tickledpink
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I haven't been a member of this forum for very long but me and my OH will have been TTC for two years in January. He's due to have a small operation on Monday for varicocele to help with a low sperm count and I'm due to start acupuncture for irregular cycles the following week. After struggling with doctors over the last 12 months just to get this far, I'm now starting to wonder if it's all worth it.
I tried the 'PMA' thing this cycle, I started temping and using some decent OPK's (for a change). I got my first ever +OPK and we'd been BD'ing several days before so we stupidly thought we were in with a chance! I'm still waiting for AF to arrive but I know she's going to be here soon, I can just sense it. I don't think the 'PMA' is going to work, it's just setting me up for an even bigger let down when I get that I'm now trying to convince myself that I'm 'not' pregnant so that I won't be so upset when AF arrives but that's only made things worse. I went to work Monday, a friend said hello and I burst in to tears. Ever since then, I can't seem to stop crying. I've even taken today off work because I started crying again and I can't remember why I started. The OH was worried about me and talked me in to going back to the doctors. She suggested anti-depressants... again! I stupidly started crying while talking to her about it Anyways, I told her no but she said to have a think about it.
I want to be a mother more than anything but the way I'm feeling at the moment, I can't ever see it happening. We have another hospital appointment in May next year, the first one being in May this year. I sat there for an hour telling them everything i had told my doctor, only for them to tell me to have sex more often and come back in a year when we qualify for IVF My brother and SIL have no health probs at all but they've had 3 failed IVF attempts and I can't help thinking if they can't conceive, why on earth do I think we will?? I'll be 35 next year and the OH will be 40! I feel like they're not helping at all and just want to tell everyone to stick it!
The OH keeps asking me if I've thought about what the doctor said, as he hates seeing me so upset and is worried that it's going to make things harder TTC. I know I can't keep taking time off work just because i cry alot but i don't know if tablets are the answer. I know I can't be the only one that feels like this, but does anyone think meds will work??
]*Sorry for the long ramble*
I tried the 'PMA' thing this cycle, I started temping and using some decent OPK's (for a change). I got my first ever +OPK and we'd been BD'ing several days before so we stupidly thought we were in with a chance! I'm still waiting for AF to arrive but I know she's going to be here soon, I can just sense it. I don't think the 'PMA' is going to work, it's just setting me up for an even bigger let down when I get that I'm now trying to convince myself that I'm 'not' pregnant so that I won't be so upset when AF arrives but that's only made things worse. I went to work Monday, a friend said hello and I burst in to tears. Ever since then, I can't seem to stop crying. I've even taken today off work because I started crying again and I can't remember why I started. The OH was worried about me and talked me in to going back to the doctors. She suggested anti-depressants... again! I stupidly started crying while talking to her about it Anyways, I told her no but she said to have a think about it.
I want to be a mother more than anything but the way I'm feeling at the moment, I can't ever see it happening. We have another hospital appointment in May next year, the first one being in May this year. I sat there for an hour telling them everything i had told my doctor, only for them to tell me to have sex more often and come back in a year when we qualify for IVF My brother and SIL have no health probs at all but they've had 3 failed IVF attempts and I can't help thinking if they can't conceive, why on earth do I think we will?? I'll be 35 next year and the OH will be 40! I feel like they're not helping at all and just want to tell everyone to stick it!
The OH keeps asking me if I've thought about what the doctor said, as he hates seeing me so upset and is worried that it's going to make things harder TTC. I know I can't keep taking time off work just because i cry alot but i don't know if tablets are the answer. I know I can't be the only one that feels like this, but does anyone think meds will work??
]*Sorry for the long ramble*