Hey girls,
So sorry I haven't been on, wanted to say Happy Christmas to you all. Hope all the bumps are doing well and all those still ttc are holding up ok.
I've had a lovely Xmas, just off to my parents today for a couple of nights. Can't wait to see them and my sisters.
I didn't update you all fully on this thread......my d&c was scheduled for the tuesday morning after i had my scan on the monday but the evening after my scan the hospital called and I was asked to go in because my hcg levels had gone up again and they were concerned (again!!!) about ectopic pregnancy. This was just the last straw for me, the stress of it all became too much and I pretty much broke down. Anyway my partner was great and took me to hospital with an overnight bag and I checked in. At this point I became upset but also quite angry that I'd been left for a week without monitoring when the ectopic threat was still there. I was scared for me and my little ones in case I'd had a rupture or something. Anyway the consultant saw me and said that I would have to have a laproscopy as well as the d&c. I had to sign all the worst case scenarios for tube removals and blood transfusions etc...The next morning I was first on the list for operating. I was in theatre for 45minutes or so. They did the laparoscopy (keyhole camera to check tubes) and couldn't see an ectopic pregnancy so they did the D&C and have sent contents to be examined.
Everything went well and I was so relieved it wasnt ectopic. I'm recovering well and haven't had any pain from the d&c and now the bleeding has pretty much stopped. I have two cuts one in my belly button and one lower down, from the keyholes, they are a bit sore but more than bareable. I feel a huge sense of relief after those few weeks of not knowing and waiting and actually things feel ok now. i understand that it wasnt meant to be and can move on.
I bought my angel baby a little decoration for the christmas tree to remember Him/her by.....And next year is a new year and a new start ttc. Hope you ladies are still here with me? I must admit when I started this journey in August I never thought I would have gone through all that by Christmas but I'm stronger for it (I hope).
Much love and happy Christmas to you all. Xxx