugging sensation in uterus, sinus trouble, crazy dreams, sleeping longer despite going to bed early

but I think all of that is probably from the progesterone so I don't know if it means anything . . .

 

[Fruitful]

Hi girls! Just to let you know I'm keeping my fingers (and toes) crossed for you!!! I hope the 2ww isn't driving you too crazy. Trolley, I love the concept of PUPO! I'll keep checking everyone's updates and I'll be doing cheerleader moves in the background xxx

 

[Fruitful]

Tink, Glad to hear the scan was good - that must have been a relief! Let us know how your dad is doing. Is he still on the same hospital? How are you finding him?

 

[Tink80]

Tink, Glad to hear the scan was good - that must have been a relief! Let us know how your dad is doing. Is he still on the same hospital? How are you finding him?

Hi, there. Well, the tech didn't tell me those things without a lot of prodding. I see the OB for the first time since the scan on Thursday so I will be interested to hear his take on it. On the other hand, if it was something really bad he probably would have called me to come in sooner, right?

My Dad...ehhhh. He's okay, I guess. Some days he talks in a slurred voice and the things he says are confusing and don't make sense. Some days he refuses to wake up at all. Others he is combative and lashing out at medical staff and they put him in restraints. Honestly, it's still touch and go how much brain damage is permanent. They really can't tell and they tell us any day he can make a turn for the better or for the worse. The thing with brain injuries is one step forward, two steps back and lots of ups and downs without really knowing what the end result will in fact be. He still hasn't walked. He can sit up with a helmet on (still missing the top of his skull). They say he may be in specialized rehab for up to two years. Six months if he does really spectacular but given his poor health before the accident I'm not too hopeful. He's an old man who was in renal failure before this and getting dialysis every other day so everything will be slow going.
I went to visit him over a week ago and he talked to me for several minutes and I showed him the 3D pic of baby and he held it and stared at it and fell asleep. The rest of the time he was unconscious or confused. When I left to say goodbye, I told him I loved him several times and he just stared at me blankly with his mouth open..I felt like he just wasn't in there I'm kind of trying to pretend it's not happening b/c it makes me too sad to think he may not even comprehend what's going on when Eva is born.

 

[Fruitful]

Hi, there. Well, the tech didn't tell me those things without a lot of prodding. I see the OB for the first time since the scan on Thursday so I will be interested to hear his take on it. On the other hand, if it was something really bad he probably would have called me to come in sooner, right?

My Dad...ehhhh. He's okay, I guess. Some days he talks in a slurred voice and the things he says are confusing and don't make sense. Some days he refuses to wake up at all. Others he is combative and lashing out at medical staff and they put him in restraints. Honestly, it's still touch and go how much brain damage is permanent. They really can't tell and they tell us any day he can make a turn for the better or for the worse. The thing with brain injuries is one step forward, two steps back and lots of ups and downs without really knowing what the end result will in fact be. He still hasn't walked. He can sit up with a helmet on (still missing the top of his skull). They say he may be in specialized rehab for up to two years. Six months if he does really spectacular but given his poor health before the accident I'm not too hopeful. He's an old man who was in renal failure before this and getting dialysis every other day so everything will be slow going.
I went to visit him over a week ago and he talked to me for several minutes and I showed him the 3D pic of baby and he held it and stared at it and fell asleep. The rest of the time he was unconscious or confused. When I left to say goodbye, I told him I loved him several times and he just stared at me blankly with his mouth open..I felt like he just wasn't in there I'm kind of trying to pretend it's not happening b/c it makes me too sad to think he may not even comprehend what's going on when Eva is born.

Aww, Tink, that must be so difficult for you Thanks for keeping us updated. Stay strong and keep the faith.

Re the scan, I reckon the OB would indeed have called you if anything worrisome had come up, and it all sounded positive from what you managed to get out of the tech. Good luck for your meeting with the OB, though - I hope he puts your mind at rest.

 

[Trolley_Dolly]

Hi ladies

Panda ive had exactly the symptoms....i also caved in and done a hpt this morning im 7dp 5dt and BFN Gutted...AF is due 2mo feeling so fed up

Fruitful thanx for the nice wishes

Tink u r in my thoughts stay strong for your lovely baba

Hope everyone else is ok xx

 

[Fruitful]

Hi ladies

Panda ive had exactly the symptoms....i also caved in and done a hpt this morning im 7dp 5dt and BFN Gutted...AF is due 2mo feeling so fed up

Fruitful thanx for the nice wishes

Tink u r in my thoughts stay strong for your lovely baba

Hope everyone else is ok xx

Trolley - sorry to hear about the bfn It's still a bit early to test, I guess, but I understand why you're feeling sad about it. What kind of test did you use, and what day are you getting a blood test done? I'll be thinking of you and sending lots of positive and hopeful thoughts your way. xxx

 

[panda fan]

Trolley, sorry about BFN, but it's definitely still early so I'm going to keep thinking happy thoughts for you. Just remember, that's why we aren't supposed to test early lol BFN means nothing until the AF says otherwise.

I had a migraine yesterday and it's still pretty bad today. I'm thinking that this is PMS and AF is coming. Drop in my natural progesterone? No spotting this month due to the supplemental progresterone which I quite like!!! Going to test tomorrow a.m. which is 12dp iui and probably 11dpo. My blood test is Friday.

Tink, sorry your dad's progress is slow, but sounds like he is fighting to sort it all out in his body. I bet he understands about the baby and is very excited but is having trouble expressing things right now physically and verbally.

Also, I love the name Eva. So pretty!

 

[babybemine]

Well IUI today. welcome myself to the 2 week wait.

 

[Trolley_Dolly]

Thank u fruitful and panda mayb is still a tad bit early should be testing friday/saturday.I used a superdrug test....gonna wait till friday now unless AF shows up.

Panda ive got everything crossed for u eeek xxx

 

[panda fan]

Well IUI today. welcome myself to the 2 week wait.

Congrats on #2! Hope the waiting goes quickly

 

[panda fan]

tested this morning - BFN
definitely feel like my natural progesterone dropped, boobs stopped being so sore and I have major headache. AF is on its way

 

[Trolley_Dolly]

Panda i feel your pain whats next for u huni PM if u want to chat xx

I too had a BFN im totally shocked and stunned our odds were so high 70% we had 2 embies transfered at 5 day blastocyst and one top quality and the other not as good and neither turned into a sticky bean for us im devasted what a rollercoaster ivf is my head is in a daze why us

Think the next stage for us wait a couple of months for AF to go back normal then try again we will c.

Hope everyone else is doing ok xxx

 

[Fruitful]

Aww, Panda and Trolley, have lots of long-distance hugs I'm thinking of you and your DHs - it must be really hard. Be gentle to yourselves and have a good cry if you want one. Eat lots of cake, have a nice long bath/shower, watch some crappy telly, have a glass of wine, and just take it easy.

Trolley, I think with IVF, it's very much a multi-cycle game. Lots of people don't get pregnant on the first go (that 70% chances figure sounds very high to me for one cycle. I think the 70% chance might be over three cycles), but succeed on their 2nd or 3rd try (or 4th, etc.). I was recently chatting to a girl about our age who got lucky on the 2nd IVF go (after 2 years trying and several rounds of IUI). A lucky few even get pregnant naturally between cycles, as the hormones can sometimes help reset stuff. Anyway, all this to say that I think you're right to be thinking to future cycles. It's early in the game and you *will* get there.

Babybemine, good luck with the 2ww!

 

[panda fan]

Trolley, I am so sorry. I would be very upset too, that is so disappointing since all the signs were good, but I think Fruitful is right and that IVF chances are much higher with 2 or 3 cycles (I've read many many stories of 4) so do not give up hope. I, for one, am here with you until you get your BFP. This is your thread so it's important you get your happy ending on it! And soon! Big hugs from me and I'm getting myself an ice cream sundae today so you should, too

I am sad about my BFN, but not too surprised. They gave us very low chances for iui to be successful and think my doc would rather skip it if insurance didn't mandate I do it first. I was still hoping, but I'm trying to stay focused on just getting through these 3 iui cycles and getting to my first ivf

 

[Tink80]

Trolley and Panda, I'm so sorry to hear of your BFN, lots of hugs from here too I agree with everything Fruitful said. Seems like from what I've heard it's a multiple try kind of thing and also agree you both should be gentle on yourselves and do whatever it is you need to feel better and recharge for the next cycle you're ready to try, whenever that may be.

Lots of love. You're in my thoughts and I'm sending good thoughts your way you will get your sticky beans very soon, you certainly deserve it.

 

[ttcbabyisom]

for tomorrow...for all of us that have experienced a loss or several losses...love you all!


Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven,
and though it must appear

A rather strange idea,
I see everything from here.

I just popped in to visit,
your stores to find a card

A card of love for my mother,
as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought,
every card you could imagine

Except I could not find a card,
from a child who lives in heaven.

She is still a mother too,
no matter where I reside

I had to leave, she understands,
but oh the tears she's cried.

I thought that if I wrote you,
that you would come to know

That though I live in heaven now,
I still love my mother so.

She talks with me, and dreams with me;
we still share laughter too,

Memories our way of speaking now,
would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart,
her tears she hides from sight.

She writes poems to honor me,
sometimes far into the night

She plants flowers in my garden,
there my living memory dwells

She writes to other grieving parents,
trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark,
though I no longer live on earth

I must find a way,
to remind her of her wondrous worth

She needs to be honored,
and remembered too

Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark,
I know you'll do your best

I have done all I can do;
to you I'll leave the rest.

Find a way to tell her,
how much she means to me

Until I can do it for myself,
when she joins me in eternity.

Happy Mother's Day From Heaven...

It's the busiest day in Heaven
I'm planning a big surprise
To let you know I love you...
And that no one ever dies.
Even though you're down below
And I am up above,
I'm sending you these wishes
And all my angel love.
It's really quite exciting
To plan this big event.
For lots of gifts will come your
way And all are heaven sent.
First, I'll take a bubble bath-My splashes might cause some
rain. But knowing all the fun I'm
having,
Will help to ease your pain. Next, I'll get some pictures
In my halo and my gown.
So when you get to Heaven,
You can show them all around.
I have color crayons in Heaven,
And I will draw some stars so
bright
And place them in the sky today For you to see at night.

Then, Jesus will have story time.
And I will sit upon his lap.
He'll tell me all about you
Just before I take a nap.
I'll wake up full of energy
And play a game or two.
Before I finish sending
All my love to you
After snack I'll write a song
For all the birds to sing.
And know I've made you happy
With all the joy it brings.
At nighttime I'll be tired.
But I'll still hold you tight.
My arms will wrap around you
And keep you through the night.
And when you finally slumber,
I will kneel to pray.
Asking God to bless you
On this special Mother's bay.

 

[panda fan]

Lovely poems, ttc! Tough day for my friend's who're remembering angels, but I wish a happy mother's day to ALL mothers (of angels, too) and mothers-to-be!

 

[panda fan]

So my AF came the evening of my negative beta!! Not much a wait there. I was surprised since I had taken the progesterone that morning so I was still on it.

Had my 1st u/s this morning for cycle #2 of iui - nurse said all looked good except a small cyst on my right side which surprised me but they said they can still go ahead with things so that's good I guess