laura11111
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I'm almost four weeks away from being 20 weeks pregnant. I don't yet have my ultrasound appointment, but I'm getting nervous.
I still have hope that it could be a girl, which is what's keeping me going. By that, I mean I'm so tired (caring for my two year old and eight month old on little sleep). This pregnancy was a surprise and I'm still not ready for another baby. We wanted to wait.
My husband and I are going to lie to everyone about the ultrasound date so that we can have a couple days to let it sink it (if it's another boy). I won't be able to handle any "I told you so's" right away. I mistakenly joked to my mother-in-law that it's definitely a girl and she quickly shut me down. Told me not to get too excited because it could be a boy. I explained that I know it could be either, but I think it was too late and it's now in her head that I'm expecting a girl.
Seriously, I'm going to need some counseling if it's a boy. I don't know how you just give up a lifelong dream of having a daughter. I'm already bitter that I'm the ONLY one of my friend's and family that didn't get one of each for their first two. I'm going to have to learn to let that jealousy go and be happy for them. I am thankful (of course) that we were able to have children and so far, they are all healthy. I guess all of our problems are relative.
The plan is for my husband to come and sit in the waiting room. I'm going to ask them to tell him so he can tell me after we leave. I don't want to cry in front of the ultrasound technicians. I'm sure I will seem very petty as they've probably had to tell people some very bad news about the health of their baby. I don't even know it mine is healthy yet.
Those are just my thoughts. My oldest is still napping so I had some time and wanted to get them out.
Thanks for listening.
I still have hope that it could be a girl, which is what's keeping me going. By that, I mean I'm so tired (caring for my two year old and eight month old on little sleep). This pregnancy was a surprise and I'm still not ready for another baby. We wanted to wait.
My husband and I are going to lie to everyone about the ultrasound date so that we can have a couple days to let it sink it (if it's another boy). I won't be able to handle any "I told you so's" right away. I mistakenly joked to my mother-in-law that it's definitely a girl and she quickly shut me down. Told me not to get too excited because it could be a boy. I explained that I know it could be either, but I think it was too late and it's now in her head that I'm expecting a girl.
Seriously, I'm going to need some counseling if it's a boy. I don't know how you just give up a lifelong dream of having a daughter. I'm already bitter that I'm the ONLY one of my friend's and family that didn't get one of each for their first two. I'm going to have to learn to let that jealousy go and be happy for them. I am thankful (of course) that we were able to have children and so far, they are all healthy. I guess all of our problems are relative.
The plan is for my husband to come and sit in the waiting room. I'm going to ask them to tell him so he can tell me after we leave. I don't want to cry in front of the ultrasound technicians. I'm sure I will seem very petty as they've probably had to tell people some very bad news about the health of their baby. I don't even know it mine is healthy yet.
Those are just my thoughts. My oldest is still napping so I had some time and wanted to get them out.
Thanks for listening.