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[Cookie1979]

Hi ladies! Has everyone had a good weekend? Mine was good, ate far too much and my diet went right window. Hate to think how much weight I've gained...I have a talent for gaining quickly!

Tommy - how was your shopping trip? I love shopping, I went Saturday and spent some of my birthday money, all on clothes. x

Wish - how are you doing? x

Bex - Hope you have a lovely holiday in Wales. x

AFM - Well I believe I ovulated Friday, I can't be 100% sure but I had what I think was ovulation pain on Friday and although I still had ewcm on Saturday I noticed my cervix changed, it felt more like the tip of a nose, whereas on Friday it didn't. I think our timing this cycle has been pretty good, and I'm hopeful but at the same time keep telling myself it's not going to happen. So today I am 3 dpo and wishing the days away until I can test...and I probably will test early. Wish me luck! xx

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Good luck Cookie! I'm keeping everything crossed that this is your month!! That link you sent about infertility was SO spot on - seriously I couldn't help but laugh as it is so accurate!

Bex - hope you are feeling a bit better! I am cheering you on and know it will only be a matter of time before you are starting your ICSI. Big hugs

Tommy - hope you had a fun day shopping and enjoyed the weather. Buy anything nice? Where are you going on holiday? I'm jealous - could really do with a nice relaxing holiday right about now!!!

Wish - I mean this in the nicest way possible but your Dr sounds like a total ass!! Any chance of changing and getting a 2nd opinion?! Sending big hugs, I can only imagine your frustration just now Stay strong.

MWB - how are you doing? Again sending hugs. I know you will be having bad days and slightly better days but I hope you are getting the support you need.

A big hello to everyone else I have missed!!

Not a huge amount to report.... Yet! I have just spent the last day and a half completely cleaning and prepping my house (yes again!) for Professional pics to be taken this morning.... It's amazing the amount of crap needing done even when it is tidy and organised. I am knackered and was upset as yesterday was the most beautiful day and I spent it stuck inside!! Grrr.... Still the photos should look WAY better than the original pics and hopefully we can get this house sold ASAP!!

I stopped BCP on Friday and have been spotting since... Randomly I did have some red blood on Fri & Sat but it was so minimal that I can only assume I will start bleeding properly soon. Nurses said probably about today so will see.... I take my first 2 injections tonight... Definitely feeling mixed about it... Right now I just want to get them over and done with! I'm fine with the Puregon as that's what I had for my last IUI it's just the other one I'm more anxious about since you have to mix things but once it's done the first time and DH has managed to jab me it will be all good. Unfortunately DH is away later in the week so I'll have to do it myself then Oh well at least I know I can do it!! I'll try be on more in the next few weeks as will have a lot more updates now! I'm so full of mixed emotions but mostly I just so desperately want it to work!! Diet is still going well and I am finally down 3lbs! Yay! Although can't really get too excited as that's just the 3lbs I gained while doing the IUIs.... still 3lbs is 3lbs so I'll take it!

Hugs ladies

 

[Cookie1979]

Orchid - 3 lbs is a loss and in the right direction! Well done. Good luck jabbing yourself, can't imagine it's easy. I'm sure you'll do it fine though. Yes I thought that link was funny, I found the abbreviations we all use amusing...a friend of mine has been trying for quite a while but doesn't go online and more than once I've used abbreviations when talking to her and she has no idea what I'm talking about.

Just realised I need to book myself in for a blood test Friday, the fertility doctor wants a couple of cycles of bloods done...I'm hoping I won't have to go back to her and that a miracle will happen before then, but got to be realistic and get the bloods done anyway. I'm 4 dpo today, and totally symptom spotting which is totally stupid this early on but I can't help myself. Todays so called symptoms are thirst and really thick white cm, kind of jelly consistent...very unusual for me to have cm like that.

xx

 

[tommyg]

Good Evening Ladies.

How are you all?

Cookie it's acceptable to let the diet go out the window now and again. But like you I find it much easier to pile on the pounds rather than remove them. Good luck with bloods, I'm guessing it's progesteron they are planning to check?

Bex how are you dining after your lap? Are you recovering ok physically, and getting over the shock emotionally?

MWB how are you?

Wish, are you setting into your new house? Have you got a date for your next appointment?

Orchard, how many days of injections have you to do? 3lb is 3lb better off your hips than on them. I hated doing IUI injections, I can't stand the sight of a needle going into me. Even worse one of the nurses confessed she can put needles in other people but not have them put into her!!!

Hope I haven't missed anybody,

AFM I'm feeling fantastic. I can't believe how much better I feel compared to this time last week. Apparently my hemoglobin was borderline last week but I feel great now so guessing it has came up during the week.
Shopping I got myself some shorts and a new bikini, not that I really have the body for a bikini, but what the heck!!!
I am now in the 2ww, think I ovulated on Sunday but we didn't DTD from Friday. Not sure if it was too far away or not. However holiday on Saturday, so should be at the end of the 2ww when we get back and ready to start the last IUI.

 

[momwithbabies]

Tommy: I'm happy you're feeling better! That's always a good thing! And I say wear that bikini if that's what you want to do! Woohoo!!! I'm on a diet right now, trying to shed the weight I managed to gain during 10 weeks of pregnancy. It's amazing how easy it is to put on weight and how extremely difficult it is to take it off. I'm very frustrated, as I am stressed out and want to eat everything in my pantry, lol. I have been doing pretty good, though. I've only been dieting for 4 days now...we shall see how long it takes me to crack. It doesn't help I've got all of the birthdays in my family during May. I love cake!!!

Emotionally, I'm hanging in there. I had a moment yesterday when I opened the bill from my OB/GYN...I owe over $2000 so far, and I haven't even received the hospital bills. It just reminded me how it really, really sucks to have to pay all of this money, yet I have nothing to show for it. I stood there yesterday and cried about it, realizing that this sucks financially for us (we already have enough debt), but what hurts most is I don't have a baby. I don't have a baby to show for my scars. I don't have a baby to show for my crazy, up and down emotions.

I'm sure some of you ladies have felt this before. The pain is too much to take at times and tolerable at others.

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Thanks girls - You're right 3lbs is still 3lbs and considering how impossible it is for me to lose weight I'll take it!!

Tommy you must be so excited for your holiday! Have a great time, relax and then it's IUI and BFP! I'm so glad you are feeling so good - that's great!!!

So I have taken 2 nights of injections - last night's ones went WAY better than the first night. The menopur stings so much (as Lanet said, like a Bee sting!) but the other one was totally fine. Of course DH is away tonight so I have to try and work out how to do it to myself! I'm fine with one but doing the syringe and holding my tummy is going to be tricky - of course that's the sore, stingy one!! I have a little line on my tummy of poke marks but at least I can see where we've done it so I don't inject in the same spot!! I had a headache all day yesterday but so far I'm ok today so will see. Tommy I don't know exactly how many nights I have to inject but definitely 8 at this point and I start with injection #3 on Friday but that is done in the morning. It's definitely much easier getting DH to inject than doing it myself.. Even though it's a small needle there's still something not right about sticking it in yourself!!!!

Hope everyone is doing well xxx

 

[Wish4another1]

ladies!!

Tommy - so jealous of your holiday!!! anywhere you can wear a bikini would be a favorite destination of mine!! I hope you have a great time and enjoy your family time!!

orchid - yes 3 lbs is 3 lbs you have to celebrate those little victories!! How did doing the injections yourself go last night? I am excited to watch the progression and see how it all goes!!! and then BFP!!!! YAY!!!

MWB: ugh on the dr bills I am sorry you have to deal with that on top of everything else!!!

cookie - 6DPO what symptoms are you spotting today??

bex - how are you today? You asked what STL was - that is an abbreviation for St. Louis Missouri - where the fertility specialist is - we have an FE here in the town where I work - but my DH and I did NOT have a good experience with him and we refuse to go back...so our only other option (via my insurance) is to go to St louis...

Lanet and eyemom cant believe how big your babies are getting!!! time just flies!!

Hello to all you other lovely girls!!
AFM: TTC - nothing going on but the mortgage!! but my youngest senior prom was last weekend and I thought I would share some pics of me and the girls and the house, etc... the table n chairs was my birthday present from my youngest Have a great Thursday ladies!!

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Quick reply as heading out but in the end I didn't have to do them as DH was able to come home after all!! Yay! So much easier getting him to do it as the Menopur really stings... there is a chance I'll have to do them myself next week, it just depends how long I have to take them for.

Feeling a little tired this morning and more twinges of a sore head and nausea but I'm heading to acupuncture now so hoping she can help!Then it's off to the clinic tomorrow to see how I am responding. As of now I don't have any fullness, or pain in my ovaries which I'm a little surprised about so fingers crossed everything is working. I'm also still bleeding which I thought would have stopped by now so I hope the pill hasn't screwed things up! Anyway will find out tomorrow how it's going... Wish me luck!!

to everyone! x

 

[Srbjbex]

Orchid - how did you get on? Good news all round I hope!

Wish - thanks for clearing up the abbreviation. I thought i was missing out on a BnB acronym And gorgeous photos!!

Mwb - what a punch in the stomach about your hospital bills any sign of AF arriving for you yet? I think that will give you a bit of closure and help you move forward.

Tommy - great to hear you sounding positive and upbeat!! And a holiday sounds fab. We just got home from a short break at Bluestone in Wales which was great and just what i needed. Would highly recommend for a toddler break!

AFM well thanks for all your concern and well wishes ladies. I'm feeling loads better...by the end of the holiday i was cycling /swimming, on bouncy castles, soft play etc!

I had my follow up appointment with Mr B was today and we left feeling super positive. He explained a bit more about the problem...so basically my uterus is bent over at my cervix so it's a bit like a triangle shape if that makes sense. Obviously this makes it tricky to get pg plus adhesions from my section and low sperm count to add into the mix! He is sending me for a hycosy and mri scan to get really good look in there and work out the angles. While doing this he is going to do a mock embryo transfer. If in the mock ET he thinks it will work for real then he will let us go on with ICSI without further surgery. However if the angle is so severe he can't do it I will need further surgery to correct. But he is positive. ..and has done this many times before. So we left being positive too**

 

[tommyg]

Good Morning Ladies

Happy Mothers day to those on the other side of the pond! Hope you are all being suitably pampered.

MWB it is rotten that you have been hit with such huge bills for Doctors. I assume you don't have insurance to cover it.

Orchard yes when doing injections for the IUI I would be shaking like a leaf. When they have been taking blood out of me its like going to a blood donation they hook you up to a bag, I get them to put a paper towel over my arm so I can't see the needle. Crazy but makes me feel much better!!!
Hope your scan goes well, how long before egg retrieval ?

Wish your photos look lovely thanks for sharing. I hope you have better luck with your new. FS than the last one. When do you see him?

Bex glad you are feeling better and more positive. I swear this just isn't an easy road.

Cookie how are you, is the 2ww going ok?

AFM I've just realised I never answered the question where?We are in Turkey for a week, with friends they have a daughter a week older than DS. They mentioned they had booked this holiday, did we want to come, so thinking company for DS made it a good plan. Got here late last night.
As for ttc I'm about 7dpo and no signs of anything.

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Thanks Tommy! Happy Mother's Day to everyone celebrating today! I am looking forward to basically doing nothing today! I am currently in bed drinking a cup of tea and chilling out (and obviously on the internet!!) Amazing!! DH & DS are making me brunch and dinner so it's a full day off for me - yipee!! That being said I'm still not feeling great unfortunately but knowing I don't have to do anything today is lovely.

Bex - how are you doing? That sounds so much more optimistic - I am so excited for you! Won't be long now til you have the pleasure of IVF!!!

MwB - like the other girls I am SO sorry about the bills.... That is just awful and so unfair. Sending big hugs.

Tommy - Yay for Turkey!! I hope you are having a fab time. Will be lovely for DS to have a friend to play with and should make things easier for you! Enjoy yourself and hey, here's hoping for a surprise BFP and no need for IUI!! Maybe getting your blood taken is what you needed?! Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you!!!

Cookie - how are you doing? How many more days til you test?

Wish - such lovely pics!! Thanks for sharing them

Hello to everyone else and anyone I have missed!

AFM: Well Friday's scan went well. I have 11 follicles just now which he was happy with and my hormone levels are all good so I continue with my injections at the same dose and as of tonight start with a 3rd which is to stop me from ovulating naturally. Unfortunately I spent most of yesterday feeling pretty crappy and this morning I'm super tired again (despite just waking up!!) and headachey - I figure this is just how I'm going to feel so I just need to deal with it. I'm starting to get the sore achey pain in my ovaries, especially when I stand up or sit down but I know that's a good sign. I head back to the clinic on Tuesday for my next scan then I imagine I will be going down more regularly as I get closer to the retrieval. At my initial orientation they put down that the retrieval would most likely happen the week of the 17th give or take a few days as will just depend on how I am responding. The injections have been ok the last couple of nights.. It seems my left side is better than my right! My tummy looks like dot the dot with a line of red marks along it but thankfully that's all I have and I'm not bruised or swollen etc. I'm a little nervous about tonights injection as it's not such a sharp needle and I've read (stupid me going on google!) that it stings as well... Anyway it's temporary! So there you go - that's where I am for now!

I hope you are all well. Enjoy your Sunday x

 

[lanet]

Wish lovely pictures! Time really does fly!
Tommy hope you're having a great time, and it's great that you're feeling good, maybe orchid is right and that's what you needed. Here's to a surprise bfp!! And woohoo for a bikini! I don't know that I'll be in bathing suit at all this year! Although I have lost the 60 lbs I gained, I still have 15 from Ivf that I need to lose. Orchid remember my Ivf kept getting delayed so I was on bcp for months! So no worries for you, it's sounds like you're doing great! Double breastfeeding is really burning the calories though and I hope I can keep it up
I hope everyone else is doing great and that you all had a lovely mothers day

 

[Cookie1979]

This is the third time I've tried to post on here! Just now the L key on my phone stopped working so had to restart it. Grrrrr! Anyway....

Orchid - all sounding really positive, very excited for you. Fingers and toes crossed for you xx

Tommy - hope you are having a fab holiday xx

Mwb - really sucks that you have to pay all that money, makes me realise we are lucky to have the NHS here in the UK. X

Bex - how are you doing? X

AFM - well not had a good weekend/beginning of the week, my son had a tummy bug, Saturday night he started being sick, must have been sick 13 times. Poor boy was so poorly, but so brave. I was up with him til 4am, just wasn't any point him going to bed while he was throwing up every 30 mins. He slept on the sofa and I sat next to him poised with a bowl. Things us mothers do...the husband slept soundly in bed of course. Sunday night I felt abit dodgy, Monday I felt horrendous didn't eat a single thing all day...on a positive note I was 4.5 lbs lighter from being ill all day lol.

I'm 11 dpo and I've done some IC's and have got faint lines, but I've read the reviews and people have complained about evaps even in the allowed timeframe plus they look grey to me. Certainly don't make me think it's a bfp. I do have some superdrug tests which are 10 mlu and are a good brand so going to test in the morning. Not expecting anything to be honest. Don't even have any symptoms (or so called symptoms) not even my boobs hurt which is unusual. Anyway I'll keep you updated.

Xx

 

[Cookie1979]

Update - tested with a superdrug test and got a BFN! So disappointed, despite saying I thought the lines on the IC's were nothing I had got my hopes up. I kept dreaming last night that I got a positive pregnancy test, I'd wake, drop off back to sleep and keep on dreaming about it. I really did pin my hopes on this cycle but looks like another disappointment Gutted!

Also when we saw the fertility doctor she said my hubby had lots of swimmers, all swimming in the right direction all looked good but some were a funny shape...but that shouldn't cause a problem. Since then I've been reading about it and realised it's caused morphology...trouble is she didn't say what percentage had this problem. So I've been working hard to make sure my body is ready and my cycles are great and really thought my chances were good, but perhaps this morphology problem is the reason. He had a repeat SA last week and we see the fertility doctor again next month so I guess we'll find out then. When my hubby rang for the results to his first SA they just said normal...why would they say normal if they are a funny shape?

 

[BabyBump2015]

hello ladies! thank you so so much for the welcome.

so sorry it took me long to respond to you all but ever since my last post, our lives have just been so busy.. we've since moved and are still settling in to our new place and we've also been going through our IVF cycle... that plus being busy at work, i ddin't have time to come on here and update you..

so just a quick update:
its been a loooong cycle.. CD1 was April 1st... didn't ovulate until yesterday, when our Doc retrieved my eggs.. a total of 3 egss we just got an update saying 2 eggs were abnormal and 1 egg was mature, inseminated and fertilized normal, yay, hubby and I made a baby however, we now have to wait until day 3 to see how the embryo is developing I pray everything goes well and my sweet baby makes it to day 3

I hope you all are doing well and hope your Mother's Day was beautiful. i want nothing more than for all of us to have our babies. I will pray for you ladies, my friends, and send baby dust to all of you.

 

[Cookie1979]

Thats great babybump, fingers crossed for you. Keep us posted!

Having abit of a panic, the hubby got a letter from the doctors surgery asking him to call to arrange a consultation regarding his semen analysis and a possible referral. Well to start with he's already been referred the semen analysis was requested by the fertility doctor at the hospital...Anyway I'm now panicking that his swimmers aren't normal this time. It was only December that he had his first SA and it came back normal (fertility doc said there were lots and all swimming in the right direction and good motility) so I'm worrying that something has changed. I hope not. He's ringing tomorrow to see if the secretary will tell him over the phone. I'm such a panicker, can't help it.

 

[Cookie1979]

Omg! I've just taken a first response test and I've got my bfp!!! So over the moon!!!

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

CONGRATULATIONS Cookie!!! That is awesome news! What a roller coaster! I'm so happy for you - a BFP has been very overdue on this thread!

 

[Srbjbex]

Oh my goodness what a surprise!! Congratulations Cookie, I cant believe it, what great news - let's keep the BFP rolling in - let's hope this is start of it for us all!!

 

[tommyg]

Fantastic news cookie fingers crossed for a sticky bean