A group for TTC#1 and had more than one loss?

[Emmediva]

Here is my little boy showing his goods and a profile pic

 

[horseypants]

Emmediva, u r wayyyy more than a teeny tiny bit pregnant mamma, congrats!!!!

 

[Emmediva]

Emmediva, u r wayyyy more than a teeny tiny bit pregnant mamma, congrats!!!!

LOL, yeah, I think I may need to change that part of my profile now huh? I see you are close to ovulating! Good luck catching that egg!!! Go GO!

 

[wookie130]

Emme, a boy! Huge congrats!

 

[thurl30]

Thanks again for the kind messages everyone

Monro fingers crossed for you hun, I hope that line gets darker

Emme huge conratulations, your pic is fabulous, so clear too

 

[BeachChica]

Hi girls! :wave: we are heading out on our boat for the weekend so just wanted to catch up with everyone before we go as internet access is sometimes sketchy!

NTAL - when you see Prof Q would you mind asking him for some info on the NK cells and how this is tested. I need to provide some info to my doctor about this as it seems they are not really familiar with this procedure in the US. Sounds like you have all of the parks covered!! Hope you have a fabulous time!! Yes, I am very close to Busch Gardens.

Thurl - I am so happy on how your chart is looking this month!!! Not sure what was going on last month. Definitely keep up the temping!!! FX for you!!! I did get prego one cycle when I stopped BDing like 5 days early too. Thinking about you and your family as you guys go through this tough time. Hoping everything will turn out ok for your MIL.

Oh Monro - I totally understand that you are upset about your SIL Its totally normal. You just have a lot of emotions going on right now and its hard. You will get your rainbow, be strong and don't worry about what's going on with her. Oh regarding your temp, I would only use the temp from the method you normally use to temp and remember it should be your first temp of the day before you step one foot out of bed. I see a slightly line. Did you test again today?

Emme - were you getting soy from a health food store? If so what brand? I have not been able to find it at my local pharmacy. Great pics!!! So glad things are going so well for you this pregnancy! I am so glad you pregnant girls stay in here to give the rest of us hope. We've all started in the same boat and it's great to see that there is a happy ending to all of this!!!

 

[Emmediva]

Beach, you made me thanks hun, I'm so thankful all is going good with my bub, especially after all those scares in the first tri I never in my wildest dreams thought I would make it this far, yet here I am. Never lose hope keep your chin up, you will get pg again soon and it will be your rainbow I'm praying for you
Re: Soy, I got mine at Whole Foods, 60 capsules, it has 500mg of soy, 5% Isoflavones, 25mg. I took 3 per night from cd5-9, I wrote down what I took for this pregnancy in my TTC journal, I took several things with the Soy. I took Maca root which supposedly helped since I had recurrent mc's. Pm me your email and I can send you the list of things I took.

 

[Ambivalent]

Thank you, emmediva and beachchica. It isnt until it all goes wrong that you realise just how inexact a science medicine really is.

I am feeling so fed up and hopeless right now. I am ovulating, i am getting pregnant, but i cant seem to hold on to it. I think i just had my third cp this month, third cycle in a row. Last time i had progesterone suppositories which didnt help, so i dont know what else to do. There are blood tests i have to wait 8 weeks to do from miscarriage, so i have to start the countdown all over again now but i will do hormone profile tests this week.

My closest friend is 4 months pregnant. They were trying for all of one month before having a perfect pregnancy which is great, but also so hard to be around when i keep failing. I really know how you feel, Monro.

 

[NewToAllThis]

Monro - I think we can all relate to how you are feeling. I too have had horrible thoughts about people who have straight forward pregnancies and no issues and claim to understand how I feel. How can they? |Sometimes I think, well maybe they'll lose on and then they'll know how I feel - and that's awful I know
My SIL got pregnant 1st try and sailed through her pregnancy (it was the same time as my 1st loss) and her little boy will be 2 in January. So I have a constant reminder when I see him that I should have a baby the same age.
She is going to be trying for her 2nd soon, I dread that day when she tells me she is preggo - I know I will fall apart.
Whilst I'm having a moan, I hate the people on FB who are ALWAYS moaning about being pregnant...

Did you test again - I thought I saw a line on your pics but not sure if I have line eye

Thurl - I'm so glad they can help your MIL and it's good that they are going to operate as soon as possible. Hope all goes/went well

Horseypants - As I said above, you are definitely not alone in your feelings. FB does my head in. I have contemplated suspending my account so many times but I'm nosey so don't think I could live without it. I just try to scroll past the negative pregnancy comments.
It is definitely different on here though - the feeling of joy when one of us gets that BFP or a positive scan, its lovely

Monro, after a lot of therapy and large support group sessions, I came to learn that what you're feeling is COMPLETELY and ABSOLUTELY NORMAL for women in our situation, and it hurts even more when it's a family member. You are entitled to anything you're feeling, actually, and you should not feel guilty. It's natural, and the only thing that will begin to lessen these feelings toward pregnant friends and family is when you become pregnant yourself with your actual rainbow baby. That is literally the only thing that has truly helped me so far. And God forbid, if something goes wrong with this pregnancy, I'll be right back to where you are...those feelings of resentment when I hear someone talking about their pregnancy, and the adversive reactions to seeing pregnant ladies, etc. It's a terrible to feel these things, and those feelings are usually followed by guilt...like, "Why can't I just be happy for ________?" Or, "I feel like a crazy person. I feel jealous and bitter." Well, just know that this is a natural response, and it does not make you a terrible person. It makes you NORMAL under the not-so-normal circumstances.

^^^^ WSS Thank god - we're normal


Emme - thanks for the info, will be buying the drugs in massive quantities if I can find it on holiday. Hope I don't get stopped as a potential drugs dealer on the way home. Peddling drugs to increase sperm count
I'd never heard of Mucinex, but will definitely give it a try. I did try cough medicine with Guaifenesin for a couple of months but as it was liquid it made me feel a bit so as Mucinex is tablets, I can just add it to the list of pills I'm already taking. I do seem to have a lack of EWCM so it would definitely help get those on their way! I have Conceive Plus which is similar to PreSeed I think and I have a syringe to get it to where it needs to be but to be honest I don't always use it as its a bit of a passion killer tbh!!

Oh, and your little man is certainly not shy - look at his weewee
Gorgeous pics hun

Beach - Enjoy your boat trip. Oh to be able to just get on a boat at the weekend and enjoy some good weather. I hate the UK for its crap summers!
I am jealous that you live in such a wonderful place too but I suppose its not that special if you live there all the time iykwim.

I will definitely get as much info from Prof Q as I can. As far as I know and have been explained, it is a uterine biopsy whereby they take a sample of your lining and test it for levels of NK cells (which we all have naturally to fight infection). They can do a blood test too but the levels in your blood may not correspond to the levels in your uterus so its not known if that is accurate enough to be trusted.

Ambivalent - to you, I know how you are feeling. Its tough. As my DH has a low sperm count, it takes me aaggges to get pregnant and it is so frustrating when people get pregnant quickly and have no issues. The hard part for me is that they don't realise how lucky they are and that any one of us on here would give our right arm to be that care free about TTC and pregnancy. As I've said before and I'll say again, I truly do not know how I would have coped with what I have been through without BnB and all of you girls. It makes me realise that I am not the only one to have issues and that sharing our problems and helping each other is working wonders for me.

And you are right, fertility is a bit of an unknown quantity when things go wrong. I understand your frustration as I have had all of the tests (apart from NK) and they all came back clear so WTF is going wrong?!! Chin up chuck, we're all here for you

AFM - went to a surprise 30th birthday party last night and had a couple of drinks - feel rough this morning as I haven't been drinking much lately due to the diet. Feel guilty too as not been too good diet wise this past week. Not going to get on the scales

No sign of O yet despite feeling achy ovaries the other day - not in a rush to be honest. Only just starting to feel normal again.
Packing today I think... plus taking Milo (my doggy furbaby) for his cut and blow. I don't know what I would do without him. A cuddle off my baby makes everything better

 

[NewToAllThis]

Just checked out the nutritional content of DH's Wellman Conception tablets and they contain the following. Says per 2 tablets but dosage is one per day which I find odd.

Would an additional dose of L-Arginine be best? Not sure what the recommended dosage of this is for sperm volume but 5mg per tablet doesn't sound like much!

Lycopene Extract 1.5 mg
Peruvian Maca Extract 250 mg
Pine Bark Extract 30 mg
Octacosanol 3 mg
Inositol 40 mcg
L-Glutathione 2.5 mg
L-Arginine 10 mg
Siberian Ginseng Extract 30 mg
Co-enzyme Q10 2 mg
L-Carnitine Tartrate 50 mg
Citrus Bioflavonoids 10 mg
Vitamin A (2500 IU) 750 μg RE
Vitamin D3 (as 600 IU) 15 μg
Vitamin E 30 mg - α TE
Vitamin C 90 mg
Thiamin (Vitamin B1) 12 mg
Riboflavin (Vitamin B2) 5 mg
Niacin (Vitamin B3) 18 mg NE
Vitamin B6 10 mg 714
Folacin (Folic Acid) 400 μg
Vitamin B12 75 μg
Biotin 150 μg
Pantothenic Acid 10 mg
Magnesium 60 mg
Iron 6 mg
Zinc 15 mg
Copper 1000 μg
Manganese 0.5 mg
Selenium 150 μg
Chromium 50 μg

 

[Sooperhans]

Hello lovely ladies, am back from a really fab time in Corfu - gorgeous villa, we had some friends come with us for the first half, great food, the island is so pretty. Ah lovely!! And loads of bd'ing!! The OPKs worked really well, as the 2nd line got darker my dh was really onboard, I think he liked seeing the "evidence" and hard proof of ov. So he was really proactive with bd'ing too, some for holiday fun too!!

Anyway, the OPKs showed I ov'd a little later (CD19/20), so I'm waiting until the end of the weekend to start the prog. Feeling really positive and probably setting myself up for disappointment but I'm hoping that as it's my Birthday weekend (party tonight, actual tomorrow, woo), a little bit of holiday magic too thrown in, that maybe this month is the month!!

Just catching up with everything, I'm still reading through the posts. Beach, absolutely devastated for you, so so sorry about your sad news. Those docs better cooperate with testing for NK cells, I hope you don't have to fight for what you should get anyway. I so hope everything works out for you, you deserve the best. Hope your time on the boat is relaxing and spending time with your dh helps you both.

Hope everyone else is well - Thurl, Monro, Lady, NSN, NTAL, Nicki, Emme (great news and a little boy, yay), Ambivalent - welcome and thanks for the info on the liquefaction - hoping that it'll be ok for my dh too.

Gotta go now and get ready to party!! Had my nails done, getting my hair styled later. Yay party xxx

 

[Sooperhans]

Meant to say hi to Lexi too...sounds crap that your work is do busy. Make sure you don't work too hard, they will have to do without you soon, don't let them wear you out x

 

[thurl30]

Beach thanks for the help with my chart, I am much happier with it this cycle too, I know it's a late O but atleast it's an O (or it looks like it anyway). Have a lovely relaxing trip you really deserve it

Ambivalent sorry you are feeling down, it's so hard especially when people close to you are pregnant, you will get there hun

NTAT good to hear you let your hair down, don't worry about the scales it happens and next week is a new week

Soop glad you had a great holiday, and fab news about feeling positive, it makes such a difference to getting through those days before testing, have a great time at the party and wishing you a very happy birthday

Afm, I went to my first ever doctors appointment for my fertility this morning, I was absolutely bricking it and honestly just thought they would say go away and lose weight, but the doctor was so lovely and she does think I probably do have pcos, but I am having the 21 day blood test on Monday morning (I will actually be on day 33 then!!) but FF says I have only just O'd so this test should confirm whether I have or not, she has also sent off a referral for me to have an ultrasound on my ovaries so just have to wait for that appointment to come through, it was quite an emotional appointment but I am so happy that I have finally told someone about my issues

Hope everyone has a great weekend xx

 

[BeachChica]

Emme- thanks for the info the soy. I will send my emai address so you can send my a list of your small pharmacy!

Ambi- so sorry you ate feeling down, I know it's hard.

NTAT- yes we do take the weather here for granted sometimes but one thing I o hate is all the hurricanes!!!

Oh Soop so glad you had an awesome time on your vacation! And glad you got a lot of BDing in!!! I really hope this is your month!!! happy birthday also!! What a great present that would be!

Thurl- glad you are starting some testing. I hope you get some answers. Did you take your chart with you? My doc likes to see mine and I always feel like any extra info I can provide helps!!

 

[thurl30]

No I didn't take my chart with me, but when I go back and see her after my ultrasound I will take them just in case she wants to see them. Taking my temp has really chilled me out though, I no longer spend a fortune on pg tests because I know there isn't any chance, where as before I was always stressing with the am I or aren't I, thanks again for all your help with it x

 

[ayclobes]

Emme - I am a couple weeks behind you! I had the Quad test 8/29 and the results came back normal also!

Monro - I can see it in the first couple pictures, but after that I have to look kinda hard --i think b/c the lighting is weird? but my first few bfps at 7/8/9 dpo looked like that! GL!

 

[BeachChica]

No I didn't take my chart with me, but when I go back and see her after my ultrasound I will take them just in case she wants to see them. Taking my temp has really chilled me out though, I no longer spend a fortune on pg tests because I know there isn't any chance, where as before I was always stressing with the am I or aren't I, thanks again for all your help with it x

I actually like to temp too, it really makes me feel like I know what's going on with my body, when to expect AF etc. I think your chart is looking great this month!!

 

[thurl30]

Thanks Beach, I just got back from the hospital to have my blood test, she is checking all sorts like fsh, lh, day 21 progesterone, testosterone, even my thyroid and glucose, I feel like I am having a little MOT How are you doing now?

 

[BeachChica]

That's great Thurl- when will you get your results back? I am doing fine, had a nice relaxing weekend out on our boat with DH. Just anxiously awaiting my tissue results back. I have a post-op appt this Thursday with my RE but I don't think my tissue results would be back so soon.

 

[thurl30]

Good to hear you had a relaxing weekend, did they give you any idea how long your results will take? I really really hope you get some kind of answer I am waiting for an ultrasound appointment, my doctor then said when I have had my ultrasound to book an appointment for about a week later, and she should then have all my results back, she did say she thought the results would confirm what I already know (i.e she would be able to diagnose me with pcos). I am just praying that my ultrasound shows normalish ovaries, if they are completely wrecked with cysts then she said I would have a much harder time of it, so all I can do is wait at the mo