35 and over and ltttc for baby #2 for over 2.5yrs!

[tommyg]

MWBs you've came through a heck of a lot. Mc is hard no matter what stage you are at and knowing your own life has been put at risk makes you feel your own mortality. Hugs remember we are here to listen.

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

MWBs I agree with what Tommy said - you have been through so much and it will take a lot of time. I'm glad you are able to be honest with your DH though - the more you can communicate with him the easier it will slowly get and at least he will understand a bit better. Sending big hugs

Hello everyone else How are you all doing? Thing have definitely slowed down on here the last week but I can't talk as I've not been on much either!! Maybe it's the change in weather - we're all happy to get outside again!!

Not much to report here... Day 10 of the BCP and our new "diet".... I'm not going to lie I'm not loving it but I have been so good and had zero wheat and wine for the last 10 days.... It's not easy but I think it's slowly getting easier, I just have to be more organised with meals etc but it's been ok. Frustratingly I haven't lost a single lb which I thought I would but I definitely do feel less bloated than I normally do. I had a sore head for most of yesterday and my moods are still up and done but I'm blaming the pill for that. Today I had spotting so will see what happens tomorrow.

I did have my first acupuncture appt last week which was great and I'm back again on Thur so looking forward to that. If anything I just want it to help me feel calm and not stressed about things especially since we are still going through the whole buying/selling our house fiasco. Not ideal when about to go through IVF but it'll all work out I'm sure.

I've had lots of really mixed emotions over the past few days about IVF but I feel a bit better today.... I guess i'm just a little in limbo right now which is hard when I know what is coming but we'll get there.... I'm also still a little concerned about my TSH levels - have any of your Dr's spoken to you at all about it?

 

[Cookie1979]

Awww mwb, it's so hard to go through, just give yourself time to heal. It's tough with men, they aren't usually good at showing their feelings, my hubby is one of those men that doesn't show his feelings. We had a loss before conceiving our son, his way to deal with it was to pretend it never happened, I got really annoyed not that long ago as we were talking about us trying, and I had to remind him that I have been pregnant twice, that it was a pregnancy despite it being an early loss. I guess that's just how he deals with things, but when you are going through something like that you want support and it doesn't help when they shut down. I hope he supports you, because just knowing you are in it together helps. xxx

Tommy - Plan is just to start trying again and hope that it happens. I've got my next fertility appointment in June, but hoping I won't need it. Gotta have hope. There's no plans for treatment, if it doesn't happen naturally then it won't happen at all. Hoping that I ovulate Friday next week, that's if my cycle plays balls and I ovulate cd 16 again, fingers crossed! It's my birthday next friday, so sperm meeting the egg will be a nice present. How are you doing? xx

Orchid - hope the acupuncture helps to calm you, thats why I'm doing reflexology...I do feel better, but might be the fact that I've had a 2 cycle break. Easy to be relaxed about ttc when you aren't actually trying! Good luck with your diet, it's hard when you have to cut out certain food. I'm trying to be really good this week, and I'm doing ok I think. xx

Not alot going on with me, still on my period but should finish today, hoping ovulation will happen at cd 16, which is next week. Got another reflexology next week too and just feeling hopeful. So excited that we can try again! xx

xx

 

[Wish4another1]

MWB - still thinking of you and all you have been through...

orchid - pretty sure I would fail at your new diet... I am happy to read how well you are doing and if your BFP comes because of it YIPEE!!!!

tommy - how you doing? where you at in your cycle?any closer to your next IUI?

cookie - FX you don't need treatment and this two month break is all you need!!

isaac and Lanet!!

Nikki - my birthday twin if you are still reading - hello and I miss you!! How is Australia and your LO??

Asryellah - how you doing? in the 2WW yes? any symptoms??

AFM: the just will not leave - which is a sign I have been stressed out - hmmmm that could be!! I have changed my picture to my new back yard! We signed the papers on the 15th and we are starting to move Saturday - I am hoping by Thursday next week (my bday) I am snuggly in our new house... I will be 42 and I am wondering if my TTC days are coming to an end... This Lap on June 5th will probably tell the story... I have had terrible hot flashes at night since coming off the pill and I have no idea why... waiting for the lap

 

[tommyg]

Wish happy new house, fantastic garden, sorry back yard!
Hope the witch goes soon, sorry you are feeling down about your age as you say the lap should throw up any issues. Still no sign of DH being willing to try treatments?

Orchard well done sticking to the diet, interesting that you are feeling less bloated, I'm sure the weight will come. Or maybe it's keep an eye on calories too. Could it be the pill stopping you loosing weight?
Hope you are feeling settled on the idea of going for the IVF you have to give it a shot or you'll regret it. Any sign of your house selling?

Cookie hope ovulation happens when you expect it.

Hello everybody else.

I'm doing ok, think I'm about CD19, another pint of blood gone, I don't think I could ever be a nurse and poke needles into people. I don't think I will ever handle being able to see a needle hanging out go my arm, she covered it with a tissue.

Totally off the topic question what sort of phones does everybody have?
My last one was a Samsung S4 mini I'm attracted to the S5 mini partly because it have waterproof rating but I don't really trust google and android. So not ruling out windows or iphone.
What would you recommend???

 

[momwithbabies]

Thank you, Wish. I know you're going through a lot right now, and I pray the lap brings good news. You're backyard looks amazing!!! I'm a tad jealous, lol! I hope your new home brings happiness and good feelings!

Tommy: Thank you for being so understanding. You hit the nail on the head! I hope I'm using an idiom that makes sense...I know different countries have different sayings. I appreciate how much you care.

Orchid: Yes, I've been working on being more honest with him. It has not been easy.

Cookie: Your husband sounds like mine, lol! I have to spell everything out for mine. He doesn't get it, but when I tell him, he is sympathetic. I just have to give him a good shove.

Hello, everyone and thank you for the continued support and prayers. Writing has been therapeutic for me these days.

 

[momwithbabies]

Today was my first day back to teaching (middle school Language Arts). It was rough. It didn't help that I maybe slept 2 hours last night...I think I was nervous of how I was going to put a smile on my face and be "normal." I did pretty good. I had some tears when students or co-workers came over to hug me. But it's nice to know people care. I did have to leave in my car for lunch so I could cry. I guess this is all normal from what I've read about recovering from a loss. It just takes time.

 

[Asryellah]

momwbabies - take your time to heal, do what ever makes you feel better and cry when you feel like it
my OH didnt know either what to say when I mc'd. But actually I didnt need him to say anything, just to be there to hold me if I needed. Time heals, sounds cliche but it does. Now when it has been a year, it feels more like ok that was natures way to handle it, he/she wasnt ready for this world. Hopefully she/he will see a new opportunity soon..mommys waiting..

Tommy- I have iPhone 4S and I've been satisfied. Has worked for the last 3 years. Only that when it gets really cold here in winter, like -15 - -25 c if the phone is not somewhere warm when outside it doesnt work so you need to warm it up first to get it working.

Wish4 - congrats on your new house maybe your body is just adjusting its hormones after the pill, with the hot flashes. I used to get those with clomid, ugh so annoying When are you having Lap, and what it is for?

AFM, i think i'm ovulating today? Had pains yesterday and this morning, but OH was such an ass yesterday and we didnt bd we did on sunday - so thats my only hope now that some have survived to the tubes. Unless well settle today and get the groove on depends how he acts.. Pisses me off this shit, when I go through all the shots etc and then we dont even have sex.

 

[Braven05]

Hugs mwb. I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I hope peace and healing come for you with time.

Tommy I have the S5. My husband sells phones and has fully converted me to being a Samsung snob lol he is too. He used to love apple products. Selling them for a living, he still definitely favors samsung/android over apple. I don't know much about Windows phones. I love my s5. Apparently the s6 is a really good phone too.

On another note, I have been taking vitex for a month now and my cycle was getting crazy. It was 37 days, 39 days, 34 days when I had been used to 30-32 days. After a month of vitex my cycle was just 29 days. So, if nothing else, it seems to be helping with the length and regulating that some. I'll be grateful for shorter cycles.

Hope everyone else is doing okay.

 

[Cookie1979]

Brave - Sounds like vitex is helping you, 29 day cycle is great. I just had a 30 day cycle I was so happy! x

Asryellah - hope ovulation is imminent and hubby doesn't annoy you too much. A few times I've been really annoyed with my hubby, but have pretended that I haven't got a problem with him to get him to do the deed, then after I'll go back to being pissed off. He said he felt used lol!! xx

Mwb - That first day back must have been hard, but it will get easier now it's out of the way. As others have said time heals, and it really does. xx

Tommy - I have a Sony Xperia Z3, it's quite a large phone but I like it, and it's waterproof which was a must for me as my last one fell down the toilet and died! I'm not an iphone fan, I did used to have one but really didn't understand what all the fuss was about. x

Wish - your bday is the day before mine!! I hope your ttc days aren't over and you get your wish, but I totally understand people that do stop...I think trying to conceive can just get too much. I certainly won't go on for years.

AFM - Well I'm having a good diet week, according to my scales I'm 3 lbs down already and weigh in isn't til Thursday...don't want to get my hopes up though as the most I ever lose is 2 lbs even on my best week and I wouldn't put it past my body to put weight on for no reason. Got 2 more weigh ins before my birthday and want good losses.

xx

 

[momwithbabies]

Thank you, ladies. You are all so understanding. These forums have been great therapy for me.

 

[momwithbabies]

A friend sent me this quote today. I know many of you have had a loss or losses before, so I thought I would share. Really, this quote goes with any loss of a loved one.

“Grief never ends… But it changes. It’s a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith… It is the price of love.”
— Unknown

So true.

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

So true indeed and so lovely....

 

[Srbjbex]

Hi Everybody! Sorry for being AWOL the last few days or so- was super busy at work the went on hol to Germany to visit my brother. No real news to report her other than AF arriving today - bang on cue so cant complain about that at least. Need to chase up consultant or next steps to see whether anything needs to happen the icsi chat on 13 May.

mwb - stay strong hun. You're doing great. I know from experience it can feel like a lonely world after a loss but it's all natural and normal.

Orchid - well done you on no wheat for all this time! I bet it's making you eat more interesting things anyway!

UGH my keyboard is being rubbish so it will take me about 3 hrs to reply individually so I will leave it for now a try again later!!

 

[Wish4another1]

everyone!!!

bex- I am jealous you going to Germany for Holiday!! My sister was stationed in Germany for three years and I went to visit 2 times - awesome!!!

MWB - still thinking of you!!

Orchid - I am so impressed with your dedication to the eating!! I know you are going to get your BFP at the end of this!!!

Tommy - howdy!!! hope all is well on your side of the world!!

Cookie - Hope your weigh in went well today!!

AFM: I went to the doctor today because I have been bleeding for 12-13 days now - only been off the BCP's since 28th of March - bad news to report I am afraid - or atleast not good news - well first off the dr had to cancel seeing me today because of some emergency surgery issues - but they wanted me to go ahead and have the ultrasound - glad they did - I have alteast 4 cysts they can see - one large fluid/blood filled cyst on my left ovary - and 3 on my right ovary - 1 is large and looks to be filled with blood - while the other two are solid (or at least more solid - definitely a different color on the screen than the cysts filled with fluid)

not the news I wanted to hear - and I don’t even get to talk to the dr about what now until Monday at 250pm - so these things are going to keep growing all weekend!!! I don't even have spare birth control pills to take - if that would even work... I don't know what my restrictions should be… nothing… I am very frustrated and concerned

 

[tommyg]

OMG Wish, I'm so sorry to hear that, can't believe they are leaving you until Monday before you see the Doc. Sending huge hugs xxxx

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Oh Wish, no!! I can't believe that! Do you have any clue as to what they will do, how to remove them etc? Poor you. I'm sending really big hugs to you I totally understand your frustration and concern, I just hope as of Monday they have a very clear idea of how to proceed. Look after yourself xxx

 

[momwithbabies]

Wish, I'm so sorry. Thinking of you, too!

 

[Braven05]

Wish, I'm sorry to hear about the cysts! How scary. Hope they get you in soon and figure out what to do with them. Hugs.

 

[IsaacRalph]

Sorry to hear about that wish, Pesky cysts! Big hugs xx