A group for TTC#1 and had more than one loss?

[lexi374]

Hey florida how are you doing? x

 

[FloridaGirl21]

had some spotting at 3w6d & 4w.. It's gone now, praying it doesn't come back! My first beta came in at 371 (4w exactly), just got my 2nd one done this morning.. Hopefully I'll get those results back today! My Progesterone came in at 23.7 (it was at 5.4 during my tww) & I'm on progesterone suppositories so they seem to be working.. If my 2nd beta comes back good then it looks like all is going well so far.. My first appt isn't till February 3rd, for now.. Hopefully that changes soon, 5 weeks seems like forever away.

 

[lexi374]

Good luck hun keep us posted x

 

[Applejack1]

Thank goodness for you people. Things are better here this morning but I did sleep most of the night in the spare room! I won't lie! You are so right men and women are so very different. I turly believe his fear translates into him saying "if we don't have. Holden we don't have children". It drives me nuts. Hard feeling like you are the only one being optimistic. But I won't give up. Xo.

Good luck fg

 

[patiently]

Hi ladies my younger sister is pregnant and she has just told me...i can eel the tears forming so i hugged her said congrats and kept a smile on my face but inside im crying and im screaming and im so angry....my family are all around and i obviously cant show how im feeling as they will think im being selfish but i cant help how im feeling...how can it be so easy for other people and so hard for me! omg i just want it all to end...sometimes i wish i never started this journey i just feel like i should give up on life itself...why do i bother why do i even try...what is the point..I GIVE UP! i surrender and i just cant go on anymore...no more trying...im done ive had enough...i cant even turn to anyone for words of encouragement...now ive gotta be there for my little sister and tbh i dont know how im going to cope...i know i seem selfish and im sorry for the rant ladies...i ask myself WHY GOD? and i cant seem to get an answer...so if i cant get an asnwer as to why then how will i get an answer when i pray for a baby...sorry again ladies

 

[Tweak0605]

Oh hun I'm so sorry Please don't give up. You will get your forever baby, we all will. It might just take some time, but we will all be pregnant again and we will all be the mommy's we always dreamed of being. God's just taking His time, creating the perfect baby for us. Just remember how sweet of an experience it will be when you do get pregnant again, how you won't take anything for granted, how you will cherish each and every moment.

 

[lexi374]

patiently im sorry hun that is a kick in the teeth for you about your sister!

Surely your family will understand you being a little upset? Are they pleased for her? My parents wouldve kicked my ass at 18 saying that!!

Please dont give up, this is an awful, horrible journey we are on but we have to keep trying. We WILL get our babies!!! And we WILL love them soooo much!!!

xxx

 

[Ladyfog]

Hi everyone,

AJ - sorry DH has said some hurtful things, but sometimes it's hard for them to understand how we can put ourselves through so much pain and heartache again and again. Glad things are a bit better now

Good luck tweak - loving the calm attitude this month FX for you.

Florida - hope the spotting was baby settling in - good luck with the next set of tests!

Patiently I know it must be sooo hard when someone close to you gets pregnant just like that. Still, as much as I want a baby now, I would never have wanted to be pregnant at 18. I have experienced so much in my life and feel I will be a better mother for it. Not that 18yr olds can't make great mums, but I have so much more go give a baby now. You will get your baby and it will be worth the wait. Please don't give up hope. I hope your family, especially your sister are looking after you. Hope that's not too rambling!

AFM - still pregnant I'm pleased that time is flying by - can't wait to get to the 23rd to see if baby is OK. Off for DH's Christmas do today so will have to deal with more questions and worried looks, but hey ho.

Hope you all have good days.

 

[Neversaynever]

Lady...glad you're hanging in there still roll on 23rd for more answers and good news

Patiently...wish I could come and give you a massive hug for real now is the time time to print off that thoughts from a mother, pass it round your family and take time out for YOU. It is so hard having new pregnancies around us...I only feel happy for the ladies in here, the RMC and PAL ladies because I know that they've been to hell and back. Sounds selfish but I can only cope with that and it's the way it is. I also recommend you start a journal hun. My first one was when I was at rock bottom and wasn't even sure I wanted to have any children anymore due to all the pain I was feeling. Getting all my feelings out whether they were good or bad helped me immensely. Don't be so harsh o yourself...you've had a tough time

Lexi...you about to O now? When you back at work?

Tweak...come on Xmas baby

FG...I think you have two in there

AJ...glad things are better men really are from another planet

to anyone I've missed

All ok with me...symptoms have buggered off but trying not to panic too much I know they come and go but I need the reassurance!!!

XxX

 

[RaspberryMini]

patiently - sorry to hear your having a bad time. It's always upsetting when those close to you give you that news. Two of my closest friends found out they were pregnant just as I was going through my first mc. You want to be pleased for them but it is so hard

Apple - I had bleeding early on in this pregnancy and I saw a very active baby with a very strong heartbeat on Wednesday, I think it's something a lot of people go through in the early days.

NSN - I really wouldn't worry to much about symptoms yet. My boobs have hardly hurt at all and my sickness didn't really kick fully in until week 7 and I haven't really had much cramping since about week 6. I know it's a worrying time, but each day is a new milestone, if they do kick in you'll be wishing them gone!

Finally boked in with midwife yesterday, no major problems, I might need to start to take a low dose asprin as we are going on holiday to California/Vegas for three weeks and because of my history and risk of clots they think it would be best. I'll see her again before I go and then when I come back it will be my anamoly scan!

I'm still very sick and the midwife has suggested this could last up to 4 more weeks yet I should be in work today but off sick as I spent most of last night throwing up. I know it's all worth it in the end but I really couild do with a break now!

For those that want to see here is my scan pic from Wednesday, it's not great quality I'm afraid as It just taken on my iPhone from the picture itself and it looks massive so apologies

to everyone else and Happy New Year to you all. May 2012 be the year of positive pregnancies

Spoiler

https://i1202.photobucket.com/albums/bb378/AmyRLeighton/IMG_0333.jpg

 

[FloridaGirl21]

patiently, I'm so so sorry I know how hard it is, to try to put on a happy face for someone else when they've got the one things you want most. My cousin is about your sister's age & I found out she was pregnant back in August & was happy for her, but devastated at the same time. She's in a relationship with someone & she's really not happy with them,etc..

Anyway, I know your time will come again! Please don't give up hun

 

[lexi374]

Nsn im back at work tues,will be a shock to the system as ive been doing sod all and getting up late!

I found a digi opk in the drawer the other day, decided to do it yest about 6pm and lo and behold i got a smiley! Great lines when i took the stick out too! Ive never got on with opks, i drink too much, cant hold my pee and always miss the surge so was well happy to see that!
Id told dh it was my fertile time the day before anyway based on last couple of mths charts, but he was saying he didnt feel great and was chesty etc, didnt tell him bout the opk cos didnt wanna put more pressure on, but was thinking you better bloody put out!! He did though, now if i can get another deposit tonight we should be good!

Dont worry bout losing symptoms as the other ladies said they come and go, theyll be back before you know it, do you have a scan booked?

Are you still going ahead with rpl testing in jan?DH sa test?? My DH has a sa test next week, hes already whinging and moaning saying itll be crap cos hes drunk too much over xmas and been eating shit! Oh well ive had enough tests he can get on with it!

Patiently

to tweak, aj, ntat, florida, lady, raspberry, beach and any1 i missed and any lurkers xxx

 

[patiently]

Florida good luck with your beta results hope all is well...

Applejack im so sorry your OH isnt being more understanding I hope he realizes what you have been through fully and can be more sensitive in the future...sure he's probably scared but so are you...yet the thought of having a baby is what keeps us going...hope he will be more understanding towards you and your feelings x x x

Tweak thank you for saying God is trying to make the perfect baby for us and maybe thats why its taking a while to get my bfp...that really helped...How are you feeling? hope you get your bfp!!! x x x

Lexi my older sister said that i was being a bit selfish yesterday and said that i should explain how im feeling to my younger sister so she can get her head around it because its a lot for her to deal with...and i know shes right but i cant seem to get my head around my own situation let alone someone elses...i dont think my parents will be angry tbh i think they will be understanding as they love and cherish the gift of children...i think they wanted more for her to go to university like she planned to etc but they would never tell her what to do...congrats on your positive opk...fingers crossed you catch the egg...or eggs...you never know :wink: have fun bd tonight too!!

Ladyfog Love your scan pic so much such a cute baby...i hope have fun at your OH's christmas do! and im sure the 23rd will come quickly...

NSN thank you for your words...i was contemplating doing a journal but feel like no one will be interested to hear my long winded story...but maybe it will be a release..i will perhaps attempt one today and see how it goes..i'll just surround myself with tissues in case...and try not to worry about your symptoms hun so many people say that they lost their symptoms and still went on to have h&h 9 months...take it one day at a time and before you know it you'll be in the second trimester...loads of hugs to you hun...hope all is well and your symptoms get more intense to reassure you...

I am currently on cd 8 and will be back to work on monday so bd will become much more of a challenge then...but i will be using opks and have started to chart but find it difficult to get three hrs sleep before i take my temp...aww well i can only hope i dont really want to stress over it this month so we'll see how it goes...

And last but not least to all the ladies on here i just wanted to say a huge huge huge thank you for all of your support and encouraging words...i really feel like i have made "friends" on here and you really help me at my lowest moments and when it counts the most...i really do hope that we will all go on to sharing parenting advice in the future and no longer ttc after loss...and that we will all get our sticky bfp's real soon...

 

[lexi374]

Hang in there hun, i think that was a little harsh of your older sister

As we all know no one understands the pain of mc until they have been through it themselves, you can try and explain as best you can but i dont think they will fully get it unless they have been there themselves. Maybe just keep your distance a little until you feeling stronger to deal with the situation, im sure in time it will be a bit less painful and you will make a great auntie!

As for the temping give it a go as best you can, i never sleep great and rarely have a solid 3hrs before i temp but i try and keep it around the same time and can usually see a pattern on my chart.

x

 

[FloridaGirl21]

patiently, I also think that was a little harsh of your older sister.. This journey is so much harder than people realize!

My 2nd beta came in at 944, my doubling time is 35 Hours.. Now I've got to wait until February to be seen!

 

[lexi374]

Yay congrats florida!

 

[patiently]

thanks ladies...x x x

Congrats Florida!!! yayyyyy!!!! great numbers x

 

[Tweak0605]

Patiently - I'm glad my words helped That was very harsh of your older sister, to say you were being selfish. No one knows what it's like to go through a m/c if they haven't been through one themselves. To say you were being selfish is way uncalled for. Try not to worry about your sleeping pattern, just try and take the temp at the same time every morning. I have very erratic sleeping patterns, so I'm sure there's some nights where I don't get 3+ hours of sleep before temping.

Lexi - Yay for the smiley OPK!!!!! Happy BDing!!!

Florida - Awesome news!!! Congrats!!!

 

[NewToAllThis]

Happy New Year one and all. Wishing healthy babies for all preggo's and sticky BFP's for the rest of us (soon, please!)

 

[lexi374]

Happy new year ladies please let 2012 be our year!!!!!! x