Almost 44 final ttc journey -- buddies needed : )

[Sophie2015]

TTC- I'm almost afraid to ask but been thinking about your genetics test. Any news? FX'd still!!!

 

[TTC74]

The only news is that the lab tech was completely wrong on the time of results estimate. We should get the results by Friday. Hopefully sooner.

 

[AngelUK]

How frustrating! What a wait!

 

[TTC74]

Yep. 7-10 business days. Dr's office says it always takes 2 weeks.

 

[Sophie2015]

Ugh!!! I'd be climbing the walls by now. So sorry. But hopefully good news soon!!

 

[CaliDreaming]

I am starting to experience some side effects from DHEA. I take 50 mg in the morning. I've been getting headaches. I've reduced the dose down to 25 mg in the meantime.

I'm wondering though if I continue at the 50 mg dose, will the headaches eventually get better or is reducing the dose the better option?

 

[Sophie2015]

I'd reduce the dose. The goal is to not have any side effects because side effects indicate the dose is too high usually.

 

[Sophie2015]

Hi ladies. I didn't just want to disappear. Had my 8+2 ultrasound today and there was no HB. Baby stopped growing in the last 2-3 days. My RE isn't ready to quit but after 5 losses we just aren't sure. I wish you all the best. Thank you for letting me join your group and for supporting me.

 

[AngelUK]

Oh my dear, I am so so sad for you! How devastating!

 

[TTC74]

I'm so sorry Sophie.

 

[lunamoona]

So sorry Sophie

 

[CaliDreaming]

Sophie, I am so sorry. Heartbreaking news...

 

[Sophie2015]

So so angry today. Life is just not fair.

 

[AngelUK]

 

[CaliDreaming]

So so angry today. Life is just not fair.

I don't blame you for being angry. It IS unfair and makes no sense whatsoever that people who have so much love to give can't have a baby but there are so many unfit parents who get pregnant at the bat of an eye. I do a lot of work for a child protective services agency and there are so many children who are born who suffer from the day they are conceived. It's just one of the things I can't make sense of and have never been able to accept.

 

[Sophie2015]

Cali- that's why I finally left my NICU job last month after 14 years. I worked in a huge level III unit. We saw it all. And it was maddening to go in and take care of a baby with selfish, drug addicted parents, who cared more about a deadbeat man than their own baby. And it never failed each mother had 6 or 8 kids and did absolutely everything wrong during pregnancy. While I'm over here living in a bubble averaging 2 mc's a year. It's all so senseless.

 

[CaliDreaming]

Sophie, I know I would not be able to do a job like that day in day out even without having gone through the struggles you've endured TTC. I think you made the right choice leaving because it's so easy to get burned out when you deal with children in misery everyday. With my job, I don't work directly with the children and parents but even so some of the cases that come across my desk are very disturbing and it's tough knowing that most of the kids are destined for foster care and dysfunction and that nothing can be done about it.

How is it possible that so many people hooked on drugs and who have all sorts of of other health concerns can have healthy children easily when women who are in good health and do everything right can not? It's just mind boggling... Since you can't force people to use birth control it seems like nature would have some sort of built-in safety stop switch for this but there's not.

I know you've said that this is your last attempt and with what you've been through that is understandable. But I do hope that after some time has passed you might feel the urge to keep trying. Although the age of your eggs is definitely a factor, I suspect there must be something else going on as well.

 

[Sophie2015]

We've sent this one off for genetics. We did this with our 2nd loss but it was too degraded for results. This baby was bigger though and based on growth from 6 week ultrasound to 8 week ultrasound Dr said it died sometime over the weekend.
I've been tested for EVERYTHING. And everything is normal. We'll see what genetics says. We have decided to do 1 round of ivf with pgd. It's frustrating to spend that money because we can conceive easily on our own but it's the only way to assure healthy embryos implant provided they survive all the steps needed to determine chromosomes and then transfer. It's our $30k shot in the dark. 😕

 

[TTC74]

I will be praying that your ivf session works out. You deserve a healthy baby. Like you ladies have been discussing, it's so unfair that women who do not care for their children can give birth to healthy babies all day long.

 

[AngelUK]

Good gosh that is steep! I hope it will work. Fx sooo much!