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[tommyg]

Wish just thinking, you are booked in for a lap in May, right? I'm guessing that is when they will end up removing the cysts.
Huge hugs to you xxx

 

[Cookie1979]

Oh no Wish, so sorry to hear this and how frustrating that you've got to wait til Monday to find out what they are going to do. Try not to worry over the weekend, easier said than done I know.

Had a great weigh in thank you, 4 lbs off, total of 2 stone 10 and a half lbs which is 38 and a half lbs for those in America.

Hope everyone has a good weekend! My weekendd starts in about 15 minutes as I only work half day on a Friday. xx

 

[Asryellah]

Oh wish, not so good news I hope you are not in pain are you?
I have had 2 cycts in my life that i know, and the first one was so painful I couldnt even walk so i just got sickleave and waited for it to "burst" and it did - and no operations were done. But try not to think about it too much, soon you'll see your doc and find out how to proceed

Happy weekend to you all lovely Ladies so glad its friday yayy

and next week this time I will know if this cycle with shots worked..omg

 

[Wish4another1]

Thank you ladies for all your thoughts and comments! I am not in any pain - and honestly the reason I knew something was not right was my temperatures were higher than the should be for pre-o, i am having hot flashes at night, and the bleeding... funny how well I have gotten to know my body in the last 2+ years of TTC!
I am thinking I would like to just have the surgery now - it seems crazy to wait so long (june 5th) with all this going on inside of me...
I am hoping the dr looks at the ultrasound results and calls to tell me something today (restrictions - BCP script) you know anything!!! but if not well I will keep working (I am trying to leave early today - hehe)
and focusing on all the good things going on in the next few days - new house!!! today is my last day at work for 7 days and I am so happy - plus only 1 MEETING!!! YAY... so if I can leave early today - I am totally going to!

I hope you ladies have a great weekend! again thank you so much for your support - it does make it easier to get through these hurdles!!

 

[Srbjbex]

Eeeek. My gynacologist emailed to say there is a cancellation so I'm in for my lap tomorrow! !!!

Not got long to do a longer post at the moment but I will soon

 

[tommyg]

Hope it goes ok Bex. Take care of yourself after it.

Wish how are you Mrs, did you see the doc today? Sending hugs to you.

AFM Pint of blood gone, feeling tired. Even my fingers are too tired to type.

 

[Cookie1979]

Ah poor you tommy! Can't be nice having that much blood taken from you weekly, but it's going to help so much so worth it. Take care of yourself. xx

Wish - how did your appointment go?

AFM - I swear my boss has no filter between his head and mouth, I've got my pelvic ultrasound today, I'm at work and the hospital is less than a 10 minute walk away. Was getting a cup of tea and my boss came over, I said to him that I've got an appointment at the hospital this afternoon so will take a late lunch, he asked if there was something wrong, I said no I'm fine, then he asked if I was pregnant...I said no, and he proceeded to tell me that I should hurry up and pop out another kid etc etc. So I told him that I've been trying just shy of 2 years and it's not happening. That shut him up. I think we've worked together too long and he thinks he can just say what he thinks. Hopefully telling him that we've been trying a while will keep further comments at bay.

Had Reflexology yesterday, made me feel so much better, I've been feeling anxious lately, over everything, I think its because I should ovulate this week and I've put so much pressure on myself to conceive this cycle that I've started to feel anxious and those old feelings are creeping back in. So easy to be relaxed when you aren't trying, and the break has done me the world of good but it really doesn't take long for the worry to start up again. Just trying to stay calm and think positive. Decided to start charting my temp again for a while, I just want to confirm ovulation and then will stop, but with my cycles varying it will be peace of mind that we've done the deed when we needed to.

Nothing going on with me, as I said the reflexology yesterday really helped, she said my uterus feels really really good, although she did say my bowels don't, which isn't surprising as I've had IBS for the last 20 odd years.

Hope everyone is ok and had a nice weekend. xx

 

[Cookie1979]

Me again - just got back from my ultrasound, everything looks good, my polycystic ovaries don't look that polycystic and I have a dominant follicle so should expect to ovulate soon. All in all pretty chuffed and it sounds like all the weight I've lost has worked wonders on my PCOS.

 

[eyemom]

That's great news! :-D Also I had to say good for you educating your boss, those comments are the worst. I was always torn to say something or not, and while it's not really anyone else's business, it's an opportunity to educate, maybe save another woman the pain, and added bonus get him off your back!

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Hi everyone! How are you all doing?

Tommy - you poor girl.... Seems like you have had a lot taken!! Is it once a week you have to go? Sending hugs... I know it's hard but just think in the long run it's a good thing for you x

Cookie - good for you telling your boss that!! People are honestly so clueless but now he knows and will think twice in future! Way to go girl! I know it's hard to stay relaxed but hopefully the reflexology will help with that. Good luck this cycle but if you can try not to put too much pressure on yourself.

Wish - how did you get on at the Dr's yesterday? What are they going to do about your cysts? I hope you are ok. Sending hugs!

A big hello to everyone else!!

AFM: Well I have 3 more BCP's to take then hopefully that's me done with them! We're off to the clinic tomorrow for my SHG, Biopsy and Orientation so will get our protocol and meds etc. After that I think I just have to wait to bleed then get a blood test done and hopefully we are good to go!! Eeek! I'm trying to stay super positive about this one but calm at the same time! Have acupuncture again this afternoon so hopefully that helps things - so far I'm enjoying it and feeling good!

I hope you are all well xxx

 

[Cookie1979]

Sorry Bex, realised I didn't see your post. How was your lap? All go ok?

Orchid - How did the clinic go? I know how you feel, you want to be positive but you don't want to get carried away. I'm like that at the moment, feel like I'm now in the best position I have been since we started trying and thinking maybe finally it will happen, but so aware that I could well be setting myself up for a fall. How's acupucture going? I'm enjoying Reflexology, I'd like to think it's helping...my cycles are shorter than they've ever been before since going so who knows!

Wish - How are you doing? Happy Birthday! Hope you have a great day. I remembered because your bday is a day before mine. xx

Thanks eyemom - hopefully my boss will keep his mouth shut now.

AFM - well just waiting to ovulate, I dont temp or use opks so I do have to go on EWCM, had lots yesterday so if I dont ovulate today then I think I will tomorrow. Does mean I won't know an exact date, but my guesses are usually pretty accurate. Woke the hubby up early to dtd, he wasn't impressed but I refuse to miss an opportunity. The fertility doctor says he's got plenty so we are doing it every other day to every day, he'll be glad when I stop pestering him for sex lol! I said I'm not doing it because I enjoy it, just be quick!! lol Not sure that was the best thing to say, but I thought I was funny.

xx

 

[Srbjbex]

Hi everyone!

Cookie - I admire you so much for saying that to your boss! The number of times I had wished I had said that to people, I bet it feels like a weight off you chest knowing he won't be making comments anymore! great to hear all your positivity too!

Orchid - woohoo, hooray for the end of BCPs and ready to start on your ICSI journey! I'm so so excited for you and interested to hear of every step along the way.

Tommy - how are you feeling? any updates from your end?

Wish - so so sorry to hear your news, how did you get on at the docs earlier this week? Are you feeling any better?

Hi to everyone else!

AFM - well, I had my laparoscopy, and the short version of the story is that it didn't go as planned Turns out that my C-section caused a lot more damage in there than either we or my ob/gyn envisaged. He was meant to have a good look around and then remove the adhesions. But when he got in there he saw that my uterus was pushed at a funny angle right into my bladder. He said it was "horrendous" in there, and if I do end up getting pg naturally (super unlikely as it is) then the risk of ectopic is high.

He managed to get rid of a few adhesions on the right hand side, but the left was completely inaccessible and he was unable to get in there at all with his scope, and its basically stuck to my bladder. So what was meant to be day surgery didn't quite turn out that way as they ended up having to put a catheter and a drain in. Stayed in for a night and ended up coming home yesterday evening.

Next steps - well before we can even think about ICSI, I will need more surgery. He has suggested an MRI followed by repeat surgery to try and fix what is in there. But the surgery might have to be open surgery which is obviously a lot longer recovery time. feels like it really is one step forward and two steps backwards at the moment.

 

[Cookie1979]

Oh Bex I'm so sorry that things didn't go to plan with your lap, it must be totally gutting. It's better that you get the surgery to fix it all and delay getting pregnant than risk an eptopic, and I realise delays aren't ideal but better to be on the safe side. You do have time on your side though, according to your signature you are 31 so although delays aren't great, you do have time to play with. I know being told you have time doesn't make you feel better right now, but it's true.

So have they said when you will have the operation or is it a case of waiting for an appointment through the NHS and having no idea how long that will be?

Sending hugs xx

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Oh Bex, I am soooo sorry to hear that How disappointing for you although I'm glad they found out now rather than further down the line. I can't believe your c-section caused so much damage, it's just so unfair. I know you must feel so discouraged but just think once it is done then everything will be great and your chances of ICSI working will be so much higher. I'm thinking of you and sending big hugs. These journeys we are all on always seem to have so many set backs but we all somehow get past them. Stay strong xxxx

 

[momwithbabies]

Cookie: I laughed when you said the part about "I'm not doing it because I enjoy it...just do it quick." I think we've all been there and you have to laugh about it sometimes

Bex: I am so sorry. I agree with Orchid that this journey has its set backs, for sure. Wishing you the best on your surgeries.

I'm doing okay, I guess. It will be 3 weeks since I had my D&C this weekend. I've been keeping myself busy as much as possible, so I don't have to feel the pain. I know this isn't the best strategy, but otherwise, I'm afraid I'll never get out of bed.

They want to do a lap dye test two months post D&C to see if my right tube is damaged. He said he wants to wait two cycles, basically. I still haven't had AF. I spot, off and on, now. I wish she would return so I'd have one cycle under my belt. My blood work said my HCG is in the 200s...it around 36,000, so they said that was good.

Anybody out there that's had a D&C...when did you get your period back?

 

[Wish4another1]

cookie - I totally get what you are saying about - I wish my husband would oblige more... but you deal with what you have!! regardless I hope your sessions will be more than adequate this time!!! then you can get back to having sex for FUN!!!

mwb - I can't believe its been three weeks already... I hope everyday you find a little healing... and hopefully you can start trying again soon enough... Atleast if they do that testing you will know things are ok in there...

bex - wow I cannot believe the damage that c-section did...I am sorry you had to hear that news... Patience is the key right? Once that surgery is done you will be good as new!! then your BFP will be right around the corner!!

Tommy - hope you are feeling better today...

to those I missed...

AFM: my appt Monday was a huge disappointment... the Dr (1) again did not remember my history and started talking to me again like he didn't know what the hell was going on with me... (2) cancelled my LAP for June (3) wants me to go to STL and see a fertility specialists...I have told him how my husband feels about treatment in the past and that is why I wanted him to treat me... but now this dr has basically washed his hands of me... and now its friday and no call about when my appointment in STL is... (4) back on birth control pills (he gave me 3 months worth of pills) (5) he also claims the clomid is causing the cysts - even though I haven't taken a pill since December 23rd - and I took BCP from January till end of March - how can clomid cause this?? (5) he wouldn't give me any restrictions so I have to take my army phyiscal fitness test with these freaking cysts...

I did just happen to turn 42 yesterday - and I wonder why am I even doing this crap...
but now I feel as though I have to go to STL because my ovaries are now on overload and won't stop with the cysts unless on BCPs... someone has to fix this I cant even NTNP like this... I guess its STL...
and to top it all off - my vertigo is back... unbelievable... ready for this week to be over already!!!

 

[Cookie1979]

I'll reply properly later but wanted to share this link that came up in my newsfeed

https://www.buzzfeed.com/devonh4ad94b5be/ttc-or-gtfo?bffb&utm_term=4ldqpgp#4ldqpgp

 

[Srbjbex]

Hi everyone and thanks for your kind words. Im feeling better...abdomen still a bit tender but generally feeling good. We're away in wales next week so it's a well timed holiday! I then have a follow up appt with my dr next sat when we get back to discuss next steps.

Wish - ugh I feel for you so much as I read your post! I'm so sorry that your doc was such a disappointment. Can i ask what is STL? It's horrible when everything feels like such a battle. Sounds like a good honest chat with OH is what is required and lots of hugs xxx

Cookie - love the link! I'm so glad we have our little SI club here as SI is a whole different kettle of fish. In terms of my appointments i have the follow up next sat then I expect to be booked in for an MRI scan and hycosy scan. My dr is fab and is coding all this as gynacology rather than fertility so I'm covered by my OHs health insurance so we can do it privately and avoid the wait on the NHS. The lap was covered to so this is all very helpful!

Orchid - thanks hun. It sucks but I'm not done yet. With any luck I'll still be following you on the ICSI journey soon!

Mwb - i know exactly how you feel..keen to get going again. I didnt have a d&c with my mc but i think it was around 6 weeks after when my af returned.

 

[tommyg]

Good Morning from a very sunny Scotland ☀ . Got more time to chill this morning than planned, escaped the family and going shopping - alone - intended to get the train but I'm on a "replacement bus" which will take longer than the train would have. So will sit back and enjoy the ride as they say.

Cookie well said to your boss. TBH he might be as well to know about treatment as it can be a lot of appointments and a bit of boss sympathy can help.
Good to hear their aren't too many cysts. What is your next step?

Bex, I'm really sorry to hear about the scaring, did you have an infection after your c-section? The only other person I've heard of with similar issues had a really bad infection after hers. Unfortunately she was lay in the next bed to me after we both had laps last year, she was given similar advice to yourself.

This is a journey that is just full of set backs.

Wish sorry the doc is washing his hands of you. Given you now have a medical issue and not just a fertility issue will the army docs not step in to help you?

Orchid I'm praying for you.

MWB how are you doing and coping with the MC.

Afm, doing ok, yes bloods are weekly until my iron comes down. Back using herbal stuff. And going on holiday next week hence shopping. Think I'm due to ovulate soon.

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[Srbjbex]

Yes I did tommy! I had a nasty infection where they had to try 3 different types of antibiotics before they found one that worked! I'd never thought of it as connected until now. Interesting you came across someone in the same position but reassuring they were given similar advice to me.