Almost 44 final ttc journey -- buddies needed : )

[lunamoona]

Well so much for OPK's making your life easier Becks, still, your not out yet, fingers crossed for you.

Carmel, looks like your hormones are still settling down, I'm sure you will have a better cycle this month.

Tag, I am stalking your chart! It looks great so far, fingers crossed.

I am on CD3, taking my first Clomid today and feeling super nervous about side affects. The last 2 months I've had ovulation pains for the first time in my life so not sure what's causing that

 

[Oasis717]

I know! Its just made everything worse lol. I'm really starting to question if I'm actually going to be successful in having another lo. I really think that considering we have no medical help at all that I need to do what dh has done and accept it. I'm not sure why I'm still fighting it so hard! My life has been on hold since 2012 and has been dominated by losses, TTC at what point do you say enoughs enough? Feeling a little down about it all x.

 

[tag74]

Well so much for OPK's making your life easier Becks, still, your not out yet, fingers crossed for you.

Carmel, looks like your hormones are still settling down, I'm sure you will have a better cycle this month.

Tag, I am stalking your chart! It looks great so far, fingers crossed.

I am on CD3, taking my first Clomid today and feeling super nervous about side affects. The last 2 months I've had ovulation pains for the first time in my life so not sure what's causing that

The chart does look good, but I'm starting to realize they all do before AF comes. Another BFN this am at 11dpo. But thank you for the support!

I had a rough cycle this time with Clomid, I get why your nervous. It was mostly a day or two after O though. So not too long. I have everything crossed for you!

I know! Its just made everything worse lol. I'm really starting to question if I'm actually going to be successful in having another lo. I really think that considering we have no medical help at all that I need to do what dh has done and accept it. I'm not sure why I'm still fighting it so hard! My life has been on hold since 2012 and has been dominated by losses, TTC at what point do you say enoughs enough? Feeling a little down about it all x.

Oasis, I am completely with you. I have extra weight on me too and it's all getting me down. I think we will give it through December and then get back to living. I have even thought of adopting. I don't know. Big hugs to you!

 

[Oasis717]

Thank you I think the same I originally said another 6 months TTC but I think come January I really need to start living my life before I get too old! I've got another stone to loose then I'll see how I feel but its awful not feeling yourself and I've spent the last 3 years overweight! So its good to be just half a stone from normal weight now. I just need to make sure it never goes back on again! Xx

 

[tag74]

I completely agree. Between my two losses the past 6 months I gained about 20 pounds. I'm sure part pregnancy/part depression. If I lose the 20 I'll feel back to my old self and can get back to my jeans and not live in yoga pants.

 

[Oasis717]

I totally think its depression from the losses for me too you kinda comfort eat but it only ends up making you feel worse in the end! My waist was 39 inches when I started just after i had Brooklyn and its 29 now so that 10 inches is more important to me than the weight, I can't believe it when I look at the v few pics of me in 2014! Never, ever again xxx

 

[tag74]

Yes!! It's so hard to lose the weight after 40 too!

My chart is super cruel as another BFN this am and DH and I have decided to NTNP and just get back to life. Kind of relieved to be honest.

Hoping maybe it'll happen for us without trying but not counting on it.

 

[Oasis717]

Your chart is looking amazing! What tests are you using? I know I've said same to dh today that I'm so sick of hoping and hoping every month and being consumed by symptoms, lines on tests etc, one more try in DEC when I think we'll start bd a bit later on around CD 11 cause bd every day for ages always gives me thrush I really, really hope that one day we both get a wonderful surprise bfp without all the stressing xxx

 

[Oasis717]

I'm not getting anymore ics from this person look at this evap it's the second in the few I had, have run out now, just as well! Xx

 

[lunamoona]

Oasis and Tag, I'm sorry you are both feeling a bit down and despondent. It is a very stressful journey at times, especially when we see other woman shelling them out like peas. If TTC is taking over your life and making you unhappy then why not just NTNP. You have to look after yourselves too

AFM I got a bit chicken with the Clomid, took 50mg the first day and had wicked hot flashes which is a totally alien feeling for me as I'm Hypothyroid and always cold. I'm just going to take 25mg each day now to see if my ovaries are going to blow up after ovulation. If they don't I might go for 50mg next time

Hope everyone else is ok

 

[Oasis717]

Good luck Luna hope it helps. Well I have brown stringy cm today and cramps surely AF won't be here on CD 20? Maybe its another run up to a short cycle, if i have another 26 day cycle AF is due in 7 days x

 

[cherryxo]

hello ladies, I would like to join you all here if thats okay. I am 43 and currently 6dpo. (AGAIN)

 

[Oasis717]

Hi Cherry how are you? I'm 6dpo today, only symptom today is v sore boobs but I get them pre AF too so nothing much to report x

 

[Sunshine14]

Welcome Cherry this is a lovely group of ladies and ur very welcome x good luck with ur ttc journey xxx

Becks do u think that stuff could have been implantation bleeding hun?

Mel I think ur right to start on the lowest dose possible and work ur way up good luck this cycle xxx

I'm cd8 today and no colour on opk yesterday but has a bit today so I'm hoping it will progress and I might have a normal cycle this month following mc. Seems to be a pattern of mc followed by wonky cycles for a few months as had short cycles after ectopic in January too. The joys of ttc .....

 

[cherryxo]

Thank you Sunshine and Oasis for the welcome.

Oasis, I'm well thank you. The only symptom I've had is some pinching on 5dpo and some dull cramping(gone now). No sore breasts. Today I feel defeated, guess its just one of those days. How long is your LP?

Sunshine, so so sorry for your loss. xx
The cycles following my losses (7wks each) were actually longer than normal. 33 & 34 days where normally they are 28. The last mc was Oct 2015, so this is my 2nd cycle since and things are still a bit, I O'd 2days early and here we are.
Guess all we can do is let our body settle back into its natural rhythm right?? Ugh... and hope it shapes up QUICKLY since we feel short on time already, frustrating!! That would be fantastic if it normal's out for you this round

 

[Oasis717]

Hey Carmel, my body seems to have no rhyme or reason these days so no idea! But it was just that one morning of brown and nothing since but these cramps have been going on for about 4 days now, bought some 6 day early ICS off Amazon and thought I saw a line but it was gone after 10 mins. I'm usually spotting pre AF by now but nothing as yet. Had a lovely evening with Adams family at our local having a meal, I'm 44 on Tues! Xx
Cherry I'm usually about 11/12 days but I have had shorter 26 day cycles lately so not sure, feeling v out as only have pmt symptoms except this bloody cramping which hasn't stopped in days xx

 

[lunamoona]

Hi Cherry, good to have another lady join us. I'm 46 so I'm no spring chicken but I'm still ovulating every month and I'm stuffing myself with supplements and trying Clomid. Hope you get your BFP soon.

Oasis have you taken another test? I've had that brown stringy stuff with implantation so fingers crossed it is a good omen for you.

Carmel I'm CD8 today so just behind you. I'm all quiet at the moment, too early for me to ovulate so I'm just waiting to see if my ovaries have a hissy fit when it happens.

Tag, hope you're OK, see the witch got you

 

[Oasis717]

Yeah thought I saw a squinter this morn but I don't think its anything! No symptoms anyway just pmt ah well, no spotting at all since that tiny bit brown on 4dpo xx

 

[lunamoona]

Yeah thought I saw a squinter this morn but I don't think its anything! No symptoms anyway just pmt ah well, no spotting at all since that tiny bit brown on 4dpo xx

I'm going to be optimistic for you, those are good signs but I understand you will want to be cautious. Those lines are sooo frustrating, even when stark white you can still see a line in your minds eye, then when there really is a line you can't believe it's real! A few more days will tell.

 

[Oasis717]

Ah thank you but I think I'm def out zero symptoms just pmt and all aft my usual pre AF spotting brown and cramps. I think we will try just one more month and that will be it for us xxx