Almost 44 final ttc journey -- buddies needed : )

[CaliDreaming]

AngelUK, that is very weird with the dates. Maybe you're not actually ovulating? It just seems like it would be unlikely that your luteal phase would be 4-5 days shorter.

Also that is interesting info about antisperm antibodies. It sounds like another area where doctors don't exactly understand what is going on. Is your hubby taking anything now? I was going to have mine try L-glutamine. I hear people have success with tribulus but it tastes foul so I would never be able to get dh to choke it down.

 

[AngelUK]

Nope mine is very reluctant to take anything at all. He usually even forgets that our difficulty to conceive before was due to his antibodies rather than anything to do with me. Not atypical for men I believe.

 

[Sophie2015]

Hi ladies. I'm reading along and so interested in what you have going on but am too heartbroken to comment.
IVF is off the table. We've paid 13k up front for IVF plus PGS. Today I found out we've met our max drug benefit for the year and my fertility drugs are going to cost us an additional 16k. We just can't do that. I'm beyond angry at God and feeling terribly hopeless. After everything we've been through to have it end like this has completely broken me.

 

[AngelUK]

Oh my gosh that is horrendous! Will you get that money back at least? How heartbreaking and unfair

 

[Sophie2015]

We'll get the 13k back eventually. But had I known I wouldn't have gone thru all the testing and required classes we've had to do.

 

[Sophie2015]

I literally feel lifeless.

 

[AngelUK]

I wish I could help. I can only imagine how devastating this must be to you

 

[CaliDreaming]

Sophie I am so sorry. It's just so unfair.

 

[TTC74]

I'm so sorry, Sophie. There are no words.

 

[Sophie2015]

It has taken my entire day but I've found my drugs for roughly $4000. I won't feel great about it until the order is processed and the drugs are safely in my fridge. Praying for no more surprises. Starting to think it's just not meant to be.

 

[TTC74]

Praying for you, Sophie. You got this.

 

[Sophie2015]

Thank you TTC. Life is so unfair. I think we are currently out almost 17k and I don't think anyone really believes I have any good eggs left. I'm trying to stay positive but it's starting to feel like a huge waste of time and money.

 

[AngelUK]

Oh well done! FX this will work!

 

[CaliDreaming]

I'm so relieved that you were able to find the drugs at a more manageable cost!

FWIW, I believe you have good eggs left Sophie. I also think being on blood thinners will help as well. You have had a lot of obstacles on your journey, but you're also overcoming a lot of them.

Even though no one can say at this point whether or not IVF will work, I think it's clear that you were at least meant to try. There's just no way you could have decided NOT to spend $17K with all that you've gone through.

 

[Sophie2015]

You ladies are awesome. Any of you want to adopt me? I'm tired of being an adult. 😕

 

[Sophie2015]

And can I just say I have no idea how the IVF Drs expect people to stay calm and relaxed when every step of this process is so complicated!!

 

[Sophie2015]

So. Last Wednesday I had an obviously dark LH surge. We BD'd that night and OV was Thursday based on mild cramping. My BBT rose slightly Friday morning and by Saturday morning was in the 98s always my indication I def O'd (pre OV is always in 97s). Last night I had cramps and tugging on R side of uterus. Gone after a few hours. This morning my BBT dropped into the 97s. It's 8dpo today. My BBT never drops this early and I've never started AF before 14-15 dpo. Implantation dip? Dare I even think it?

 

[TTC74]

I'll be stalking you!

 

[AngelUK]

Oooh dare I hope with you?!

 

[Sophie2015]

BBT is 98.53 this morning. So a 0.5 jump from yesterday (97.99 yest). This is my highest BBT this cycle and is a "normal" pregnancy BBT for me meaning it's never this high unless I'm preg (98.2-98.3 post OV is my norm). Had awful cramps last night and I just knew my body was out of whack and I was gonna start a week early. But they are gone today. It all looks suspicious but I just keep reminding myself the odds are low and all these signs are just signs of confirmed OV and P4 production. But still. What if....