39 and trying to conceive:-(

[drsquid]

she is early 30s. but teaches several intense classes everyday, does crossfit etc. so my 2 hrs a day about 5 days a week is no biggie and i certainly dont do her intensity. bah, i feel a bit better today but.. still just so frustrated

 

[Bonnie1990]

i hear ya....

 

[Casper72]

Cycle cancelled.
I had follicles that were too big and ones that were too small.
They are not calling me a poor responder yet.
They said its just not an optimal cycle.
Better to wait until next time and not waste anymore time.
Now I can't wait to get my period.
It could be in one week or two weeks, no one knows.
I don't even know if there is any benefit to trying naturally but I guess I will take the OPKs until they are positive and try for the hell of it.
I have one blocked tube and my lining is too thin so chances are really slim.
They say I will take same meds and same dose next time but add estrogen to get a thicker lining.
I guess I'm ok.

What did they consider too big for follicle size?

 

[Casper72]

casper- im glad you could get over it so quickly. im finding that harder and harder. the instructor at my gym is pregnant and it was an oopsie (i guess it is reassuring that if she can get pregnant, my level of working out is no big deal). it is stupid but i almost feel like everytime someone else gets pregnant that decreases my chances, like there are a limited number of pregnancies to go around ,.

I know how you feel, trust me I do. I suppose if I didn't already have two daughters then I would be really bothered by it. It's not her fault she got pregnant easily and I'm not. I figure if I were to get mad and stay mad about it, that will only bring me bad karma. I know it's easier said than done sometimes though. Hang in there!

 

[drsquid]

yeah having no kids it freaks me out thinking that maybe i cant get pregnant.. got us at work today. i now have something that is 1.2 cm on the right (had a 2.3 cm cyst on monday) it doesnt look irregular so im hoping it is a follicle and not a deflating cyst. had smaller ones on the left. we will see what happens. also got a sperm count on the new sperm that just arrived 28 million/ml, 50% motility, progression of 3

 

[Bonnie1990]

fx'd--when is iui?

 

[Casper72]

hi all, could I join this group please? 39 and a half. TTC for about 14 months now. Would be my first. Sorry to hear about your problems Squid. When you are a teenager, you assume you get pregnant at the sight of a sperm and yet here we are, doing all these things to make a baby!
Can I be honest and say sometimes I wonder how much I really do want a baby? My life is pretty easy going, I have no money worries. We live in a one bed flat so I would need to look at upping my mortgage for a bigger place which would mean I would have to return to full time work (I am the major bread winner) at some point. Im going to be 40 in October and my OH 50 next year - are we just too old for this? Then again, all my friends are popping them out and I dont want to not experience birth and motherhood. Does anyone have these worries? Is it terribly awful to feel this way?

No, it's not awful to feel that way at all. You are just being honest with yourself. I am not exactly in the same situation since I already have 2 daughters and husband had 2 of his own as well, we are trying for one together. I am 39, my girls are 20 and 14 so I am nearly done raising them. Sometimes I think I'm nuts for wanting to start all over again when life is so easy, money isn't a problem, we can pick up and go anywhere whenever we want without too much of a hassle and do I really want to give all of that up for a baby? Well yes I if it happens, but it's not happening as easily as we thought it would. We may not have to worry about it if I'm never able to conceive. So in some ways it would be the tiniest bit of a relief but on the other hand it would be terribly sad for us and would always feel like there is something missing between us. So I put it in God's hands cause I figure he knows better than me and if it's meant to be it will be.

 

[PositiveUs]

Cycle cancelled.
I had follicles that were too big and ones that were too small.
They are not calling me a poor responder yet.
They said its just not an optimal cycle.
Better to wait until next time and not waste anymore time.
Now I can't wait to get my period.
It could be in one week or two weeks, no one knows.
I don't even know if there is any benefit to trying naturally but I guess I will take the OPKs until they are positive and try for the hell of it.
I have one blocked tube and my lining is too thin so chances are really slim.
They say I will take same meds and same dose next time but add estrogen to get a thicker lining.
I guess I'm ok.

What did they consider too big for follicle size?

32, 31, 29mm follicles were the ones that were too big. They were big to begin with and that's why they were going to cancel me before I even started stims but for some reason they said they wanted me to start stims even with these follicles that were 20 and 17.5mm prior to stims.
The left ovary had one 13 and one 14mm and multiple <10mm when they cancelled me.

Altogether, that's a lot of follicles regardless of size for a person with an afc of 2! So I am pretty f'in happy regardless.!

 

[greenjelly]

hi all, could I join this group please? 39 and a half. TTC for about 14 months now. Would be my first. Sorry to hear about your problems Squid. When you are a teenager, you assume you get pregnant at the sight of a sperm and yet here we are, doing all these things to make a baby!
Can I be honest and say sometimes I wonder how much I really do want a baby? My life is pretty easy going, I have no money worries. We live in a one bed flat so I would need to look at upping my mortgage for a bigger place which would mean I would have to return to full time work (I am the major bread winner) at some point. Im going to be 40 in October and my OH 50 next year - are we just too old for this? Then again, all my friends are popping them out and I dont want to not experience birth and motherhood. Does anyone have these worries? Is it terribly awful to feel this way?

No, it's not awful to feel that way at all. You are just being honest with yourself. I am not exactly in the same situation since I already have 2 daughters and husband had 2 of his own as well, we are trying for one together. I am 39, my girls are 20 and 14 so I am nearly done raising them. Sometimes I think I'm nuts for wanting to start all over again when life is so easy, money isn't a problem, we can pick up and go anywhere whenever we want without too much of a hassle and do I really want to give all of that up for a baby? Well yes I if it happens, but it's not happening as easily as we thought it would. We may not have to worry about it if I'm never able to conceive. So in some ways it would be the tiniest bit of a relief but on the other hand it would be terribly sad for us and would always feel like there is something missing between us. So I put it in God's hands cause I figure he knows better than me and if it's meant to be it will be.

Thanks for that Casper. I'm on an 'on it' day today. I think a baby would be a very welcome addition to my life. We shall see, as you say let Fate take a hand. Are you looking to have fertility assistance?

 

[Casper72]

greenjelly-Yes, I had my 3rd IUI on April 25th and am still in the TWW but not feeling very hopeful. I have all of my pre-AF symptoms just like every other month. I'm trying to stay calm and keep positive but I know in my heart it did not work. So we are done with assisted tries. My doc said there is no need to do more IUIs. Everything was optimal this month and he said if it doesn't work, it's time to explore other options. We can't afford IVF so we will continue to try naturally until 2/2013 then we are done.

 

[trying4four]

Casper72, my FX'd for you for a BFP this month.
Have you thought about coming up to Canada for IVF? I think in my town it's something like $6K and then $3K for the following two rounds. Don't know if that's an option but I do know some Americans who came here as in their state IVF was something like $25K.

 

[Bonnie1990]

The price difference is boggling. US healthcare is way to "business" driven but will never change. I work in healthcare so I see it all. That would be a great option for you if you can swing that Casper, being that you are already so far north.
Another option is a "shared risk" program where you ate guaranteed a baby or you get your money back. It's so hard to gamble the cost of IVF.

I honesty have no idea what we would do if we came to the point of IVF being an option. DB has the finances but would we spend it or not-would I go through all of it or not I just don't know.

My fingers are crossed for you that this cycle worked. Everyone says how af and pg s/s are similar....I frankly don't remember at this point.

 

[PositiveUs]

Just waiting forto drop by so I can get my baseline scan to see if I have any cysts so I can start another cycle of mini ivf. I didn't check opk this month. I didn't BD at the right times. I stopped temping. I've gone AWOL! I almost feel disconnected from all of this like I don't care whether this works or not. I don't look at babies and wish I had one. I don't look at pregnant women and feel jealous. I would not be suprised if the baseline scan prevents me from beginning a new cycle and if I get the chance to start a cycle, I am will not be suprised if it is cancelled again. I wish I could have a good cry but I just don't feel enough emotion to even cry.

 

[Casper72]

Our 3rd IUI failed. The witch got me 2 days early with a furry.

trying4four-I had never considered going to Cananda for IVF, thank you for the info. That is about half of what our clinic here would charge us and we are very close to the border, in fact my husband and I have been to Victoria, BC 3 times in the past year. If you have any links to clinics or good info for me, please share.

 

[AltaMom]

Our 3rd IUI failed. The witch got me 2 days early with a furry.

trying4four-I had never considered going to Cananda for IVF, thank you for the info. That is about half of what our clinic here would charge us and we are very close to the border, in fact my husband and I have been to Victoria, BC 3 times in the past year. If you have any links to clinics or good info for me, please share.

I'm originally from Victoria, BC, but now live in Alberta. There are a few fertility clinics in Vancouver; Victoria isn't really big enough to support a clinic. As far as I know, couples travel to Vancouver for treatment.

 

[trying4four]

Our 3rd IUI failed. The witch got me 2 days early with a furry.

trying4four-I had never considered going to Cananda for IVF, thank you for the info. That is about half of what our clinic here would charge us and we are very close to the border, in fact my husband and I have been to Victoria, BC 3 times in the past year. If you have any links to clinics or good info for me, please share.

Hey, that's where I am! Come visit me!
Here we have the Victoria Fertility Clinic. Dr. Hudson is absolutely wonderful and I could provide you with many, many references (and babies for that matter) for him. I saw him when I was TTC #2 and I'll be seeing him in July. Their website is: www.victoriafertility.com They do have an international clientele, and I believe that you can do your first consult over the phone.
I'm so sorry that your IUI failed. I hope this might be an option.

 

[trying4four]

I'm originally from Victoria, BC, but now live in Alberta. There are a few fertility clinics in Vancouver; Victoria isn't really big enough to support a clinic. As far as I know, couples travel to Vancouver for treatment.

Yep, we have our own. We grew
Where in Alta are you now? I've lost friends to Calgary and Grande Prairie in the past few years

 

[Casper72]

Our 3rd IUI failed. The witch got me 2 days early with a furry.

trying4four-I had never considered going to Cananda for IVF, thank you for the info. That is about half of what our clinic here would charge us and we are very close to the border, in fact my husband and I have been to Victoria, BC 3 times in the past year. If you have any links to clinics or good info for me, please share.

Hey, that's where I am! Come visit me!
Here we have the Victoria Fertility Clinic. Dr. Hudson is absolutely wonderful and I could provide you with many, many references (and babies for that matter) for him. I saw him when I was TTC #2 and I'll be seeing him in July. Their website is: www.victoriafertility.com They do have an international clientele, and I believe that you can do your first consult over the phone.
I'm so sorry that your IUI failed. I hope this might be an option.

Thank you so much for the great info! I will be checking out the link. Did you get pregnant on your first IVF try?

 

[trying4four]

How are you ladies doing? Any symptoms or BFPs yet?
AF is due in four days for me and I can already feel her coming

 

[Bonnie1990]

Hi. Not too many symptoms but my chart has been great this cycle.
11dpo and bfn on a sensative strip so I figure I'm out.
How about you-when are you testing?

Ps-edit. Your chart looks great too and I see you have been testing!